I’ll tell you R

Why it's always the same.
You should have already started moving on.
Break free from a toxic person. You don't need it.

I know you really wanted to forget that you once loved the person.
Pretend so that you can still live altogether under one roof until you finally move to your own house.

Don't let your heart be swayed over and over again.
You don't deserve it.
You need peace.

10:17PM

Para kong maglalayas nito. 😆😅

Well, until 21 na siguro ko dun. Hanggang matapos graduation ko.

Isama ko na sila Api, Frappo, at Toothless.
Si Roshi ay kaya na siguro nila. Madudungis lang si Rosh sa bahay. 😅

I already wrote my To Bring and prepared other stuff.
I'm just hoping that my ordered mask for graduarion will arrive tomorrow.

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I think I need a week to be far away from C. It's not the first time I've been telling myself to break up with C. And I've already told myself months ago that I should start moving on. I've already cut my ties with my ex. And soon, if this gonna be my ex, I'll immediately cut ties after settling the papers.

Sukoshi, if we'll break up, she and her sister will go back to their house. Then should I go back to our house? How about all the stuff and appliances I accumulated? Should I continue living independently? As much as I want to, I don't have the means. I've got so many rocks throwing at my head right now. 🫠 Find a housemate? It'll not be easy and I have pets. Find a partner right away? It will be difficult too, not unless no strings attach and just for convenience. 🤔

God, I really don't know what to do anymore. Please give me knowledge and wisdom to make sound decisions in life. In Jesus name, amen!

Budgeting is my weakness

I would love to travel again.

But my expenses are gripping to me tightly. 😞

Parang gusto ko maging single ulit. Then go back to my parents' house. Pero sana yung hindi na stressful gaya dati (reason why I left home). Para sana meron matira sa sweldo ko kahit papaano. 😞

I spent 15k~/monthly for the daily cost of living (food, rent, utilities, pet). Then 50k~/monthly for the monthly loans.

God, please lead my life. Please tell me what I should continue or let go because you have other greater plans for my life. Please grant me, even a little, skills in budgeting own's money. So help me God. Amen!

Expenses that make me think about my life

When every month you think of suicide just to escape all the financial crises you're experiencing. But then, you just thought of "Bahala na po kayo God. I don't know anymore."

It's been months already since I started to think, are these things worth it? Should I continue them? Letting go Batangas or Filinvest for sure will freed me up some space so that I can start traveling again. But then again, I pray, "God, please let the way. Pls tell me whether should I continue or not. You know everything, even the best plans for my life."

When I look at the list of re-occuring monthly payment, "Ah.. I should be patient. And tiis tiis muna until next year. Some of them will be done by mid next year.