Goals

Personal Goals
Furbabies vaccine completion - In-progress (Target Oct 2020)
Master in Management completion in APC - In-progress (Target Nov 2021)
Master of Project Management / Master of Project and Program Management admission in UoS - Planned (Winter 2021)
PP's B&B Inn Lot - Planned (Target June 2021)

Travel Goals
Batanes, Australia, Iceland, Switzerland, Finland, Italy, Netherlands, Germany, Denmark, Sweden, Russia

"Focus on your goals."

I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me. -Philippians 4:13

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

oh my!~

Oh my!~ I think you have a new plan on me God.. ~_~

My sis in Singapore is going home next month and might never go back there. She is now 2months pregnant. Thank God!

But... Being me alone? Oh my!~ What a very good experience will I have  if it'll happen..

Hope my mom will trust on me about this. She might stop me on going there. -_- *Sigh*

Nyway, let your will Thy be done. :)
 
Leikeze Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

100% ME! =D

I think, it's time for me to fly.Wahahaha!
Need and I want to go back to my old self--the 100% INTJ. =D

Get rid of the feelings.
Put mind into work always.

Still,
do my best 100%
have fun 100%
be an adventurer 100%
love everyone 100%
be a kid forever 100%!

Wahahaha! Love it! =D XD
 
Rove
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

verdic birth chart

Based on this: http://storywrite.com/story/512480

Things I always encounter through the personality tests or any tests I am answering: pragmatism, creative, analytical, generosity, empathy, scientific,  etc.

And yes, I am being critical and expectng too high. As a result, getting idealistic.

Though I love fun, I am still critical to things. *Sigh* Do I need to change myself for people could accept for who I am? I am always compromising, for the sake of relationships.

But always compromising does me no good. It makes me defenseless. Defenseless from people's abusive  intentional or unintentional acts.

I am willing to change always. But in any relationships, both parties should do their part to carry each other. They need to help each other to work out any relationships-family, children, friends, etc.

Nyway, I just told what I think about the verdic birth chart I got from astrology.com. Hahaha! XD
 
Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Seventy seven times..

Yo!

I think I was wrong. I should  pray and ask for seventy seven times. Oh God. This is not my prayer anymore but I will revise it.

It's ok Father if You won't ever give Fudy to my life. But I'll pray for an answer if You will grant my life's wish, to spend the rest of my days with Fudy. To grow old with my beloved until I die. I'll come back to you over and oever again, asking if we can be together.

If it's a 'no', it's ok. Got to continue my purpose without Fudy or any 'special someone'.

But if it's a 'yes', oh my, I'll never ask for more.

I'm a positive thinker and I hope so much in life. But in this kind of thing-relationships-I don't know if being hopeful is still applicable.

Still, let your will Thy be done.
 
Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Prayers according to Thy will

Yo!

I was late again this morning. For about 30mins. Hahaha! XD

One thing I have remember about the Daily Hope(1) I have read this morning is praying according to His will.
I remember that I used to pray until just recently is this:

"Oh God, please. Please take back Fudy in my life. I can wait until the end of time. This is my fourth wish after my three wishes about my purpose and my family. If You'll give Fudy to me, that will be the greatest gift I'll ever receive from my entire life. I will no longer ask for any gifts for my birthdays or any special occasions. I want to spend the rest of my life with Fudy. Oh God please."

But I added,

"That's only my wish and my prayer. But still, let Your will Thy be done. 'Cause you know the best for all of us. In Jesus name, Amen!"

Yeah. Morally speaking, it's not right to pray or ask for a person to be yours. They're still human beings like me. And they also have the rights to pray and ask for their own. What if that person you have been praying is also praying for other someone in their life?

Though I stop praying about my wish about Fudy, still in the back of my thought, even 1 percent is wanting it. Yet, let His will Thy be done. I know that He has a wonderful plan for each and everyone of us. Though He gives us free will, He's still in control.

That's why, I already given up everything to Him. (Still, I don't want to fall ever again. Unless He told me to. XD)

See ya buddy! =D


Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

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(1)http://allpoetry.com/journal/133607-Your-prayers-have-an-impact-by-Rick-Warren

Happiness, what is it?

Based on the chapter I have read in 'have a little faith' (http://storywrite.com/story/512212)

Yeah. If I just take a moment scrutinizing myself, I am really lucky. =D

I still have a lot of things, especially the love of my parents and family.
And far most important, His love that never fails.

I should be satisfied and grateful about it.

In fact, what more could I ask? XD

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Switching to future 'partner in life'..

Therefore, my life would be still happy even without 'someone'. =D
In time, I'll be completely contented with my family.
And just stick to being friends with people. =D XD
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Nothing is impossible with Him. =D
 
Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System


Watching Anime: An excuse for something

Wat's up?

A dare or I should say a 'stand' is made.

