Smile thyself

The feeling when your partner is not into you anymore. 

Just have to accept it and let go. 

That's life. You have to deal with it.

Love yourself. Be happy within you. Your partner doesn't need to give that to you.

If your partner finally quit and gave up. Let go. You don't need anyone to make you smile - know that.

I love you Rove. ^_^ Smile!

K. Tnx. Bye.

What's the use of going to a therapy? What's the use of seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist? What's the use if you don't have budget and it's not part of the medical benefit of the company? It's just burning your pocket. 

You earn just enough. Taxes get it all. What's left is for day-to-day expenses until the next salary. The little leftover is for your beloved pets and ad-hoc needful. 

Nothing left. You just have to deal with it. Good thing I know God and Jesus. I am a Christian. It was a good thing. Or else, I have already taken away my life with my own hands. My only redemption from this world is when God finally get me out from here. When will that happen... It's getting frustrated. Each single day, I wear a mask of a great pretender.

Okay. Thanks. B-bye.

Heaven

I'm really dying to go to heaven.

Singing praises 24/7, I don't mind.

Guarding the gate of heaven, I don't mind.

As long as I'll live there, I'll do anything.

I miss you Rayn and Raffles. I really wanted to see you again. Be with you again. 

Hang out with my grandmother and Tito Art would be nice. Chat with Jc again, would be cool. Seeing you all in heaven would be lovely.

I'm really dying to go to heaven. 

Depression

Been suffering since first months of the year.

I gladly 100% give my life to someone who deserves it. I have no use of my life anymore. Already tired of everything. 

I don't like to feel pain, sadness, frustration, fury, jealousy, and even happiness. Bored of it.

I don't have any desire anymore. 

I'm always praying that God and Christ will hear my prayer. I'm dying to go to heaven. I can no longer live here as a human being.

Someone out there deserves more to live longer. He/She still have things need to do. Has children or family who deeply care for him/her. He/She still have use on Earth. I will gladly give my remaining life to you.

Hopefully God and Christ will grant my prayer and wish. 

-Rove