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"Sometimes it feel like there is so many things in this world we can't control, but its important to remember the things that we can control like forgiveness, second chances, fresh starts, because the one thing that can turn the world from a lonely place to a beautiful place is LOVE; Love in any of its forms because Love gives us Hope; Hope for a better tomorrow..."

This is a nice passage. We can forgive, do second chance, and start fresh start. But Cha does not see that... 😞

Now, I am still remembering my fur babies' mamy. 😞

What should I do with this love? This feeling? These memories? Did I choose the wrong woman? The wrong partner? No, I didn't. It just, she didn't choose me through out. Like in Pokemon, when you choose a Pokemon partner and try to catch it but that Pokemon does not feel the same as you do, the Pokeball will explode and the Pokemon will just hurt you once it has escaped.

To keep it simple: You cannot force anyone to love you or stay with you. 

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs."

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Gusto ko nalang talaga bigla mawala. Gone without a trace. Or go to sleep and never wakes up. I really felt alone now. I only have one partner and one bestfriend. They are the same person but she's gone now. She chose to leave me. 

The feeling of walking down the path. It used to be the two of you, talking, laughing, sharing laughter and sadness, helping each other as you go along, etc. But suddenly, the other one disappeared. Your partner gone. Now, I am walking alone, laying down my thoughts through this blog as there's no one to talk to, like it used to.

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God, please get me away from here. Place me to some unknown place, very far from here. 😢

What if, I'll sign-up for brain and heart donation? One way to get rid of her memories from me. Let me check...