number ten

Today is my unlucky day when it comes to 10 pesos.

1. We missed Mam Timog for my 10 pesos.
2. The VVEH tricycle driver cheated us. He has gotten my 10 pesos. I thought I need to pay but Rosy already paid up for 4 of us. We didn't recognize the number. We tried to chase him, but he's too fast for us. - of course! lol
3. My 10 pesos load has been eaten by the Smart network. It was happened right after we encountered the tricycle driver. I tried to txt my mom to report this driver, but the message has failed sending.

Waaaaah! I'm so unlucky with number 10!

Gud thing: I've gotten back my 10 pesos from Mam Timog. Waha!

Hey! Money is so hard to get these days! Lol

know your limit...

wat da?! Why they don't just stop teasing me with those people?! It's ok, but the information is becoming known to public. It's ok that it's only lurking inside our group, unless it breaks the wall of the group and has reached the ears of people - I'll kill ya!

All of you guys! pls. know your limitation...

You don't know when I'm going to be pissed off. When that thing happens, expect that I won't answer you anymore.

P.S. Sorry for all the limits I extended for. Let me know if it's enough. I'll try to stop myself - self-control is my weakness, you know.

wrecked door

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

I'm cd-rom is keep on opening and closing! - like a wrecked door! I don't know what to do. I've already tried restarting my pc and shutting it off for so long, but nothing changes after I opened it again.

I hope somebody out there can help me out...Please! I'm begging you! Help me!!!

woah!

woah! Instead of finishing up playing at 10:00, I ended it up at 11:11 p.m. How dare I am?!

It's ok. Tomorrow will be a serious day - day for studies even though I'm at home! We need to review for our PT in BRS on Monday. We also have homework and GR in English also on Monday. Wat da?! I thought I could now enjoy my life, now that we're about to graduate.

just playing...

Oh! I'm almost close! I placed second in the Chicken Festival for the first year. Waaaaah! I hope I won! Wat da?! But it's ok. Next year, I'm gonna be the Champion! - wahaha!

It's ok for I won in the Swimming Festival for the first time in the very first year of my playing. I didn't expect it. I thought I just placed second, but I'm not!

Ok, I need to go home. Even though I lost, I enjoyed it. I didn't expect to fight in the 3rd round. That's the blessings!

I think I'll end up my game when it's already 10:00 p.m. Hehehehe...

an ordinary day to be...

I got pics and videos of Chubby. He's so cute because he's chubby! I thought I was late because I woke up late and Chubby was blocking my way going outside. And he's following me that's why I called my mom.

Not much lessons. Woah! We have our new teacher in English this 4th Quarter. Actually she's not new to us for she's been our teacher in English when we're in 2nd yr. But most students know her as a very strict teacher. I mean you will be challenge everyday!

That's it! ;D

let da paper be burnt...

Oh yeah! I've already burnt the battle in my heart. Thanks to the activity in bonfire. It's about writing all the things you want to leave in a paper and let it burn in the fire. Waha! The thing I burnt is about accepting failures without any battle to take because whether you win or not, nothing will change.

But I didn't get the look I received yesterday while we're having the activity in the auditorium. I don't understand. Is that person expecting me to give a 'paper heart'? (looks like the title of a song, Paper Heart by All-American Rejects - lol). Hope it's not that the reason. When that person looked at me, I just turned my head to the left trying to avoid the looks. Pls. don't expect me, I might fail to give it. Pls. just forgive me if you didn't receive any from me, 'coz I tried but failed. Ok, ok, enough is enough. It was all done! ;D

nothing much...

I don't have so much to say. The retreat was over. But the love of God I feel is not.

I just finished up watching 'Nana Live-Action', borrowed from Rachel.

uh-oh!

I think there are things I wanted to say. I guess there so many that most of it were forgotten to post.

Ok, let's just start today. Or I may say what I feel today.

• I want to sleep. But my mind doesn't want to.
• Just before going home - sick! - I heard something. I don't want to remember it no more!
• And plus! After I had finish taking the test in Filipino and I'm about to review for Adv. Algeb, I hate what I heard!
• It's connected yesterday, when I was reviewing with Zyra at Rosy's chair. Waaaaah! I really hate to hear those things!

I hate all things that I heard today! Hey! Pls. just don't think about it!

Aw! I know that truth always sets us free. But what if truths will cage our happiness?

What do you prefer?
a.) you see everyone's happy but you're lonely. you sacrifice your happiness for the sake of others' happiness
b.) you're happy but there are people who is not. people will just forget their happiness for you.

