God’s Plan

I just remembered.

How I wish I believed on her when she told me she didn't love me anymore. That she loved someone else. I didn't believe while telling her that she was only saying it to shoo me away. I was pathetic to cry in front of her and asked her back. This was year 2018, I guess, at their condo in Ortigas.

If only I believed and had let her go that time, I shouldn't have wasted more years fighting for the battle I've already lost. In short, it took years before I finally woke up from my madness. It took years before I finally realized my worth.

Well, all things have its own reason - even the reason is making bad decision.

I guess, it's worth the wait. I've finally met my person, hopefully. My person who I think is consistent and helping me become a better person each day. I love her and I will choose her always. May our relationship lasts forever.

Love is a verb. #MyCarol

My Love on a Love Month

14th, celebrated Valentines together in Quezon.

18th, celebrated our 4th Monthsary though we’re not physically together.

Same with her, I also tried. And till now, I’m not regretting anything. She’s helping me become a better person. Reminding me to do good and always be kind.

She’s my present and hopefully in the future, in God’s plan, have a family with her. ☺️

“Paubaya” 🥺

I am a late receiver or reactor. 😆 I asked Rhea and Carol what's up with Joshua and Julia thing (I saw pics in my FB Feed). Then they told me to watch it. 

And boom! There's koko krunch! 😂 Kidding! First line of the song, Moira struck me instantly. 🤯

The speech Joshua and Julia had, so very me and my ex. Same feelings, same lines of Joshua, that was me. And Julia's, same with my ex. I cried watching the vid. Carol said that Julia's lines were hers too.

Then happened to see this pic with comment about Julia. She's right! Exactly! That's the reason why my ex left me. And the reason why Carol left her ex.

I made terrible mistakes in the past and I don't want that to happen again. God given me another chance to make myself better and be the best person for my right person, Carol.

What Carol and I always say, “People change. People move on.”

Consistency. I should never forget to be consistent with my love for Carol. Love is a verb, I should always remember this.

Thank you God for always reminding me to do good.

My Love 🥰

Carol and I went out-of-town this weekend to celebrate Valentines together. Spent 2 days at the beach and met new people. I supposedly surprised her with mini dried flower bouquet. Then surprised her with leg massage earlier today.

She gave me this matching passport sleeve and a touching letter. In the letter, she mentioned about loving me with all her heart and mind. And will serve me with all her heart and soul. Love is a verb and told me she'll take care of me, cook for me, and serve me. They are not empty words. She really is taking good care of me. She may be obese and dark-skin now, within her is a very beautiful woman. She's not a girlfriend material, but a wife material. Hopefully, someday, my family will like her too.

Sometimes, I thought of moving out and live a life with Carol. When will this pandemic end? I want to go back to our physical office now. 😢 But for now, we'll just enjoy our company every 2 weeks. In His perfect time, everything will fall into its right place.

I would like to celebrate our 1st year anniversary in New Zealand. Go camping and roadtrip for 2 weeks. I don't mind driving long hours, as long as we're together. I'm confident that she'll take care of me. And in return, I'll also take care of her.

May we be together till death do us apart, in all God's plan.

Celebrate the Heart’s Month

Update 2/11:

I ordered 3 small cakes for the 15 homies. They will be delivered on 14th. 😁

I forgot that I also ordered 3 tubs of Ube Decadence on 12th for everyone in the house. ☺️

Thank God you are reminding me to be grateful everyday. Also thank you for using Carol in reminding me to be always kind and giving to others.

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My surprise Valentine's gifts have arrived earlier. They're for Rhea, mom, and Carol. Now, I have to plan how I will give it to them. I also booked a surprise couple massage for my parents on 13th. Then booked a surprise massage for Carol on 15th.

I love giving surprises for my loved ones. I am also thinking, how will I show my gratitude to my homies... 🤔

I love you God.

Grateful to Him

Ang prayers ko lang nun, marunong magluto at faithful. Pero binigay ni God, sobra sobra pa. Kahit gaano karaming thank you, they are not enough of how grateful I am to what He has given me.

- A good cook. Almost anything, she can cook. My faves? She just have to taste it once, she'll know right away how to make it.
- Madiskarte, magaling mag-budget, at matipid. Hindi ka maghihirap sa kanya. 😆 She prefers to go to the local market than groceries. She almost know all the prices of veggies and meats in the market.
- Mahilig sa bata at dog lover. Inaasar nya lagi mga cats ko though. 😆
- Good hearted. One time, naging sarcastic ako sa ibang tao, pinagalitan nya ko pag-uwi namin sa bahay. 😅
- Simple and not materialistic.
- Healthy living sya. Puro veggies and fishes. Less meat. At water lang iniintake nya na drinks. 😏
- Sobrang daldal 😳 Hinahayaan ko nalang. 😂
- God fearing at mapagbigay sa iba.
- Faithful and loyal.

Told her to just enjoy each other's partnership and for sure our relationship will go deeper. ☺️

And I think, nagmature narin ako kahit papaano. Kahit nag-aaway kami, I never thought of chatting or talking to someone else. I now prefer to be alone doing nothing or hanging out at rooftop, reading, or playing games. Sya na ata katapat ko. 🤔

I love her, my queen, my Carol. And I am so lucky having her in my life.

Grateful on His blessings

"Don't cry over a spilled milk."

When I saw the last guy Cha cheated on me, it gave me another reason to tell myself that I wasn't wrong when I chose Carol. That I am really lucky having Carol in my life. ☺️ That God really have a wonderful plan for all of us, you just have to trust Him.

Last night, it was so easy for me imagining Carol walking the aisle and exchanging vows with me. I can see her face clearly that I teared cause of joy. I was smiling. I never had this kind of imagination and wasn't easy in my previous relationship no matter how hard I try.

Now, I have to make it right. I don't want to lose my person.