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Aug 12, 2015
Manila Cat Cafe

25 25 this 2015

I'm already 25 this year!!! Dont treat me like I'm only 17. I'm already working. No need to get permission. Just need to give FYI. Sick!

This is why I should have left the house long time ago..while I was still working. Live on my own. Sick!

I'm f***ing 25 years old! Okay? It doesn't mean I don't have work now, you can treat me like I am minor.

It's da day!

June 12.
It's a Philippine Holiday.
Philippine Independence day.
Me and my love went to El Nido.
The official day of the declaration of our love.

My honey

My honey. On June 23, will mark a month that we've known each other.

Do i deserve one?

Karapat dapat paba ko pumasok sa isang relationship..?

I lost my first love because of me. I lost my baby cat because of me. It's all because of me. Then do i still deserve to have someone?

I tried quite hard. Joined a dating site to see if i'll be able to meet someone. But seems like He doesnt want me to as people in the site gradually lose interest in talking to me. Okay. Maybe my next relationship cant be found here. Well then, i gotta go outside. Hopefully in Japan para hindi na ko lumayo.. If not, sa Europe pa when I take my master's. *sigh*

RIP Raffles 04/07/2013-05/15/2015

My baby Raffles suddenly left me. :'( Or I should say, I failed to see that she's going to leave me.

I finished reading Time Keeper few days ago. The lesson of the story is to appreciate the things and people we have as of the moment and dont look of the things we dont have. Then I told myself, "Yes I should stop asking the things I dont really have but make the most of the time with the people I have now." But I failed to see that Raffles is one of them. If only I knew, I should have spent more time with her. It's my fault - all my fault. If only...

I dont deserve a thing - a relationship, a companion. I always fail to see the things God wanted me to see. If only I had more time or became smarter to know it asap. If only...

Im a loser. Big time loser.

Rejection, always part of life

When was i got rejected for the very first time? Dont know! Cant remember. All i know is, i got rejected many times already - by my teacher, friend, crush, etc. They made me tough but then a little bit cautious. Or maybe, cautious about telling other people what i really feel.

It was like i preferred being quiet and doing nothing. But i should overcome that. Need to voice out what i really feel. Dont fake it. It's easy to say but difficult to do. Well~

"Where are thou, watashi no soulmate."

Soulmate or sole mate

Nagkakagusto ako..pero wala naman gusto sakin. Kinukulit ko, dinadaldal ko, pero wala effect. Na-ffeel ko lang na parang pinagpipilitan ko lang sarili ko kahit na hate na hate naman ako.

Hindi na pedeng makakita ako na gusto ko at magugustuhan din ako? Haaaay. Or torpe lang talaga ko? Or duwag? Hindi ko alam! Or ayaw ko lang talaga yung pinagsisiksikan or pinagpipilitan ko ang sarili ko sa bagay na ayaw naman sakin. Maybe because I love myself that much? I dont know!

Hopefully matagpuan ko na ang isa sa mga soulmates ko..kahit saan pa ng mundo sya naroroon. Sana magkita na kami...

What tomorrow holds

Have started cleaning up...though im quite not sure what will happen to me the next day. I just always lay everything to Him as I dont know anymore. -_- Love u God. Please help me. I will just do what you want me to do for the day. :) thank you for all the blessings and LOVE!! ^_^

Extra: "Being chased by men but is chasing women." Haha!

K dot

Last day.. Bow.

So what should I do next? Haha.

Prepare my daily schedule asap. ;)

Huwa? Wat has just happened?

I saw my ex this late afternoon. We almost bumped each other. Good thing, maybe just maybe, she saw me already from afar that's why she avoided me. Looked like she's on her way home.

I was with a former teammate and friend when that thing happened. Hopefully she won't think anything crazy. *sigh* uh? Why should she? We're not together for 5 years already! So what's the matter whatever? Uh? I dont care!