Do you watch 'Abt ur luv' in Star Magic Presents in ABS-CBN every Saturday? It's somewhat related to one's 'happiness'. ;D

It's just give and take. Or I may say a battle that only one is a true winner. One must lose for the win of the other.

;D

Frozen - I don't understand

"A person can't love others unless that person loves himself.
A person can't understand others unless he understands himself."

Why? I really don't understand. I hope someone could stop me for I've already ran around in circles until I could run no more. I can't undersand everyone, my family , my cousins, even my friends. Is there something I'm looking for? Or maybe there's juz something wrong with me.

Yes. Something's wrong with me.

Like wrath, I am lost. Like lust, I need someone. Like sloth, I am no one. Like gluttony, I am hungry. Like greed, I want to be free. Like pride, I want to be someone. Like envy, I want revenge.

Still...

I don't understand.

To an old granny I asked, "what could possibly a person need?" then she answered, "false teeth ofcourse!". To a rich bastard I asked the same question and he answered, "money!" and then he laughed. This time I asked a teenager the same question and she answered "love". Love... Is that what a person need? That answer of hers consumed my mind. Love? what love?

I was walking back home from "oneshop" when I accidently bumped a little girl on the way. She was posting something to the bulletin board near the shop. I didn't bother to check what she was posting, I left after saying sorry.

"wait" she called out and then pointed at the paper she posted. I know what she was trying to say but, I just don't care what she posted there so I just gave it a glance.

"wait" she called out again and then gave me a look words cannot explain. I asked why but she gave no reply. Once again, I don't understand. I asked her the question I was asking to those strangers I met. Then she gave a different answer. Her answer was "God".

(0)~(0)

Eh? God? God? hmm.. God!

How could I? How could I neglect my creator, my master, my father, my everything! how! I'm so stupid, ignorant, ashamed.

Yes. Ashamed, so ashamed.

I began thinking, thinking straight again. I began to see, seing everything. My heart, it was beating. Beating.. beating.. beating...

My life... my life was frozen.

That little girl. She gave me that answer. How could a little girl be so smart than the others? How did she know that I was like... frozen. How did she know that I was looking for an answer? Or is it a coincidence. Her calls, does she really want me to look at the paper she posted?

I have to go there, back to that bulletin board. I have to go there and satisfy my curiosity.

There...In the paper she wrote...

"has anyone seen my parents?"



author:
well, it was a true story... I just wanna clear that. I showed it to a friend of mine from a different country but she just laughed at me. She's my cousin and my friend, she always laughs at me so I guess it's normal. hahaha! LoL

the "granny" I asked was the one who sell "balot" near the tricycle terminal.
the "rich bastard"? he's from school. I didn't ask my classmates on purpose, I guess... Well you know how a pilot student's answer can be! hehehhe...(don't ask me why bastard, you already know!)
the "teenager"? yup! she's from school too.
the "little girl"?

well, she's our neighbor, my little sister's bestfriend and...

the one who melted that stupid ice. She's ok now. I guess... but still looking for them. She just can't accept the fact that her parents will never come back. Unfortunately, even alchemy can't return them!

oh yeah, regine reminded me of FMA so... they're there! hahaha! please don't bewildered!

and "me"? I still don't understand...I still don't understand that she answered that question so good! LoL!

All About Sheckler...

This is Sheckler.

He is Ryan Sheckler.

How's dat?

The coolest skateboarder, for me, next to Tony Hawk.

He's really a CHAMP! ===>

<=== See! He does also like color white with a combination of red.

Look! I bet that he also like color green. ===>

<=== He look like a ten-year-old boy here. But actually he's a year older than me.

I think he look like someone I know...um...

Sheckler

"Sheckler"

This is the Sheckler version of Etnies shoes.

You may send this to me as your gift instead of Cinch if you like.

You may wondering who the hell are Cinch and Sheckler. I don't know Cinch but I do know Sheckler. Just ask me who he is. Yes, it is 'he'.

;D

"Cinch"

"Cinch"

This will be one of my shoes collection someday. I personally designed this just for me - even though with the use of their designs.

If you like, you may give this to me as a gift.

If you're really concern about me,

If you're really a friend of mine or more than friends,

If you really love me,

You may buy it and give it as a gift for me - thank you!

Haha - lol. I'm just joking! But if you're serious, you may give it to me as precious remembrance of yours. ;D

But I'm already starting banking my coins - wat?! coins? - whatever!

too insensitive...

Am I becoming too insensitive? If I am, please tell it to me. I won't be angry to you instead thank you.

Why am I just ignoring the things that are already said many times to me? (Am I becoming confusing?)

