.....

I think we're going back to square one. 😒
This is why I don't wanna talk about money.
People change in an instant when it's about money.
Money controls their life and not they control money.

Time to rest Rove.
Have a break.
Spend time with other people. 😉

Recharge Rove

"Happy wife, happy life."

But up to what extent? There should be clauses.

ハニー's language of love:
Affirmation. That is why I kept telling her how much I love her and beautiful she is. Which are also the truth.
Service. That's why I prepare her hot bath every morning. Remind her to eat on time and drink her medicine. Have her take vitamins. Give her ointment all over her feet and body. And do whatever she likes. Give her the things she needs.

As for me:
QT. We spend more time watching than having quality conversations/interactions. ハニー doesn't like serious talks. She doesn't like adult conversations. And if ever I crave for quality interactions, I can always go to Riri and play with her. ☺️
Service. I can always go to Mont Albo and have my massage. 😁

—-

Should have no complain. But I need to recharge. I've been pouring all my energy to others than receiving - and it's for my well-being.

I’m not part maybe

I know. I will never be part of her priorities. If she'll rank everything, I will be at the 100th or the last.

My name, "Ney", will only be called when she needed help. Or maybe, if she has no one to talk to anymore which will never happen as she always has someone to talk to. She no longer ask me questions like "ano ginagawa mo?", "kumain kana ba?", etc.

I got to spend more time for myself. Love myself more than anyone else. So that I won't mind if she cares or not.

Or I should expand my circle, make other friends and prioritize them.

Ok, got to sleep. 😴

Sunshine after the storm

Thank you God, Christ, and the Holy Spirit at binati na ko ng ハニー ko yesternight.
Also, thank you Baby Charles for softening the heart of your mom for me. ☺️
I also thank my other supporters who have also prayed for me - MJ and Rhea.

I didn't know what I really did but I acted out of love. Seems like the Holy Spirit guided me yesterday of what to do.

First, an idea popped - deliver a bouquet!
Second, "ayaw ko matagal nagagalit. Gusto ko suyuin mo ko agad" ハニー's line recalled in my memory that's why I packed my bag and raced to Ayala.
Third, after parking, about to go but to avoid sita ng guard, I pretended to enter McDo. But eventually, it made me buy burger meal as merienda for ハニー.

My ハニー is worth the wait and worth fighting for.

After ハニー reconciled with me, I swear, I don't want that to happen again. 😐 Worst experience ever! The love of your life didn't talk to you for 5 days! 😱 The penitence I did, I only did 1 day but I don't want to repeat it again. 😰

Anyway, thank you ハニー for talking to me again. 😔
I was like a love bird without a partner and about to commit suicide. Good thing, the partner flew back home and the lone love bird is happy again. ☺️

My Baby Charles

02:34PM

Hi Baby Charles,

Di ko na alam kung ano kinagagalit ni mamy mo sakin. I think kakausapin nalang niya ko kapag 50-50 na ko sa hospital bed or nakahiga na ko sa kabaong. Great chance, either of the two. 😔

Hindi ko na alam paano palambutin heart ni mamy mo... Gusto ko man sya puntahan sa office at lunch pero baka maging super saiyan bigla mamy mo pag nakita ako.

Do I really deserve your mom? Tell me Baby Charles. All these physical pains are nothing compared to the mental and emotional pains I am experiencing when she’s not responding kahit man “Hi” or “Hello”. Di naman ako others sa buhay ni mamy mo. May pinagsamahan naman kami ng 3.5 years para hindi nya ko kausapin ng ganito.

Ako, kahit nung mga panahon na nagagalit ako sa mamy mo, nawawala agad kasi mahal ko sya eh. Love succomb hatred and change it into forgiveness.

Help me Baby Charles... 😢😭

-Rove

——

Baby Charles,

Please help me... 😭 please touch the heart of your mom. Please tell her to forgive me kahit kaunti lang. You know how much I love your mom. She's my future wife. I knew it since the day I decided to give her a ring. It's a promise that I will be with her, take care of her, until the day I die.

