Be happy~!!!

Yeah~! Finished with all the Christmas parties at last. Haha! And I was so happy. I love seeing lots of smiles and laughters. Super love it!

I felt like a kid again because of the gifts I received mostly from my current teammates.

I love you all! God give me you for a reason. And I will treasure you forever in my heart and mind.

Have a wonderful Christmas and New Year! May our 2015 be filled with more good health, wealth, and mostly, love of God. May we continue to be a blessing to everyone around us.

Be happy~!!! ^_^

;) hopefully

You deserve someone else. I don't have the courage to fight for you. Maybe because I didn't like you at first.

Even to the people that I had like, I didn't have the guts to let them know.

Someday..at the right time..I'll be able to. Hopefully.. ;)

Please hear my prayers

Oh God. I pray for the fast recovery of tal's mamy and mj's dady. I pray oh God that you'll heal them and save them from their illnesses. I pray that they'll have a very good Christmas and New Year together with their love ones. Not only now, but until they reach their 100s. Give them good health. I declare in Jesus name that they'll be healed from stroke and pneumonia. Give them and their families the strength and love they need. Cover them with your holy spirit and protect them from any hard and evil that lurks around us.

Thank oh God for everything - your blessings, love, and protection. I pray all these things in the mighty name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Amen!

Dream

Soon.. In the future.. I'll get married with the person I'll be with through thick and thin. Till death do us part.

And of course it's gonna be in EU.

A stylist, part-time model
Outgoing personality
Extrovert
A very honest person (even to herself)
Has sense of humor
Can cook Italian food
Mature enough
Smart
Beautiful personality
Young and beautiful face
Taller than me

My ideal...woman.

Oh well

You're the only person I know that smoke but face doesn't age.

Let me be your fan till I forget it.

Great night!

Got drunk last night. Sarap kasi ng timpla. Haha. But then I was sober just before I got home. ;) Groove's Christmas party~!

It's a funny night as I was smiling all the time, esp when I got drunk. Haha. Also while staring at them doing silly things.

Staring while smiling looking at K.

Kilig much when your crush talks to you in comments. Haha.

I think I really now know
-Rove

Sent from my iPhone

Haha! Lusaw

I think I'm gonna faint anytime soon.. The feelz..


When you're talking with your crush in comments.

The memory

I was trying not to cry. Because I know that death is inevitable. And I know that it's one of the amazing things - death. You've got to meet your Master and your Creator.

I always hold back tears as I am "iyakin". I tried not to shred tears not until I saw my mom's crying at the mass. I also held back tears at the cemetery not until I heard them crying. When I come to think of Tito Art and I'm alone, my face automatically becomes sad and my eyes quench tears. It's because when I remember him, I always see his smiling face. I can't remember an instance where he's not smiling nor laughing.

The memory, it's the thing that makes us sad.

May you rest in peace Tito Art. I'll never forget you. Thank you for everything. I know you're now happy there in heaven.

P.S. Sorry as I am slowmo as always. It'll take days or, worst, weeks before I totally absorbed what was happened.

Awesome week for me

Woaw. I was able to go on a vacation - even just short - to free my mind from stress. :)

Angkor Thom is cool. The Apsara plus buffet dinner is also good. The thing that I just I don't like are the too dusty city, very hot in the afternoon, and the water in the hostel. -_-" The rest, pretty cool. Very nice, accommodating, and friendly people.

Ho Chi Minh is also a city. I like the food trip. Lots of veggies though. They're healthy people. Haha. Was able to buy cheap stuffs for people at home, mom's friends, and for herself. What I only bought for myself is the pasalubong that I brought to office for my teammates. Nothing really for me except for the remembrance thing. Went to Cu Chi Tunnel and it's so-so. Met and hanged out at night with a Vietnamese friend.

Then another busy days when I came back. Whole day team planning last Friday. Went out for a team dinner. :D

The next day, went to company's 20th Anniversary in Enchanted Kingdom. I brought my older sister, younger brother, and my nieces and nephews. We enjoyed it though I spent quite big bucks.

More busy days ahead of me. When did I not have a busy day anyway? Haha. Really good luck to me!

On the other side, hopefully I'll be able to make it to France.. This will surely be my stepping stone and a door to my dreams/goals. So help me God, amen!

