Thoughts in a rainy morning

I should focus on my goals. Fightings and misunderstandings are just distractions.

Less drama, less bullshit.
Less bullshit, less problems.
Less problems, happy life.

Yes, I believe to the saying, "Happy wife, happy life".
But the wife should be mature and responsible enough to manage the family.

Well, I'm not in the "own family" goal/phase yet. There are more important things I got to do than flirt and flirt and think of love life. "Laman tyan muna bago landi."

I also believe that the right person stays. I am already in the phase "If you wanna stay, stay. If you wanna leave, leave." 😉 Life will be troublesome if you push a person to come/stay in your life. If ハニー is the woman God gave to me, then fate will find ways (BDO). 😆 And if you love the person, you'll give the person the freedom. You'll let the person grow. And that's my resolution to ハニー. She may look young but she's fierce. She's just kinda lost too. She needs to figure out herself first. And this is the thing nobody can help her. There are things that we need to do on our own - even I, no exception.

Even Thanos sacrificed his one and only love of his life - his adopted daughter - for his destiny. (Watch Infinity War if you wanna know what I mean. 😁)

Ayaw ko na pangunahan si God. It will not do me good. Been there, done that. Nothing good happened in my life and I just became frustrated and depressed. So I will just let God and Holy Spirit guide me to the path where I should be going. ☺️

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On the other hand, at the top of my head, I want to have good terms with my mother as much as possible. One time, I thought, if I am not mistaken, she's the fourth in the siblings. My grandmother died at the age of 60s I guess. The eldest sibling, Papa Kiko, died very young (20s) due to accident. 2nd, Tita Glo, died at < 65 because of stress. Tito (60s), 3rd, has now problem in heart. *knock on wood* God, please heal him and he may reach the age of 80+.

And I just thought, their family has early age death rate. *knock on wood* but I want my mom to look after her health now. I want to take her to her dream places as I don't want to have regrets in the future. 😢 My teammate, JC, did regret a little because he and her mom were supposed to go to Japan when she comes home as OFW from Saudi. But instead of her mom, alive and kicking, she was in a casket. 😭 It's very sad. I didn't even know what to tell to him that time. No words can console a broken heart from a deceased family. The light part, he still went to Japan, brought her mother's picture, and took selfies together. 🥺

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So my focus now should be family and getting successful/rich first before personal lovelife. Well of course, travels on the side. 😁

Short term goals:
- Invest to stocks/UITF
- Travels
- Own place/house/home
- Family

Long term goals:
- Other source of income (much greater than salary as employee)
- Investments
- Own family that includes house
- Travels