Baby Charles, wherever your mom is now, please protect her. Keep her away from any harm this world has. Your mom loves you so much. And I do love you too. Sayang lang di tayo nagkita. May 4 year old son na sana ako. ☺️ Pero I know we will meet each other, there in heaven, in God's time. Kaya for now, please look upon us - me and your mom - especially your mom. ☺️

Thank you Baby Charles. May you be smiling upon us from heaven.

—-

God,
I know Baby Charles is already happy there in heaven - playing with other kids. Please continually bless his soul. May Baby Charles feel the love of the people that love him here on Earth.
Thank you and I love you.
Amen!

Patawarin mo ko... 😭

ハニー,

I was so immature.
Inaway kita New Year na New Year.
Hindi ko dapat binabalikan ang past. Past is past. The most important ay ang present because it's a gift.
I'm sorry ハニー. 😢 Sana mapatawad mo ko sa mga pagkakamali ko.
I deserve to be punish. At tatanggapin ko lahat ng punishment na pede mo ihatol sakin.
I should learn from my mistakes.
I'm sorry. 😭

I love you so much. I will do anything for my future wife, even it takes my life. 😖

Just in case

Just in case ハニー didn't receive my last text. 😔

Penitence / Fasting for prayer

God, I have decided. I will make this official.

I have a wish and prayer to you God.
Please soften the heart of my ハニー towards me and may she forgive me even a little for the sins I've committed to her.

In return, as also my form of penitence till the day my wish be granted:
- I will only be eating one meal a day. The rest, liquid.
- No Instagram and no Facebook.
- Go to gym everyday. And do at least 6 workouts.

Tomorrow will be the official start.

May my wish and prayer be granted with my acts of penitence. So help me God. 🙏

Help me God

God,

I love ハニー so much. 😢 That I'm willing to give up anything just for her to forgive me.
Since the start of this year, I already lost my appetite. Been eating once a day only. How can I have an appetite knowing that the love of my life doesn't want to talk to me or is angry with me? As much as I would like to go to her and hug her tightly, I don't know where in Cavite she is. There's no way to recover the past year route in Waze. 😭

Now I'm dying day by day... a plant that is not being watered withers little by little.

God, please give me the knowledge and wisdom that I need in order to find ways on how to see ハニー in Your perfect time.

In Jesus name, amen!

As if it’s my last day

I was reminded last night...

"Treat each day as if it is your last day."

So it's important that I tell the people around me how much I love them. That if something might happened, to them or to me (knock on wood), I will have no regrets. Atleast I have told them how important they are to me.

I love you ma
I love you pa
I love you Ate Deth
I love you Ivan
I love you Deng
I love you Net
I love you mga pamangkin ko
I love you Api
I love you Rosh
I love you Tigs
And most of all, I love you my ハニー. 😘😘😘

Night of hunger

Done my best I could. No luck.
Kinain na ng bituka ko yung tyan ko.
Will just wait until this bldg's closure since I'm already pathetic.

God, am I still doing the right thing?
I'm just pursuing the woman You have given me.
Please cleanse my mind so that I can clearly see your clues. Please give me the strength I need. The patience I need - so much patience. And the love, I hope I'm still acting according to Your love.

—-

Please help me God to be able to concentrate on the coming days. Please protect my ハニー and her mom. Keep them safe and sound. I'll do my best to function normally on day-to-day basis.

Thank you. In Christ's name, amen!

Be strong Rove

Hunger + mustering up all my senses

I need to be strong.
This might be the most pathetic thing I've ever done in my entire life but let's take the risk. I'll wait till this review center has closed.

ハニー is worth waiting for.

God help me. Please give me the courage I need. Please give me a healthy mind and body that I may get through this. This is really out of my comfort zone but I’ll do it. I just wanna talk to her. So please help me God.

