wat am i gonna do?

Nadedepress na ko!!! +_+

Every examination I had with regards to programming, I always review it when I get back at home whether my answers were correct or not. And almost all of them, I made mistakes and blunder moves. I always say, "Sayang! Tama na yung sagot pinalitan ko pa!" Two examinations related to Java were just simple; but then I failed to answer it correctly. And the reason is mainly I forgot them--may be the key terms or syntaxes. It feels like I am dependent with the application, Eclipse, whenever I am creating programs. I couldn't be sure to my answers when I am not using Eclipse--where I shouldn't be!

Nakaka-frustrate! Wala na nga ko lovelife, wala pa ko career. +_+ Why I am always experiencing this kind of hardships in life? Am I the only one who experience this? I wanna die now!!! 

Sorry if I was bein' negative. But then, it's pretty obvious that I'm a loser. Why not change my endeavour in life? Maybe change my career? How will I change my career.. It requires attending school again. Maybe it's not a good idea to find a job right away after having a 3-month solid vacation. I think, I should have laid more days reviewing and studying my lessons before looking for a job.

Ok.. I think I should come up with a plan. If I didn't get a job until first week of Aug, I'll take an off. Maybe 2-3weeks. And during these weeks, I'll study my lessons and try to cope up alone--of course, while attending reviews in OCPJP. I'll tell it to my mom when I already know the results of the 2nd interview in AN and an exam in A.

So help me God...

Leikeze Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

floatin' in the sky?

Comment about your current feelings when we talk about relationship?

It feels like I don't want to enter into a relationship. I guess I'm already tired of it. You'll feel like floatin' in the air when you feel bein' love by your partner. When both of you went to the point of fighting, you'll be depressed. Then worse, your partner will decide to leave you. And because you love each other, you're just hurting each other by staying apart. And how much more with people that don't love you anymore? The feeling of hurt is worst. 

Though every relationship is unique, when you think of it, it seems like it's just going in circles. And for me, it pulling out all of energies in one shot. 

For now, I'm already contented with the relationships I have with my family and friends. If they're not there, I can redirect my energies to my hobbies and work.

That's all! 

Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

sched since i arrived home

Schedule (since I arrived here)

Sunday: HP7 wid Rhea en Michael

Monday: Emerson @ Mandaluyong. Took the interview.

Tuesday @ PSE: Azeus. Took the 1st exam.

Wednesday: Fujitsu Ten Sol'n Ph @ PSE. Made to the 2nd exam but then failed it.

Thursday: Smart Wireless Center @ Makati. Took the exam in Java but failed it.

Friday: Accenture. Took the exam and passed it.

Monday:

9am - Software Ventures Int'l @ Ortigas. Will take the exam.

11:30am - Smart Wireless Center. Will take the SQL exam.

Tuesday (Optional):

MISYS @ Makati for exam (walk-in).

If I'll be lucky tomorrow, I might have three companies to choose from (Accenture, Smart, and SVI). But then, let His will thy be done. 

After 3mos of solid vacation, I started reviewing my lessons last Thursday (after I failed the Java exam in Smart). XD I am both reviewing the SQL (yesterday) and Java programming (since Thursday night).

I will still do my best in the exams and so with my reviews. I know He'll be there to give me enough knowledge, wisdom, and strength. I should be a positive thinker! Aja aja fighting! 

Yrekcah

from SG, finally goin' home...

Yeah! It's been long days since I posted my last entry here. Tomorrow night, I'll be goin' back to my homeland. I'll start anew again. (and again) I thought goin' here in SG to work means a new beginning to me. But I think it's not the case. I guess God really has another plan for me. He just wanted me to take a long vacation and enjoy myself before the real hardships come. I don't know. These 3mos made me wretched. I hope the four years College education I had can't be affected by 3mos of slacking. 

Though, I still enjoyed stayin' here in SG. I got part-time job for a week. I experienced other cultures (I had culture shocked at first). At first, I thought it's really hard workin' abroad--away from your love ones though I'm with my few relatives (sister,  cousin, and brother-in-law). But then, I get to realize that the adventures in life I'm lookin' out are somethin' like this. Oh! I guess God wanted me to experience the difference of adventures in nature tripping and adventures in a foreign land. Now I know. And it's makin' me excited. I don't wanna give up myself for bein' an adventurer. Sooner or later, I'll experience workin' abroad with no one's with me.

God, let your will Thy be done. Please give me knowledge and wisdom as I make decisions in life which are according to Your will. Let your Holy Spirit guide me all throughout my life's undertakings. Oh Jesus, please be my shepherd. Please make me your sheep, 'cause I'm really a lost one. Oh Father, My God, please lighten my way as your Holy Spirit guides me; and as Jesus Christ lead my way. Thank your for everything. I love you so much!

[Next: Saebyuk Ep77]

Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Faith of Life in SG

Yeah! It's already a week since we arrived here in SG. For the whole week, all we did were walk, walk, walk, and walk. We're kinda busy and exhausted. No food and water most of the times. Haha. I and Kuya Jay went to a lot of agencies and companies directly. And this week, what we left to do is just to wait for calls from all the sites, companies, and agencies we gave out our resume. XD

Just today, I have realized that there's no need to think about my pride. What's wrong if I'll get a job that's not related to the course I've finished? If I have to think about it, one of my ultimate goals is to be a CEO of one's company or of my own company. Being a CEO of other's is kinda blurred that's why I'll go for the CEO of my own company. Working here in SG will help me save money for future investments in PH.

Oh God, let Thy will be done.

Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System