Which one

"Mag-aaway pero di maghihiwalay."

Or

"Sana hindi tayo magkatuluyan."

Which one I should believe? Which one I should paste to my mind? Which one... My brain unable to determine..

The old days

I did a crazy thing. 😆

I opened my ハニー's FB. How? Forgot password. 😂🤣😂 Sorry ハニー. 😞

Anyway, I had fun looking at old pictures and albums. Pics of ハニー that were so young and innocent. Dark and ugly kid to jeje days to beautiful woman now. 😆

And I thought, during these days, I was living on the other side. Also thought, "what if I've found ハニー or my family found her?" Then, ハニー didn't need to conform and frequently adjust just to live other families. 😔

"What kind of life she might have if she was living with us during those times?"

"What kind of life I might have if she was living with us during those times?"

I wonder...

Anyway, I bet ハニー had an adventurous journey. And what's important now is the present and the future. ☺️

Present with ハニー.
And hope, future with ハニー.

Thank you God for letting our roads crossed again. ☺️

.....

Buti kapa, lovelife lang iniisip mo.

Ako lahat!

Trabaho, pamilya, ikaw, lahat!

Fuck!

Ayaw ko na mag-please. Ayaw ko na mag-ask ng permission.

Can I not ask permission from anyone else anymore?
Can I not please anyone anymore?
Can I try living my life with my own rules?

F*** people!

When you are already stress with work
And your significant other adds up to that stress...

Don't know where to put myself anymore - between being relax or being strict...which one do you prefer people?! Tell me!!

I'm so fed up already! With all these f***ing people!

For you, I will

Shoulder to cry on?

Ears you can rant to?

Any mood you may have.
How hectic and stressful your work can be.
How irritable people around you can be.
How fucked up this world can be.

I can be your someone to lean on to.
I can be your someone you can pour your emotions to.
Without judgement, I can be your everything.

Cause I am your bestfriend. 😁

- God and Rove

God is there, always

ハニー,

You are already at the right age. The right age wherein you have more freedom to make decisions on your own. You already know what's right and wrong.

Stand on what you believe. Grasp it firmly. Fight for it! When you do, nobody can take you down - even life's predicaments.

Now, I only desire your spiritual, mental, and emotional growth. If I'll be a hindrance to your growth, feel free to let me go. Anyway, I'm still your bestfriend. 😉

Put yourself first. Be yourself. And don't forget to always seek His guidance. Though people let you down, He will not - never.

-Rove 😎

Simple joy

I remember

The day Kate treated us for ramen nagi, I was so full. That morning, I forgot that there's a dine out and ハニー and I agreed to eat dinner together. Despite having eaten ramen, I still ate dinner with ハニー. The fullness didn't kick in because I was with my special person.

The night ハニー went to my office, she was so tired. Despite the tiredness, she still brought me dinner and lots of food. Then waited for me until my end of shift despite the hotness and humidity in the car and parking lot - plus wearing a long sleeve.

These sacrifices. Simple act of appreciation, makes love grow fonder.

I thank my ハニー for all the effort, love, and care. She does not need to these but still, she still choose to. And I appreciate it very much. ☺️

Happy ハニー

Happy Monthsary ハニー!

Kahit lagi kang highblood sakin.
Despite all the predicaments and challenges we had,
I still love you.

Let's grow old together.
Let's support each other through thick or thin.
Let's be honest with each other.

Let God be the center of our relationship.

For more months and years together~
Hold on tight and be strong!

Random questions

You told me that you experienced in the past wherein your relationships cheated on you.

My question, have you cheated in the past?

If not, am I the first relationship you had that you cheated on?

Why you chose to cheat on me? You've done it not once, not twice, not thrice, but four times. What made you decide to do it multiple times in just one relationship?

Please don't be offended. I just wanna know. Maybe because I have the right to know it too?

Maybe because

Maybe because,
I still love you.

That despite all the cheating and hurts, I am still welcoming you with wide open arms.

Maybe because,
I am still in love with you.

That despite the norm tells me to say it quits, I am still here ready to accept the new you.