To ハニー

To ハニー,

Mag-aantay ako dito sa CPAR hanggang makausap kita. And tell me face-to-face na hindi mo na ko mahal.

I'll wait here.

Perspective

Sometimes, there are things that you just have to assumed that it's done. That you've gotta stop.

The worst pain? I don’t know if I should continue loving ハニー or I need to start moving on. ハニー doesn’t want to confirm if we’re done or what.

——

Rove, hustle!
Remember, “to date a boss, be a boss”.
You still have 10 years to be a billionaire. Just hustle throughout!

Meds

Now I did wrong. Haha!

I remember my doctor told me to take only half of Quetiapine (25mg). 

Now I'm doomed.

I took 1 whole tablet in 2 consecutive nights already. 

As to Feliz (10mg), I'll just take it half each day for 5 days, then half every other day. Just to prevent withdrawals when I stop again.

But as for Quetiapine, let me find ways (BDO) not to have side effects when stopped.

-----

On the other side, when can I be freed from this sickness...

Until when do I need to experience this in my entire life...

For sure, I will never have a normal love life (e.g. families, friends, partner) with this.

I can say, I would be so lucky if there would be even one single person who will choose to live and stay with me despite having this.

God, please make me strong. Amen.

No idea

God, please let me know kung mahal paba niya ko.

Please let me know kung ako lang ba gusto niya.

Para di na ko umasa.

I need to find new work ASAP.

Then move out.

Gusto ko maging independent.

Para kung meron man papasok sa buhay ko at mag-stay, hindi nakakahiya na naktira ako sa parents ko. 

ハニー can dump me anytime. Dami naman kasi nagkakagusto sa kanya.

Me? No luck.

Lahat ng nagugustuhan ko, nirereject ako. 

May mga nagkakagusto, yeah, pero di ko sila gusto.

Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon na gusto ako ng gusto ko.

And I hope nagustuhan nya nga ko talaga. 

Pero kung ayaw mo sakin God para kay ハニー, what can I do?

Pero sana, ako nalang po please? 

At pero sana, sabihin nyo na po sakin kung may bago naba siya or ako parin.

The worst feeling ever? Don't have any idea what to do.

-----

Ba't ba puro lovelife iniisip ko. 

Baka ako lang kasi nag-iisip nito.

Rove, enough! Manuod kana lang ng Netflix.

Living Dr. Sturgis I am

My friend said my sorry message was too formal.
I said, what should be? I did it in details, mali ba?
Then she said, "wala man ka-amor amor. Para ko nagbabasa ng formal letter." I should put some sweetness she said.
I said, it should be formal since nag-sosorry ako. And I'm a formal person, isn't? I prefer in person to formally say it but ハニー doesn't let me to.
Then my friend added, "try to loose a little bit and put a little sweetness in the words."
Sabi ko, "paano? Example?"
She said, "sample talaga? 😑"
Then I bursted in laughter.
My friend then sent me sample.
And I was like...cringe. 😂 I think I did that before and even me, kinalibutan sa sinabi ko nun. 😆 (Just to be clear: words and intentions were true kahit ang corny ng labas)
I told my friend, "magsend ulit ako? Take 2?"
At minura lang nya ko. 😑 😂🤣

*sigh*
I think I'm too critical and mature when it comes to relationships. I treat it seriously. And maybe, I'm not enjoyable to be with since I'm not spontaneous as other people.

—-

Well ハニー, if you think you are not enjoying my company anymore since wala akong kasweet sweet sa katawan..too strict..corny kasama..etc, please just let me know. I'll see what I can do.