Short term plan

I was admitted yesterday at the hospital. Reason? Hyperventilation because of a verbal fight happened early morning. And they found out that I got UTI. I was discharged this afternoon. Just an overnight there to regain my strength again. And I was freakin bored there. It felt like forever. My body was so weak when mind wanted to do lots of stuff more.

What should I do... Do I need to start selling my stuff? I think so. In order for my mom to allow me to resign, to have a rest, and to help out in the family business, I need savings that will cover my jobless days. I gotta plan and get my mom's approval.

So help me God.

By the way, if I'm jobless, I don't have health support anymore. -_- That's why I need to be strong physically! Start exercising and learn eating veggies little by little.

I'll be successful in life! I declare it in the name of Christ, Amen! :D

Yeah right

"I'd rather die than to be involved to you."

Finished cleaning 6 PCs. Will finish the remaining half tomorrow morning. Then set off to fix what is needed to he fixed.

Do I need to fix myself? Haha!

Heck

Coffeetalk was a mess. Need to discuss with the team after we received the feedback resultsl

(This post should've been post early morning but i fell asleep. Haha.)

Nature I love

Woah! Had so much fun in Siquijor! Though it was tiring, I live the environment. ^_^ Wanted to go back again and this time, visit the caves. Hoho.

Also went around the city of Dumaguete on our last half day. Will post pictures soon in FB.

I got sick. I took half day SL. My body has really lost much stamina since I started working. I need an exercise! >_< Nyway, I'll plan it.

Also, need to plan now for next year. I still worry how will I enroll to a good MBA school in Europe this time. Please help me God.

On the other side, when I thought of Denise (my former crush), I got goosebumps. Haha. Maybe because of Baek Ji Young's life. *kilig* haha! Den is somewhere far currently and I really doubt to have anything between us. Age, position, team? Far enough.

Mata ne~

24 in few days

Watched Running Man and it was so funny. Lol. Ah..so she's Shin Min Ah. Okay. Haha. I'm not really good with names - only by face. XD

Will celebrate birthday on Wednesday. Mom will cook my fave food - Carbonara. I'll bring food at the office. Already sent invite to friends and colleagues. ^_^

And I'll be 24 in few days.. ~_~ but I dont look one because of my height. Ok fine.

I need to go to Sta Lucia tomorrow to order the ice cream and do some bank stuff.

I'm off. Will wake up early. Mata ne~

Long holiday

End of a long holiday.

Saturday was a tiring one. It's my passion but it took a lot of me. Should've not went with them at Tides. Bucks in my wallet got drained 'cause I have to pay for 3 pax

Sunday. Washed dishes and did laundry. Watched Conjuring for the sake of Annabelle.
Had a nice yet weird dream (as always). Got involved with beautiful and attractive international people (which I don't know in real life).

Monday. Took nephews and siblings to Clubhouse playground. Cooked something for us. Mom cooked fried chicken (at last!). We missed her cooking and also meat! Fell asleep after eating two legs. Haha! After I woke up, watched Running Man Ep. 214.

Got to do it fast. Lets launch the business as soon we got the fund. Before it, plan should be already finalized.

Mata ne~! 😊

Whats ahead,,i dont know

Now I really need to have at least a month of leave. To take care of the current business. Or else, it'll continually go down. Also to plan and execute the start of new business.

I need full concentration. And it will he a good time to rest from a super demanding work I currently have.

Moreover, I'll have time to prepare my things for another round of re-assessment. I might passed the assessment this time. (But I need at least two months to review for the exam. -_-)

Oh God. Help me to decide. I can't predict the future. I don't even know what's ahead of me whichever door I'll open. Please be my decision maker. Let Jesus Christ be my guide. Thanks for everything. Amen!

Eoddeokhe.. Doushiyou..

Watched the last part of Rurouni Kenshin. It's sooo cool~! :D

It's Monday again. I heard the feedback of two different people about resignation. Is it an encouragement to do it so or an encouragement to go on a little more before the final decision? I don't know! For me, I won't mind if I'll lose money for nothing. I talk about the plane tickets I bought in advance. As long as I take care of myself I'm okay to leave the "stable" job. I can't imagine myself working as an employee forever anyway.

God, please help me to decide. Give me knowledge and wisdom I need to accomplish my life's goals. Give me lots of patience and love to push a little more. Amen!

Wat date is it

Had 3 hours dinner in a French restaurant at Tuscany. My manager treated us. Then the other manager of the same team treated us for a dessert - ice cream - at Family Mart.

