#ktnxbye

With all these stress and pressures I receive from work, I'm better off from my job.

I don't deserve this. I'm not being paid enough to do all these things with so much pressure.

I don't care if I lose my job. I don't care if I don't have any source of fund to support my mental wellness. As long as nothing will contribute to my depression episodes, I'm okay to be unemployed.

#ktnxbye

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No choice.

Pressure in work gives me so much stress. This triggers my depression.

But without work, I'll be stress with no money. Then I'll get depressed.

What should I choose?

No way.

Dead end.

Funny ride

Wata great experience! Experience that I don't wanna do again. 😂

Rode AngkasPH going to work. That's around 14km. Short! But you won't do it if it is under the scorching sun (2PM SGT) without sleeves nor sunblock in a busy and polluted city.

Now, I'm suffering from pain in my right arm. I already took a bath, applied ice, and applied lotion to end it.

Why did I took it? I waited for 1hr and 30mins to get myself a GrabCar or GrabTaxi. They are nowhere to be found. 😒 Then my sister suggested this service which I know was removed long time ago. 😆

Goodnight!

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Have no choice

This is not the way I wanted to die. But I'm running out options. And this loneliness is unbearable anymore, especially when you have no one to lean on.

I'm running of breath.

myBlog

I am hearing someone's crying too. Am I just hearing myself?

My blog. Ikaw nalang talaga ang tanging bagay na makakapagtiwalaan ko. Ikaw nalang talaga ang hindi ako iniiwan despite all the happiness and sadness I told to you. You are gladly hearing all those things.

Since 2004 until now, andyan kapa rin. Going strong!

From my crushes, frustration with studies, heartaches towards my parents and siblings, heartbreaks to adventures, you know it all.

Now, ikaw lang ang tanging nasasabihan ko lahat. Lahat lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Even my doctor doesn't know everything. Pinipili ko lang kung ano gusto ko na marinig nya. Then my I-thought-bestfriend, also left me alone. Hindi ko rin masabi sa kanya lahat dahil I was torn between making her feel good and making feel myself good. And I always choose the first. I wanna make her feel good always, ignoring myself - my true feelings.

I love you myblog. Thank you for staying with me, through thick and thin. I might not write to you again for so long, I guess. But even when I die, I hope I can still write to you. :)

Thank you my beloved blog.

(I've cried so much that both my arms are trembling. Sana naging tao kana lang or pet. Anything. At mayakap kita myBlog. Yakapin ako ng mahigpit and tell me my worth. You know how much I was lonely, since the day I created you.)

Alone and forever be

I was born alone.

I was raised alone and lonely.

And I will die alone and lonely.

This is my fate.

Proof? Even the one person I trust so much and I thought will hear all my loneliness have given up and thrown me away.

This is life. This is human being.

Cuts

These cuts will be a reminder that I should not trust human beings anymore.

These cuts will remind me how cruel life is.

I'm alone and will be forever.

Sayonara~

(I did my best, but my best is not good enough for you.)

.....

I'm so lonely.

This loneliness I want to end.

Leave Rove and never come back.

Go in a very far away place. No looking back.

Cruel life

Die Rove! Die!

You already know how cruel this life is!

It's easy for people to leave you when they feel you are unable to satisfy them even once. One mistake, they'll leave you. That's how cruel human beings are!

Don't trust them! Never trust them!

Bear in mind, always, that you are alone, always and forever be.

You are always alone.! You can't trust anyone! You can't! Human beings are cruel!

If you are a human being, die!

(On the other side: I've been smelling flowers na pangpatay for many consecutive nights already. Does it mean, someone is already waiting for me from the other side?)

To Rove

Whatever you do, it will never enough.

Will never be enough to the eyes of the people you care.

Might as well, you die. Get killed. Be gone!

Patience Rove

Kanina pa ko napipikon... kanina pang hapon.

Patience Rove, patience.

Hinga malalim. Wag na patulan...

Let it go... hayaan nalang..

Be patience.. habaan pasensya..

When you're already pissed since this afternoon and this person still keep on triggering you.

Cannot do anything

You are pissed but you cannot blame her because in the end, it will be your fault. -_-

*sigh*

So pissed. But what can you do? Just smile and let it go. Then run away from here.