I look like Dr. John Sturgis of Young Sheldon. 😒 At di malayong maging ganun din ako - was able to find the woman of his life nang senior na sya. Hindi raw kasi nirereciprocate yung love nya ng mga nagugustuhan nya. At medyo slow din si Dr. Sturgis sa mga clues ng women. Parang mas magegets nya kapag straight to the point - like me. 😱

God, pls give me signs

God!!!
What did I do?
I sent my sorry message to ハニー. You know my true feelings. Yeah I still love her. 😔
But please tell me when to stop. Please. She doesn't want to respond so I have no idea what is our current status. Or if she has already found someone else.
I'm so stupid with reading women. I suck on this area. This is why I don't like having a love life until I get rich. Because when I'm already rich, I am already capable - financially, mentally, and emotionally. And I can just marry her after 2 years of courtship.

I don't want to repeat the same thing I did before - the craziest thing I've ever done. I went to her home, nagmakaawa, hugged, and kissed her. Pero sinasabi na nya nun na di na nya ko mahal at may mahal na syang iba which is si Jake. I was so stupid back then. Dapat hinayaan ko nalang siya nun. Maybe because I was madly in love but undergoing some mental disorder. Baka nga kasi minahal nga nya talaga yung tao. Hindi naman sila mag kakabalikan until mauwi sa ___ kung di nya mahal. 😞

Lord, please help me! Please let me know when to stop. Ayaw ko na maging stupid ulit. I love her but if she likes or loves someone else, please let me know. You know naman na monogamy ako eh. 😣

God, please help me. Give me clues.

Pain => Success

Nice to be back to gym. 😁

Nahirapan lang konti sa 40lbs unlike last time, madali nalang. 😂

I will transform all of my pain into my muscles!!!

All this pain will be my inspiration to be successful!!

Then all the beautiful women in the world will kill themselves just to see me. I swear. 😆

Love is patient. Love is kind.

Hey myBlog!

I got an uninterrupted sleep last night. Thanks to my meds. 😁

You know what, I don't deserve this. I chased ハニー in the past for once twice thrice and x times when we fought. Even in my dreams, still chasing the person. If the person doesn't like me anymore, and that's it. I already asked for forgiveness, sincerely, which I don't usually do. I should not push myself hard to the person. I deserve to be treated well.

Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not boast. It is not proud. It does not dishonor others. It is not self-seeking.

God's love made me to be humble again. God knows I'm torpe. And I will let it stay with me as this quality makes me still alive until now. God is my true and only doctor. And I thank you God for that. Prayers really work!

——

Rove, you are the best! As long as He is with you, you are fine. Don't rush things. In time, you will meet the beautiful things He has planned for your life. It can be your career, your business, you house, and even the person you're gonna marry and have family with. Everything has already been laid.

Remember:
Bill Gates met his wife when he already has Microsoft. He was 38 yrs old and his wife was 29 yrs old when they married. His wife was an employee of Microsoft that time.
Warren Buffet married his first wife when he was just starting the salesman career. Then married his second wife and long-time partner when he’s already 76 yrs old while his wife was 60 yrs old.

So get rich and be successful first! The best woman will come to the best gentleman. 😁

You have to trust Him, seek the guidance of Christ, and seek the protection of the Holy Spirit. Be patient as love is patient. ☺️

Prayer for ハニー

"Be strong and courageous. Don't be afraid and take heart as the Lord your God is with you."

"When all else fails, God doesn't."

Don't worry about the "seen zone". Your God is with you. No worries Rove. If God is with you, who would come against you?

I'm sorry God for my weaknesses. I'm a frailty human being. I'm not sure if I deserve to pray to you.

It's difficult for me to focus now. Maybe because I had a very shallow sleep for the last 2 nights. Bigla nalang namumugto eyes ko all of a sudden. I need ample sleep, I know. To help me out, I have resorted to science again. Bought my meds. Hopefully, in two days, I will feel better.

—-

God, you don't have to touch her heart just to respond to me. She deserves peace and happiness. If this means without me, her with somebody else, or just by herself, let it be. ハニー deserves the best in life.

——

God, please remove all the people and things around her that will only do no good to her or that will harm her. If I am the devil in her life, please have me removed. Keep her and her family safe and healthy at all times. May you bless her and her family with overflowing peace and love in their hearts and minds. May the Holy Spirit cover them with protection wherever they will go.