I'll never find anyone or enter into a romantic relationship not until I have finished all the episodes of One Piece and Detective Conan. =D Hahaha! XD How's that? =D

I just clearly stated that I don't want to fall ever again. Hahaha! It's obvious that I'm just making excuses 'cause Conan has 600+ eps and One Piece has 500+ eps. And both of them are still not yet finished. =)) XD

Nyway, I don't want to anymore. Not unless He requires me to. Because He knows everything. And having someone in life might be a requirement for my life's mission/purpose here on earth. =D

But I guess, it's just an option of life. BUT. If He really wanted me to have, I'll follow Him. =D I can still do my purpose even with Him and Christ alone. =D Haha!

Above all else, let His will Thy be done. =D

Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Monday, September 27, 2010

INTJ really I am

Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging

This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature

Yeah, people mistaken me as snob especially when I am alone. But I am just confidence to some specific things-not all dude!

When it comes to their own areas of expertise -- and INTJs can have several -- they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how. INTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don't know.

Hahaha! Yeah! I can tell you abruptly whether I could help you or not after you stated your problem. XD I am a know-it-all kind of person. 'Cause I know there are still a lot of things I needed to know and learn. =D

INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest.

Yeah. I am really perfectionist to things that really hooked me up. If they're not, I'm not perfectionist at all. Hahaha! Who wants to be a perfectionist to things that they don't like doing? Uh? 0_o XD

What prevents them from becoming chronically bogged down in this pursuit of perfection is the pragmatism so characteristic of the type: INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion "Does it work?" to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms.

Hahahaha! Guilty! I use practical approach to problems and affairs. And always ask, 'Does it work? uh?' :)) XD

This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake.

This is what I really am. Though I follow morally norms, I always make myself free from authority. Even the strict social norms people are following, I don't stick to them that much. Because life won't be life at all if you always follow the desires of this world. Follow your heart dude!--your mind too! =D XD

INTJs are known as the "Systems Builders" of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability.

Yeah! I imagine a lot. :)) But being reliable? Don't know! Wahaha! XD

both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play, as INTJs can be unsparing of both themselves and the others on the project.

Just what like I said, let your imagination take you to greatness! =D XD

Anyone considered to be "slacking," including superiors, will lose their respect -- and will generally be made aware of this

Yeah! I don't like slackers though I am one of them too. -_- :)) XD

INTJs have also been known to take it upon themselves to implement critical decisions without consulting their supervisors or co-workers

Aheaheahe.. I think that's why some people call me 'pasaway'. Tsk tsk. XD

On the other hand, they do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice.

Yeah! That's one of the most important things to me, recognizing the hard work of other people on the project. I really specify it, praise it, and suggest more if possible. =D XD
Seizing opportunities? I don't know! I just say 'yes' most of the times in my life. Nobody knows what fun and excitements are coming our way! =D XD

In the broadest terms, what INTJs "do" tends to be what they "know". Typical INTJ career choices are in the sciences and engineering, but they can be found wherever a combination of intellect and incisiveness are required (e.g., law, some areas of academia). INTJs can rise to management positions when they are willing to invest time in marketing their abilities as well as enhancing them, and (whether for the sake of ambition or the desire for privacy) many also find it useful to learn to simulate some degree of surface conformism in order to mask their inherent unconventionality.

In short, any job that is not conventional. Hahaha! XD I love science. In fact, it is my first college course, biochemical engineering. But then, I am now pursuing the 'out-of-nowhere-degree which is BS-CSIT specialize in System and Software Engineering. Engineering still. Hahahaha! But I want to pursue a Masters in Business Administration after some savings. =D XD

Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.

Yeah yeah yeah.. I used to be like this 100%-Achilles heel. But then, I am still 100% to the rest of the lines. I love and care so much the people who are close to my heart, especially my family. =D However, in the last line, I can be like that for a short time after a great distress about certain 'relationship'. XD

This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. Only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.

I used to be like that 100%. But after I had 'someone', 100% turned to 1%. Hahaha! But now, I'm getting into it again. And I love of being who I am. =D And yeah, I prefer direct expression of words than just by being quiet and leaving me guessing. -_- I guess that's why people say that I am 'slow'. 

Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about,

Yeah, Of course. I value relationships still. I can give great deal of time to work out every relationships. However, understanding too of the other person is needed. -_- 

and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications.

Yeah yeah yeah. Communications really mattered. Especially to me who doesn't rely on Fs. I want direct expression of feelings thru words too. 'Cause I am not a guesser or a fortune-teller. -_-

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That's it, that's it! I know myself more than anyone else! Hahaha! Thanks to this. This is the third time I took this personality test. The first and second, which I have already forgotten the meanings, were at school. XD
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Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Chinese Daily Horoscope this time..

