May 29 Story

Good day/night!

Though I was sleepy earlier because I lack sleep, I still went to the gym.

(I didn't get proper sleep since Sunday. Keep waking up at 4am and wide awake until past 6am. 😣)

I love how endorphins produced in my body during the workout. My depressive feeling has lighten. I don't have to buy my meds again. 😜 I will hit the gym everyday starting today, to get rid the feeling of sadness and change it to happy ones! 😁

[ハニー should hit the gym 3-4 times a week too or exercise everyday since she's expose to stressful environments and situations - work and review/study. Seeing numbers for atleast 8 hours a day and 7 times a week will drive everyone insane. Well, as for me, yes. 😫]

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For the last 72 hours, I'm into quotes. Quotes that might alleviate my depressive feeling even a little bit. Then my mom told me this, "Mahuli man't magaling, may patutunguhan parin". She even explained it when I asked her though I already know it. 😆 Everything has its perfect timing. The path and luck of others will not be the same path or luck of yours. So I should not frustrate myself for not attaining what I want. It will only put me into depression again. 😔 I just have to trust God while I continually do what I am best at. 😄

[I think, and based on my observation for the past weeks, ハニー is undergoing some depression. She's just in denial. A person who has depression will experience the early stage, denial. If only she'll admit it and seek help, I will gladly help her. 😞 It's because, I know the feeling. I've been there. Just like my doctor has said, "All depressive patients that have cured can now help others who have the same sentiments. It's because, they have been through it, they know how it feels, and they now know how to cure it somehow." Depression is now classified as mental illness. And just like any other illness, it needs immediate help. And I hope, ハニー will recognize it. Then seek help. 😞]

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Aside from hitting the gyn to get stronger and fitter, I started reading novels again. I randomly picked up "One Season of Hope". The first pages already struck me, "Not all readers are leaders, but all leaders are readers." I am self-proclaimed good leader, but I stopped reading books. 😝

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I sent open love letter to ハニー early this morning, around 6AM. I sent it to her blog, email, and SMS. Every word in that text is true. I am loyal to her, my queen. She's my very first queen, by the way.

But, if, for some reason she'll meet another man, I will stop right away. I respect her. I respect that man. I respect the decision of ハニー because I know that what she choose to be her partner is the best for her, no doubt about it. Stealing someone's girlfriend is not part of me. 😝 I respect humanity. 

She just have to inform me right away so that I won't cause any fights out of jealousy. ('Cause I know the feeling of being jelous. 😅) 

As for me, I will still love her. I will still do my promise to her (as written in that open love letter), as long as she's not seeing/dating anyone else. 😉

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Thank you God for this adventurous yet interesting life. 😆 I love you! ☺️