I pray all these things in the mighty name of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, amen!

My Future Family 😘

Hey GrandiaCool!

Apologies if I've been spamming you with all the things in my mind. There's no way for me to have them out - only to you. And I deeply thank you for that.

You know I don't have anyone to tell about my heartaches in life. Well, I was able to tell some to my friend but she too is undergoing heartaches. It's also painful for her so I don't want to add up to that.

Just let me have this until the sun shines upon my face - literally. I want to pour all the emotions I have. Good thing I am wfh this week. My friends in office will not be able to see my puffy eyes. 😆

All the sadness and pains, I want to cry them all out until the day I can no longer feel any pain and no more tear coming out. Until the day my heart becomes as hard as rock. Until the day when I read these posts again, I will just say "Haha! What a creep." When that day has come, I have finally moved on. I can finally say, "Bring it on!"

I cannot be as soft as ice cream anymore. I think, what I did is already too much. I've shown enough of myself to ハニー. The weaknesses, honesty, stupidity should be shown only to my future wife. My future wife who is committed to support me and cooperate with me as we are partners. My future wife who will never leave me hanging. My future wife who is trustworthy, honest, faithful, loyal, and independent. And finally, my future wife who can cook me good food. ☺️

Haha. The idea of future wife makes me feel excited to experience the future. And hopefully, within 5 years, I will be able to meet her. And when I finally meet her, I'm already successful and wealthy. So we don't have to fight over financials anymore. 😜 See you soon My Future Wife! Just stay back and relax. We'll get there. Just be patient. 😉

—-

I already imagined myself, living in a beautiful house in a foreign country, married to a beautiful woman, and have two kids (1 boy and 1 girl). My beautiful wife has the smile of an angel. I am looking at her face and smiling, "What a beautiful creation is this." ☺️ Then our beautiful kids run toward their mom and I was like "There's no more I could ever ask for."

(I will never forget this scene. My dream.)

Amen to this! Please help me God! 👏🏻

Visions

God, help me.

I don't know what to do with this depression.

I'm having visions again of committing suicide.
I've seen I locked myself up in my room. Closed door and windows. Sealed every air outlet. The portable stove was lit up, and there was a charcoal melting in the frying pan. After sometime, closed the stove and laid down on the floor.

I saw my family trying to open the door after hours I didn't get out of the room. My parents rushed me to the hospital, only to find out that it's already too late. Mom called my sister and told the news. I saw ハニー rushing home after hearing the news from my sister.

I saw friends and colleagues in my funeral, shocked. I saw Innah wearing black blouse and black shades. People were crying.

——

Searched over the internet: carbon monoxide poisoning

"A new study - the most detailed yet into the phenomenon - concludes it is now claiming the lives of people who would never before have gone through with an attempt to commit suicide."

It's the easiest way out.

Rove the Billionaire Boss 😎

The alcohol has already worn off. 😣
Now my insomnia strikes again.
It's been more than 24hrs since the last time I heard something from チャ. Does it mean we're already finished? Do I need to start moving on?

Her language of love:
- Affirmation
- Service

But looking at it, she doesn't need any of my SORRYs and HIs anymore.

My language of love:
- Quality Time
- Service

My QT has been derailed already. Since yesterday, each hour I haven't heard from her, makes me anxious that we're already done just like how most immature women do these days when they're breaking up - they just gone like poof without you knowing what is it now or what.

——

Though Tiger has not eaten yet, as I forgot his food, he's still comforting me each night. Cried hard few hours ago. Fell asleep while crying. Tiger smelled my tears and made me feel that there is still someone who thinks of me - which is him. I love you Tigs! You're my up and down partner - my true partner. Partner who never leaves me alone hanging with questions and uncertainties. You're my true bestfriend - always there for me even though I don't notice you all the time. Now I know who's there through thick or thin.

