Lord God,
Please help me. I think I'm already at the verge of killing myself. ð
As you know, nagsabay sabay lahat ng gastusin ko nakaraan. Nahospital si Tiger and I already spent more or less 30k for his recovery including meds. Then almost 30k for moving out (rents, stuffs).
My salary is not even at par with my experience and performances for the previous years. I am almost hitting a 10 year work experience but my salary is just for 4-5 years experience.
Then the pressure I receive from work because PgM kept giving me tasks out of nowhere. Sometimes I would like to question, are these really PM role? ð
Then these fanatic people who I think, ready to kill for the sake of their politicians. ð
My anxiety keeps on elevating everytime there's a stressor. Sometimes, I couldn't take it anymore. As much as I would like to visit my psychiatrist again, I couldn't afford it. By December, I don't know anymore how to pay all the bills and eat at the same time. My forecasted financial for December is -50%. ð«
Because of these things, I'd rather choose to be gone permanently. ð¶ Suicide is a selfish act but the easiest way out to peace.
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"Trust in the Lord with all your heart. And lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight."
"If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain to move over there and it will move."
"No problem is bigger than Him. Trust Him as He's the provider."
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