Okay that's for a quick story. XD

Hopefully..and finally

My aunt finally sent my papers to the school last Friday. Now, I pray that it will go smoothly until I got accepted by the embassy. In Jesus name, everything will went well. Amen!

God, please let me know what you plan for my life. If this country is also not for me, then please tell me what to do next. Wakaranai. Don't know what else to do. I don't have a clue anymore.

On the other side, I'll wait for the time that I'll get rich, have my MBA, have my own restaurants abroad, and my own fashion/apparel company in France. Then, maybe after you can let me meet the person/partner of my life. <3 so excited..hehehe. Love you God! ^_^

Quarter Life Cycle

Need to turn down London MBA because of my aunt there "seen-zoned" me despite of the school's great offer.

My aunt here in Japan really helps me a lot. On the 10th, she'll pay the application fee with her money for me. Then the start of the language school is on Oct. So what should I do during the 5 months? T_T

Kayo na po bahala God. I really don't know now what to do. Ayaw ko na mag-isip. Sasabog utak ko~!!! Kayo na po bahala talaga God and Jesus. I can't make decisions na talaga dahil lagi akong palya. I don't even know what the future holds for me. God only knows.

Let your will Thy be done oh God. Please keep me and my family healthy and happy. In Christ name, Amen!

So help me God

Magkaron ka man ng kapatid na ganyan, wala ka rin magawa kung hindi tiis tiis lang. *sigh*

I don't live for them anyway. My main concern is my youngest sibling. When God and Christ finally showed me to the place where I will live, I will surely get my youngest sibling and my mother. The rest, bahala kayo sa buhay niyo, Malaki na kayo. :)

God, I don't know anymore. Remove the thought of them from my mind. They don't deserve a place in my mind nor in my heart. Please help me to just forgive them as they don't know what they are doing/saying.

I will do my best oh God in every little thing you'll be giving to me. Christ, be my Shepherd. I'm always be a lost sheep. Without you, I don't know anymore.

Thank you as you give me true friends. I will forever treasure them.

A quick thought

I was accepted to the school. However, what's the use if I cannot afford it? Then it's better to kill myself.

Just a quick thought.

Freedom I'm longing

You guys kept on nagging me. I'm so fed up! This was since I started working.

I'm just waiting for the day I will be free - away from you~!!!!

Bow.

Lets see...

Work morale...It's deteriorating.. Am I just paranoid or what?

Anyway, got to grab every chance God has to offer to me.

Let Your Will Thy be done! I'll just do my best. And won't mind what this world says to me.

My dream

Do you really even exist? The stylist part-time model of my dreams?

If not, then I'll grow old single. *sigh*

But then, I will not lose hope. Wait for me. I'll meet you soon. Just be patient. Our lives will cross one day.

So help me God. :)

How the world really works

In the latter time, I just realized that how I work is different to how people wanted me to work. So I'll just quit.

Oh help me God. Business is makin me crazy.

Help me oh God! I dont want to give up on our computer shop just yet. It's not my forte, the follow-thru. I'm only good in the start-up. But I have to do it anyway.

It's a one-man team. I'll upgrade the units. Then do advertising by posting tarp. The total revenue so far is already negative. But I cant give up just yet.

I dont have enough funds anymore and I'll quit my work anytime soon. I'll be having a holiday in Palawan and Japan this Feb and Mar. With this, my funds will be so much limited. Help me in my decisions. Let me know if there are things I need to drop.

Give me more patience, optimism, ....and customers~ T_T

Thank you God! I love you so much~

2015 Wish

My wish for 2015.

Be independent and live on my own. My parents especially my mom to release me. She only wants to release me if it's other country.

Have my movie buddy. I don't have a set movie buddy. When me and my College friends watch movies, they like mature ones and are teenage love story. Outside movie house, it's just alright. I like to be with them. My sister and my mom are no-no. Looks like I just dragged them to the movies they don't like. And outside movie house, one makes me spent a lot while the other one tighten my budget. Extremes. I like to have someone with the same movie likes as I am. Also outside movie house, someone I'll enjoy hanging out with.