——

Guess Rove it's time to move on. Just think that your ハニー is already in Heaven. That way, it would be easier to think that she didn't left you with no apparent reason. It's God's reason, you don't have to know but you just have to trust.

——

Rove, you are the best! Your time is valuable and precious. You once told me that your time is the greatest gift you can give to anyone. Then treat it as if it's a limited edition. Deserving people will come to you, will ask for your time, and will cherish it. Just like what your friend told you yesterday. She was thankful you are there, listening to her problems. She told you she needed someone to talk to during these days - and guess, she needed you to be there just to hear her out. There is someone who explicitly told you s/he needed your time. Does it feel good that someone values your time? ☺️ Cherish these people.

Rove the best!
Get certified then get MBA. 😉

Rove the boss. 😎
Rove the billionaire.
All the beautiful women in the world will kill each other dying to be with you. Wait for that.
Then you don't have to beg for someone's time anymore as people will do it.
Increase your worth. Someday, only worthy people can get a glimpse of your time.

In Jesus' name, amen!

2018: 🤬😣😢

Why were you so naive and so stupid?

Did you know that when men use the same or similar bad experience they had to get your empathy, they are just hitting on you?

Did you know that when men use an excuse like proving something to their family, they are just trying to get close to you hoping to have more than friends relationship?

Why you were so naive and stupid?!

You didn't know that?! How come you have been to numbers of relationships in the past but that simple thing, you are unable to recognize?

Have you learned anything from your past relationships? Or you just moved on without analyzing why it ended and the things you might have learned during the process?

I thought you were a smart and intelligent person, but reading people's actions and words, you have failed.

Why you were so naive and stupid?

P.S. I've been trying to understand why you fell for Emo Daniel and Ugly Mama's boy Jake. Did you ever think of me when you were flirting/sexting/having sex with them? Did you?

P.S. 2018 was a big trauma to me and you know it fully. I had depression which I don't want to have again. Then you cheated on me by having SEX!

P.S. Sex is a big deal to me. I believe that you will only do it to the person you love. So my question, did you ever loved him? Did you loved him when you two were having sexual intercourse?

P.S. I'm sure it's also a trauma to you. And you are still wondering why what on earth you did that?! If it's a trauma to you which you had control in the first place, it was a huge trauma to me! The woman I love. The woman I respect. She had sex with someone else when we are committed! I am so angry until now every time I remember it. I am so angry to that earthling as he abused you. He used your weakness to have you in his way. I am so angry to myself that I didn't do anything during that time! If only I knew! I should have stopped you from going home that night. I should have... I should have.. I am so angry and very sad.

P.S. Now I remember the couple client of Dr. Rintaro in a Japanese series. The couple had unsaid trauma when the wife was gang raped. They didn't talk about it not until Dr. Rintaro entered the scene. It was then the couple had a chance to tell their feelings honestly. Only to find out that the husband was suppressing his angst for so long towards the group who raped his wife and to himself. Maybe me and this husband share the same sentiments. Do シャ and I need to see a psychiatrist just to have this settled? I want to get over with as soon as possible. But how, if the wife doesn't want to talk about it?

God, help us. Help me please. I am so sad and at the same time, so angry. I'm so angry to the point I want that man be dead or experience great suffering he has ever known.

God, I commit to you my heart and my mind. Help me get over with it even without the affirmation from シャ.

Amen!

2019 Day 2

Day 2

Watched Tidying Up in Netflix (until Ep 2).
Cheeks cheeks and cheeks.
Supposedly meet with my friend at past 8pm to talk about heartaches, life, and heartaches. 😂 But all of a sudden, she became an Indian. 😒 Haha! Anyway, it's okay. She just came back from province this morning. She needed ample rest.
Luckily, went to The Mala Tree with sister. And I don't have to tell what we did here. 😜
Then went to Uno 50 food park. Ate dinner, snacks, and had few bottles of beer.
Was not able to buy food for Tiger. Sorry. 😆

Now, I'm sleepy. Thanks to the beers! I can now finally sleep.
I had insomnia last night. Was not able to sleep properly. And frequently woke up. Maybe because of my anxiety?
Badly, I was not able to buy my meds. 😞 Tomorrow I'll do - gym, Tiger's food, my meds.
I'll be working from home anyway. 😁

D-Day tomorrow. 😁

Till we see each other again

To シャーリン サンタロマナ

Don't be good in running away from your problems, you'll regret it someday. Believe me.

