Born alone, die alone

Dang! Brain Donor Project is only available in the US. 😞 Are there other ways I can disappear from this earth? Sign myself for space exploration experiments?

How about, I'll resign and I'll just go somewhere far? Places I have not been before. I'll be gone for few months, few years, then never come back. 

I was born alone and I will die alone.

I'll do anything! Just to get rid of these memories that's piercing my heart and mind each day.

Am I a hamster or love bird in my past life? These creatures kill themselves when their partners gone. I even tried once putting another hamster of an opposite sex to the cage. But the lonely hamster didn't care about the new one. This lonely fella can love again. But no, it acted like the other one did not exist. They have this sense of, "they only meet one partner in their lifetime." When these partners gone, they succumb to never ending sadness that eventually killed them.

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I'll be just gone. Any form, any method. I just want to disappear.