The other night, can't remember when, I dreamt of K. And it's a sad dream. I was still chasing her - not the stalker level - even though she was avoiding me because she already has a boyfriend.
If there's such thing as the one person that "I would love to end up with her/him", that's her for me. I liked everything about her. I liked her for a day way back in Grade 5. The one person who was courageous enough to hold my wrist and drag me to somewhere (in school).
Then in 2nd year highschool, she became one of my school crushes. Rank 3rd. She's not my first love, it was A. But I never had the courage to tell to my crushes my feelings. Crush #1, just a plain crush from 1st-4th HS. Crush #2, became my first love from 3rd HS to 3rd College. I let go after that. Crush #3, I didn't know that I was subconsciously having a crush on her until we became 3rd HS. Since then, she's my on and off crush. I adored and respected her. And even after graduating from college, I never had the guts to tell her how much I liked her. Not until last year, she finally have her first boyfriend. I didn't mind because she's just a crush from the past.
Then out of nowhere, I dreamt of her of me chasing her. Tsktsk. She's a fine woman I think and I wouldn't dare to disturb her. And I'm already happy with my life now. I don't wanna go back to the past. They're just plain happy memories I will cherish till I die. What's more important to me now is my present.