I didn't know that there is a conflict between my mom and my big sister. I guess I know it but didn't recognize. Or am I just swallowed completely by my being 'pretender'? - swallowed until it's now a normal thing to me and end up 'too insensitive'.

Waaaaaaaaaaaah! I'm still in the process...

I hate every single thing I've done wrong!!! I don't want to study no more!!! I don't want to work no more!!! I don't want to live no more!!! I want to go now in heaven!!! (exaggerating...lol)

But anyway, I need to wait...

Bye! Gotta need to review for tomorrow $%#@ test. - wahahahaha! Lol

P.S. Rosy, nahulaan mo na ung password mo? Gus2 mo tulungan kita? sabihin mo sakin ung mga possible passwords mo? - hehehehe

wierd...

I don't know! But what happened to me this day is so weird - as always... I don't know if school is just trying to get me back for I've already changed especially that I'm developing my relationship with my family as year '07 entered. I don't know if all happened this day are just nothing - an ordinary day - but isn't! I don't know if studies are just hooking me up for I'd already renounced my studies - if it's not just for my family. I better will choose staying at home to spend my time with my family than going to school.

But I should stay to myself. I'll do my best not to be buried deeply in school. These weird smiles and looks I've seen are just normal - especially their calls. I don't think that they've just done something wrong to me. Or they've just discovered something about me that may turn into a big controversy. Haha! Whatever it is, I don't care!

Honestly, I do like it. But it will just take me away again from my family - I guess.

Ok, bye! I need to study and review again my lessons for tomorrow tests.
Remember what I've said. "Don't be hooked up." ;D

.........hehehe

My blog is like my diary. Please take note that whether I'm angry or pissed out, it do not last more than 5 minutes. It evaporates as fast as it can be. So whenever you read some angst or pissed posts here, I just released it in here for faster fade away. I'm not the kind of person who's angry takes a long period of time. I may be pissed but it's natural. I wanted to be happy always. From the very first day I smiled and known the word 'happy', I don't want to frown.

How could I love adventures if I didn't know how to be happy?

You can easily recognize whether a person is a lonely person or a happy person just within his face. You may see me become quiet while conversing, it's because I'm thinking of something or I just forgot what to say.

Whether you believe it or not, I'm fun of thinking deeply. I'm fun of thinking and planning about things - whatever my mind takes me to. And sometimes, take it into sketches. Just like most of my profiles I've written, I said that "I have an absorbed interests" especially when I'm in an excellent mood. It means 'trying out new things'.

Key: Basta masaya, exciting at new, whatever it is - may be a good idea, kalokohan or even sometimes bad - I'm always game!

what's up? Argh...

Sick! Why is everybody showing up some low energy? I don't understand. I've done my best to set it up, but still why everybody is not cooperating? - intentionally or not.

Argh... I don't understand. When it comes to hanging out or going to mall, everybody is game. When it comes to anything that aren't so important, everybody is present. So why when it comes to serious things like project, everybody isn't available. Argh...

Yeah! I know that vacation should enjoy to the most. But there are things to finish up and prepare now. I don't want to scram especially when the deadline is near. I'm not that kind of person. I want to enjoy the time in waiting for presentation while the other groups are just starting preparing. But I know that all groups have already prepared their presentation. Argh...

I know that some people are so busy with their jobs - assigned by their parents or self jobs. But try to set up your schedules. Every person values their time, so please also value the time of others.

I don't want to be your enemy. I understand your reasons. But do also your best to cope it up even for once.

I've always gotten a fight or misunderstanding with my mom every time I'm telling her that we'll have projects to do and I need to go. Kung ako lang, di na q aalis eh. I better love to stay at home.

Argh... It's so hard to balance the time for family and studies. I'm always stealing a time in family just for studies. But I'm still not good at school. Argh...

But after all these things, my '07 wish will soon come true, maybe not now but someday - a family picture.

;D see yah!

author's comment

i'm extremely sorry bout the last post, but i hope u enjoy it! ^.^ It juz took me hours to do that and please don't read it if ur going out, u might get discouraged! hahaha...

it was my first time i got there so im like an alien there, hahaha! Or maybe not...
anywayz, hope u'll have a great year this year!

Oh yeh, and so sorry bout not going to ur house!- special message.. lol

^.^

and i really don't wanna hear that song again, it reminds me of what happened today. Oh well, see ya!

the world outside

I dunno if I should post this but, I juz want it out of my mind. I wanna share it though and I hope you'll learn somtin’ from this. hehehee...