I don't like you at all anymore.
But I still love you.
And this love - God's love - is telling me to forgive, move on, and start a new.

——

God, lead my life. Lead our life both. May you be the center of this relationship - not anyone else. Keep us away from all the things and creatures who only desire us to fall and go astray. Keep us away from the worldly temptations.

I love you God. Thank you for your unending love.

In Jesus name I pray, amen!

Chance

Why am I doing this?

Been trying to block all means of communications of that stalker in ハニー's phone. But the owner doesn't want to in the first place.

Why am I doing this?

She should know her limits and between what's right and wrong. She's in her right age. Protection should not be coming from me. She should know how to protect herself.

Why am I doing this?

It doesn't make sense. I should stop - treating her like a baby. Treating her like she doesn't know what she's doing. Let her face the consequences of every action she's doing in her life.

Why am I doing this?

Being over protective will only cause her to do things that I don't like. I should refrain myself from giving so much life lessons or teachings if the person is already fed up on it. It will only cause the person to rebel.

Why am I doing this?

I should stop. Let her be. And just need to watch and observe. Anyway, another chance was given. Let's see how she'll take care of that one last chance - the trust.

———

Please help her, God. May she continually seek your wisdom and knowledge for every decision and action she'll take in her life.

Karma is real

Why? Why am I doing this in the first place?
Why am I involving myself to useless creatures?

I don't deserve this!

I have already moved on but ハニー returned. And I treated that as a change of heart. I assumed that all kabit are already gone in her life. All stalkers stopped squishing theirselves to our lives. But it was not the case, the more you block them in all means of communications, the more they push themselves hard. 🤬 Fuck humans!

I don't deserve this!

I can't fight for someone that can't even love him/herself. I can't fight for someone who can't even stand to what s/he believes is right. My sense of justice is bursting out!

I don't deserve this!

Being a light and shining armor doesn't do anything good especially if the person you are fighting for can't even appreciate your efforts nor see the same outlook as you have.

I don't deserve this!

Niloko. Sinaktan. Niloko. Inagrabyado. In the end, may kasalanan parin in the eyes of the person you are fighting for. Fuck humans!

I don't deserve this!

This doesn't make sense!

——-

I'm fond of threatening people to kill them. But honestly, I don't have the guts to do it. Why? I will not spend my valuable time to useless things. I will not stain my hands with useless creatures. They don't deserve my attention in the first place.

I'd rather see and watch them wither away by time and karma. Then laugh my ass off watching them suffer by the circumstances they created.


——-

Be cool Rove. Your time don't deserve them. Your time is much more valuable than their life. Forget them and move on. Trust karma. It will take them one day. 😉 Just be cool. Stay cool. 😎

Future Family

I love ハニー.
And I wanna marry her in the future. 💍
Have kids, regardless coming from me or from ハニー. 👶🏻

This one last chance, hopefully, ハニー won't fall into enemy's temptation again. 🙏

One time, I thought of fucking my long time crush so that I can get even with ハニー. But no, God never works that way. And my crush is a respectable and educated person. I respect her much. "It's easy to think but so difficult to do." When I’ll do that, I'll be no different to the enemies. Compassion and forgiveness should be given, and not revenge.

And also, I love myself. ☺️

Just like what my motto is when I was a kid, I will only give my mind and body to the one person I love - to the one person I am committed with. I want to give the best of me because that person is so special to me. My best gift would be my best self. ☺️

God, please cleanse my and ハニー's heart and mind. Keep us away from the worldly things and temptations of the enemies. Thank you God. Amen! 🙏

Fucking pissed off

You are acting like a kid!
You're making someone worry to death.
You are being selfish!
If you are going to drink, make sure that you can handle yourself.
Not contact someone else again to save you wherever your feet take you to.

For God's sake, take care of yourself!
Have self-respect!
Love yourself!

#Pissed 😡
#GNyt

#ktbxbye

Many texts and calls, no response.
Am I allowed to get mad?

Was out of reached then rung then out of reached again. Can I be pissed now?

One text. Or one call. Unable to do?
Ok fine. Suit yourself. Enjoy!

#WhenYouAreBeingTakenForGranted