Arrived home, no electricity. Took a quick bath since naulanan ako. Cried inside the bathroom. Now I'm here lying in my bed, crying. I will just let these tears come out until no tear left.
This pain and sadness you feel when the person you love decided to leave you. Sometimes, you do things you normally not do just to forget this pain. In less than a month before your 4th anniversary. Just like what people say, "expect the unexpected." I know that she needs this. She needed to leave in order to concentrate on herself. I love her that's why I gave her the freedom she desires. And I respect that and I am proud of her for choosing self-growth. I am excited to see her grow and be the woman she wanted to be.
For now, I just have to embrace these sadness and pain so that it would be easy for me to move on. Also, I am the eldest. The eldest should not show any sign of weaknesses, no matter what. I should always show to my siblings that I am strong and happy so that they can look up to me. Just like Thanos. He sacrificed his one and only love of his life, his daughter, for the greater good he believe.
God, I trust you. I lift up to You my broken heart. I know this experience will make me stronger and wiser. I don't know what's really ahead of us. Let Your will Thy be done. I love you God for being always there for me and for my love ones.
I will not go out of this room for tonight. And will just fall asleep crying. ðð The sky seems crying too for me. ð
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