I woke up exactly 12 pm in the afternoon. I saw my mom getting ready for her appointment this afternoon. She asked me if I’m still going to my friends house for she's hoping I could go with her. Well, I wanted to go with her but I told her that going to my friend’s house is kinda important and it's for our group project. She then juz nodded and took off.

I left past 1:00 and was running for I am So0o0o late. I rode a jeep going "tay-tay" and then waited for the jeep to arrive to Village East - where my friend lives. The radio was switched to a certain channel and the song was "I write sins not tragedies" by panic at the disco. It reminded me of a certain happening and a certain anime (oh yeh, did I mention that I’m an anime addict?-Lolz).

My mind was so caught up by the song that I forgot to check if I’m in village east already. When the song ended, my mind was still swirling around my head and when I realized that I was the only one left in the jeep, I looked outside. I then realized that I’m lost and also stupid-lol.

I asked the driver the location and he said that we're already in "tay-tay". I should’ve screamed but I’m not that kind of person. I can tell that the driver knows that I’m lost but I was too freaked out to let him help me (well that's stupid).

I stopped by a gas station and started walking where I think is the right direction back home. I don't have my cell and the only thing that's with me is 100 pesos and a pencil-I really dunno why I have that pencil.

I continued my journey back home. I was too shy and freaked out to ask the right way. Then I saw a church – Iglesia Ni Cristo. I then decided to ask there for some help. I juz felt that they could be trusted and they could help me. The guard told me the direction but juz a few minutes passed and I already forgot the way.

I walked back to the church but then a dog chased me that I couldn’t get near the church. Once again, I got lost. The dog chased me until a man gave the dog a biscuit (I didn’t know that dogs eat those and this reminds me of something…) then I continued running without saying my thanks to that man. (hahaha- that’s embarrassing! Though it really reminds me of something…lol)

Yep, I’m lost again. I guess this what happens to people who juz stays at home and sleep. I continued walking and followed my instincts. A car parked in front of me, and then a cheery face showed up. I can tell she was surprised to see me because of her reaction. She got out of the car and gave me a “long time no see” embrace. I really can’t remember her but I think she remembers me so I juz nodded to everything she says pretending I do. She asked me what I was doing, and I juz said, “juz wandering around, taking a walk and feeling the warmth of the sun”.

I guess she figured out that I was lying and found out that I was lost. She gave me a ride home. I asked her how, and she said that she saw me walking back and forth in front of the church, saw me ask the guard, and saw me being chased by a dog. We then burst out laughing and then I remembered who she was. She was my childhood friend and church mate. She moved in tay-tay 8 years ago. We used to have those laughs when we were little so I remembered. It was her brother who gave those biscuits and her father was the one who decided to give me a lift home.

I never thought I’d saw her in that place and she’ll help me. Our fathers used to be friends but they both got busy and that friendship got wasted. When they gave me a lift they met again and juz like we did, they burst out laughing, remembering their own embarrassing moments (or maybe they’re laughing at me..ngrr…).

As I got home, I said to myself, “I’m never leaving home again!”

I do like it but shouldn't...

I had a nightmare this morning (I slept at just around 2:30 a.m.). It's kind of a nightmare because I don't like it! Wat on earth! First day of the year, and my first dream of the year!

Actually I dream of my classmates with so many activities in school - but that's not the thing! The nightmare is, it included a person that I shouldn't meet of. It's kinda ok to meet that person in my dream, because it's normal. But the weird thing is that person is included in all the activities in my dream - I mean that @#$% person is a cast in every scene. Whatever! Anyway, that person does not know anything about this. - aha - lol.

Note:
@#$% - I just putted it into signs 'coz I don't know what to type. - lol - I don't know if I'll use my common expressions which are 'stupid' and 'sick'. Try to think of it if I putted either of these words in that signs, uh? - hahahaha - lol

Just like what I said, I putted out here whatever my heart and my mind lead me to. lol

Great! 2007!

Woah! It's already 2007! Oh yes! I'm still alive! I never thought I ended up alive when this year comes. - lol

I slept 3 a.m. - I guess. I experienced great miracles this early morning (around bet. 1:30-2:45). - hehehe. When both hands of the clock stroke 12, I prayed. I saw stars in the sky right after I said straight up to the sky, "I love you God! or Thank you God!". Because that time, black smokes filled the sky and I can't even see any stars. But I hoped and believed that stars will show up. And when I'm about to go inside I said this last phrase while looking in the sky. Then clouds went away and I saw a star. Then stars started showing up again. Great, isn't?

Ok, see ya! May this year be a blessing to you and me!

;D