I'm sorry but it's already been decided

I have decided. Not offense. I will leave the country once Binay becomes the Philippine president.

McKinley pa nga lang inaagaw na nila from Taguig City. Instead of focusing on the disputes in the west Philippine Islands, ito pa ang pinag-aawayan. Instead of getting the hearts of Muslims in the Mindanao to unify Philippines, ito pa talaga iniintindi. Because of this action, I'm afraid unity will be blur among Filipinos in the future.

My purpose to help my countrymen will still be executed as plan. I will just visit Philippines to build schools in the mountains and remote islands. But business and living a life? I will do my best to have one in the foreign land I'll be at.

I'm sorry Binay. Not unless you or any from your family did something significant, I can't trust to you the lives of my family.

I know how it feels to be a Vice President. I've been there. President always do the things. Leaving you nothing to do anymore. But, I've never asked to be the President after that. As for me, it's better to be of a help while in the lower position. I got a chance to have honest conversations with the members. Knowing what they feel, what they need, what they want, and discussing how to attain them.

To be continued...

Ang ayaw at gusto

Tagalog Post:

Una sa lahat, hindi kami bagay.

Hindi ko sya type. Mukha, katawan, ugali, etc.

Kung pano sya mamuhay, hindi ko gusto. Masyado sya nahuhumaling sa expensive foods. Masyado sya magastos. Kelangan mo ng maraming pera para ilabas sya. Ang gusto ko, matipid. As much as possible, kumakain ng sulit na food. Cheaper but substantial.

Hindi sya vocal. Hindi sya honest sa sarili nya. Ang gusto ko, honest sa nararamdaman nya at sasabihin nya ito no matter what. Gusto ko vocal.

Hindi sya straight to the point. Maraming paliguy ligoy. Gusto ko, diretso.

Ang pangarap ko, someone who's honest sa nararamdaman nya. Someone who's true sa sarili nya. Someone who's straightforward. Someone who's masiyahin at palangiti. Someone who strives hard for our betterment. Someone who will not leave me in the air unprepared.

every goodbye comes a new hello

Yeah. I think I now know the reason why God put me out of that role. For me to have spare time.

And I guess also that my overtime at work is getting frequent.

I've got lots of activities - including extra curricular. Even weekends, I go out. I got no time anymore for myself.

Or I should say, time for Him. 

I miss doing reflections. And I guess I don't know anymore how to do it.

Because of the confusion I had with the removal of role decision, I get a change to pray and look at my current life.

There are positive things about this.

First, extra time for myself. Time to study. Time to reflect.

Second, maybe because God has prepared an even more important or greater thing for me. I should be prepared for this.

I should be thankful about this decision because my burden of approaching a person to dismissed this was removed. Haha.

And yeah, I'm thankful about this.

God is helping me out to say goodbye little by little; and say hello little by little.

To God be the Glory!

Will be having fun now, doing life's reflections. 

Pagkasawa, thing I don't wanna experience

Now.. I'm afraid I now feel the "pagkasawa" towards my current work. It feels like there's no something new anymore. Worst, I feel like I'm no longer needed. Na-oOP na. -_- XD

Need a rotation maybe? Guess so. New apps, new processes, new teammates, new environment, etc.

I'm gonna ask my manager in our next one-on-one. Let's try..

Sudden shock

Shocking news. I was removed from my role of being a Dev Lead.

Yeah I do understand why my team lead decided for this. And I am thankful about it because she initiated it before I was about to tell her. I know I wasn't able to do my role for 2-3 months because of my app's decommissioning. And during those times, I thought to myself that I will ask my team lead to hand me any dev project to lead after my decommissioning project. But already forgotten it when I'm about to finish my decom proj.

I'm also thankful partly because my loads have lessen, atleast. I was thinking about Ops and so with processes. And sometimes, I didn't know now how to differentiate one task from the other.

However, the thing that I didn't like is its sudden announcement to the team without telling me beforehand. Or maybe, I was given already a hint but didn't take notice of it because of my "busy-ness". Even though I'm already expecting it, it has still given me a sudden shock. Good thing I was able to react nicely in a split of second - though it's obvious I was in shock. Haha.

Oh well, expect the unexpected. And what's left for me is to just pray. :) Every little thing has its own reason. And He got a big real reason. Even though I don't know it. Every goodbye is a new hello. ;)

To God be the glory!

Practices, Stories, and Movies

Really had very long days.. Since Friday night.

Watched Turbo at Market!(2x) wid my sister. my teammate joined us and treated us. I wasn't able to attend to his despidida party last Thurs cause of shift. That's why it's his reason to treat me and my sis.

Sat was a very tiring day. Badminton practice was cancelled though I woke up early and while was already on my way to the venue. Practiced dancing from 2pm till 7pm. If I'm not mistaken, we were able to memorize four (4) choreographies. Heck! It's just not my body alone but my whole brain. +_+ need to be alert and should be able to memorize the steps easily.

At home, watched Running Man while crunching some McDo icecream and fries wid sis.

Sunday. Whole body is really aching. Can't move freely. in pain all over. And just stayed at home. Watched few movies. (Also watched few topics of Jessica Soho.) First is Amazing Spiderman, then Koukou ____, and lastly, The Life of Pi.

About to sleep after the last movie, but got some hangover wid the Life of Pi. I am usually like this. Usually after watchin a movie, I can go to sleep right away especially when I'm tired. There's something about the movie. It's amazing and creepy at the same time. Anyhow, I can't forget the things I've seen in the movie. It's great.

Oyasumi~