Hi! Here is your Daily Chinese Horoscope for Sunday, September 26


As you may be a bit more susceptible to physical injuries at this time, avoid rough activities, like sports or manual labor. In general, keep your mind at ease, and meditate thoroughly and often. You'll need a healthy mind and body to interact with the new children about to enter your extended family.

Oh it's getting more excited! Though my nieces are increasing, it's fine! I guess I like little kids. Hahaha! I just like to play with them--not when they are so rough at times. XD

I heard that my big sis in Sg is going home next month because they're expecting a baby. It'll be the second or I should say third because of their eldest twins. Haha! Aaron is not the youngest niece anymore, if the news is true. XD Well then, I got to play with that future niece of mine. Hahaha!

I love Liyah and Lisha so much! 
I love Rhian and Reivan so much!

They are the twins of my life--our life! =D
 
Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Weekends that I love!!! =D

Yo buddy!

It's me!

It seems like the fasting is diminishing. Hahaha! Gomenasai. Ehehe. XD But I asked Him if I could eat again. This night is the second night I ate dinner. It's because we had a little party. And the food is greeeeeaat to resist! Wahaha! The first one was when my mom cooked fried chicken. Who will resist that kind of food, uh? Not me! 'Cause it's my fave! Wahahaha! XD

Nyway, I am having fun watching Detective Conan these days together with my lil' sis. Just this night, we, together with Michael, watched Detective Conan. We also drunk a lot of Coca Cola this night--even while watching. It's the alcohol-alternative for kids! Hahaha! XD We ended at episode 18 in DetCon. I think I am be able to continue it on weekends. *Sigh* The weekdays that I hate will start again tomorrow. How I wish it's always weekends.. So that Michael's family is always here and we're always enjoying each other's company. *Sigh* Oh by the way, I like weekends too 'cause I could drive around the place if I'm not at malls. Hahahaha! XD

Ok, got to go! I don't want to be late this weekdays again. -_- My record this month is a mess. *Sigh* Hahaha! XD

See yah!

Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Persevere for His promise

Verse of the Day

Hebrews 10:35-36
So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.

Yeah, I shouldn't disregard my confidence. And my confidence are Him , Christ, and my family. I am a positive thinker that's why I should persevere. Throw away all the unwanted thoughts in my mind thru Christ my Lord. I should be encouraged for in time, after have done His will, I'll receive what He has promised. :)

not born to fall

I shouldn't have looked on to your multiply and twitter. Though I failed looking at your multiply, I found your twitter. Then the result? I got hurt. :'(

I'm sorry. If only things are just a little bit different. :'(

But what can I do? Just move on.. I don't want to see the earthly you anymore. If I could only fast forward the time, where all of my dreams are realizing. Afterwards, I'll die. Then I'll be with my beloved Fudy who is now in heaven.

Why am I always experiencing 'unrequited love' in my life? Just what I thought so.. I was not born to fall in love. I was born to be with my family-with my parents forever. And of course, with Him especially. 

If I could just be like Ang in Avatar, who is not destined to marry and have his own family because of a mission. I guess, that's how my life is too.

I shouldn't be discouraged for 'greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world.' Thank you God. You are the only one left who I can rely on. In you, 'unrequited love' doesn't ever exist. Thank you for your everlasting love. I love you so much above all else.

To my beloved Fudy and By: Still, your happiness is also my happiness. Though it hurts a lot, I can take it as long as you always smile and are happy. :)
 
Leikeze Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Friday, September 24, 2010

Why o why

It's hard to still love someone who doesn't have any feelings for you anymore. *Sigh* I guess it's because of His love. Oh my, oh my~
 
Leikeze Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System


Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Yop! Wat's up?

Hey!

I'm already in my Internship2. Sooner, I'll be graduating. Haha! So excited! XD

These past few days (since Fudy left), I spent my time in my AllPoetry account. Haha! I seldom now opening my FB and YM, don't know. Guess, nothing is important out there. Hahaha! I learn a lot in my AllPoetry. I spent too my time, when I'm at office, in Yahoo Mail. Hahahaha! XD

However, these past few days, I avoid these pages (FB, AllPoetry, YM) because I'm going through Fasting. I'm also not eating dinner. Then why am I fasting? It's because I'm asking for something. I'm asking Him to heal our (I and Fudy) broken heart and mind completely.

Then, during weekends, I frequently go out-with family or rhea and michael. Haha! Kids are still fun-though the shallowest people on Earth. Hahaha! XD

I and Rhea have more time bonding. Haha! I and my mom too! Haha! I also always fancy Aaron-my niece. Hahaha!

Many times, though I'm busy working, my mind is clouded with the thoughts and memories of Fudy. *Sigh* But thank God, DailyHope and BibleGateway are always in my inbox.

Ok, time to go buddy!