Get mad with the problems and not with the person. Be mature enough to face the problem. 

This is what I've learned from being in a relationship.

"The enemy is the problem and not the person."

Take note of this if you want to be in a relationship someday. 

Hope you'll grow up and get mature. And when you have finally realized it, you'll remember me saying this to you.

Be well. Get well. Be happy. Take care!

Best regards,

Rove

Day 1 of 2019 😜

Day 1 - @Home

Studied Scrum for the certification.
Played mobile games on the side.
Youngest sibling got lost for the 3rd time. Took part in the search.
Unable to watch TBBT to the link that was taught to me. Link doesn't exist anymore.
Had a good conversations with an old friend and new friend. 😁
Boyfriend of my old friend is lucky. She's now a wife-material. 😆 The qualities that you can find to an ideal wife, she already has it. Well, she studied and learned them. Congrats to her.
New friend is undergoing some problems in life. And hope I was a help even a little just by listening. 😊

It was a long night. Till tomorrow! Good night!
——
Thank you God. I love you.
Please make me better this year.
Amen!
——
#BePositive and #PositivePeople will come to you, Rove! 😁

It’s 2019!

Yo Rove!

You had a year full of blast. When I say "blast", full of ups and downs.

It was then you had depression and had psychiatric sessions and medications.

It was then you were lied and cheated on by the people you trusted and loved.

It was then you had fights with your parents and significant other.

It was then you learned that not all the people you value can reciprocate your love upon them.

It was then you became broke.

It was then you bought the things that you think made you happy.

It was then you injured yourself, not just physically, mentally, but emotionally.

It was a year you lost control of yourself.

But of course, it was a year where you concluded your depression medications.

It was a year you founded a travel consultancy as extra source of income.

It was a year you went on adventures with your family, friends, and significant other.

It was a year you enrolled to a gym and started looking upon your wellness as a whole.

It was a year that you learned that all worries can be solved by prayers.

It was also a year that you learned to forgive no matter how painful it is.

It was a year to celebrate and smile despite all the predicaments in life.

It was a year you started to learn how to call for help when you are about to lose control.

And finally, a year you learned to call God, Christ, and the Holy Spirit more frequently.

On this 2019, may I continually experience the good things I have started in 2018.

May God continually be the source of my strength, my cure, and love. May He continually be my source of everything.

May Christ continually guide me to the path God has prepared for my life. May He show me the way to the door God has created for me.

May the Holy Spirit continually touch my heart and mind to have self-control. May He continually remind me the things I should not be doing and should start/keep doing.

May God, Christ, and the Holy Spirit keep me away from the things/people that will only bring me to destruction. But if They so, may these things/people be an opportunity for me to learn and grow.

Thank you God for the, no word can describe, 2018.

Now, please prepare me for another round of adventures and learnings this 2019.

I love you God!
In Christ's name, amen!

2019, bring it on! 😎

Reject all people who treat me as if I don’t exist

Worst part is: Being taking for granted by the person you value.

Staying with your parents for weeks, months, and years don't matter. I don't care. Do it!

What I care, you atleast tell me before hand. FYI me prior. Not some like I'm a stranger and don't mean a thing to any of your life.

You did that once, I told you once. But you do it again. No lessons learned.

Since you do it anyway, okay. The way you treat me and show it to me, I think you are better off without me. You show it to my face completely. And now I understood.

Don't worry. I'll also have my life, just like yours.