Had fun chattin and laughin with the whole team. Pizza overload. They kept offering me the last pizza as they know that I love pizzas. Haha. But too shy to take it.

Because of this (I was away for so long), need to do my other task tomorrow in the office. Will go early so that I can still work before the practice. Good luck to me! The one who was not able to attend to all practices. XD

Then maybe meet Ghie at night. Heart-to-heart session it will be.

God, bless us tomorrow. Give us the energy we need. And a little push. :D Love you! Bye!

Goodnight Rove!

Wata day

Just finished watching Running Man. Also updated my wishlistr page - though nobody bothers to see it. Haha!

I was on sick leave Sep24. My body broke down. Maybe I pushed it so hard. Flu cough migraine etc. I took med for flu and lots of water and sleep.

Hopefully I'll be good tomorrow. ;D These days, my work is a nightmare. I wanna prefer to travel and travel without end.

Fighting~!!

Be patient. You'll be there. In time.

Now Im goin to sleep. Need to wake up early and go to office. I still have around 35 projects to be reviewed. -_-"

I wanna quit now. T_T

Be patient Rove. When you have started your business and it go well, I think you can now go and have a rest from professional life.

Are you okay?

Finished It's Okay That's Love! Yeah! It's a very good drama indeed. I like the story. Romance, mystery, comedy..love it! I know another thing about myself. Thanks to it.

I might need to join group counseling too. Just to know more about myself. :) And hopefully no major disorder will be diagnosed. Haha.

How exciting it is to have a psychiatrist friend! There's someone I can talk to and be honest with. And s/he can help me to know what's wrong with me, if there is.

Haha. In my dreams! But God, can you consider it? :D

Goodnight Rove!

That's love

It's okay, that's love. :)






Soooooon.. Let me find you.

Weird dreams

I dreamt of my crush last night. And it was a turn off. XD it looks weird when I think about it.

Also dreamt of climbing the highest wall on Earth. I even reached the sky - beyond stratosphere and other spheres. Haha.

Hate this!

Ok.. So wat's up?

Many things had happened.

Revelation like my sis is here since April. Just known recently. Fetched them and they now live here. In the same roof together with brother's "family". What da heck? Too many kids and too many members in the house. We're running out of rooms. +_+

On other side, just audited the Aug sales of pc shop. Result? Worst than the previous employee. I'll talk to them when I get there. Maybe tomorrow?

What's more? I dont have money anymore!!! Too many expenses. Now that number of kids increased. We all know that I love kids and I tend to spoil them with stuff. Nyway, got to resist with temptation especially made by their freakin parents. Err.

Oct and Nov trips. Got no final or concrete plans yet. -_-" Hopefully can finalize it next week.

As you grow older, number of things you need to think of has also increased. Family. Business. Job. Career. Budget. Personal leisures. Personal growth.Other engagements. Waaah!! I'm going crazy!! Hate this!

You're only afraid to lose me. Haha.

Na-ah. I now really need to find an apartment for me.

Number of people in the house kept growing, but the rooms are not. Parang Pilipinas lang, dumadami bilang ng tao pero walang nagbabago sa paligid.

If mom won't let me live near my workplace. Then, I've got to move to a workplace outside country. This will give her no choice.

I need to be independent. I need to have a life. Para naman magka-love life ako. Hahaha! =))

This weekend, operation "hanap apartment" or "hanap work outside PH". :D

Night! Need to be at office at 1pm. -_-"

Aish

Shit happens. Haha.

As expected. Got rejected. But in a nice way. :) No hurt feelings or anything. I like it. Haha.

Anyway, need to create plan for the next trips. I will forget for now the frustration I have about my work. I'll kill them! You bitch! >_< LOL

Also, need to start saving for my retirement. ~_~ I really can't imagine myself working for a long time as an employee. I'd rather be a wanderer/traveler with no penny than working my butt off just to get big freakin bucks.

Adios! Sayonara!

The other half

Karl. Name of my crush back in HS. It started in 3rd year. Confessed and rejected through a friend back in 3rd year College.

Tried to ask out not by looking strange or arrogant last year, but failed to do it. Then now, mustered up all the confidence and energy, but still got no reply. It's already expected that it will get rejected.

After this, I will surely know that my other soulmates are not within the country. This surely needs me to travel and explore more. And maybe, one of these travels, will finally meet the meant-to-be soulmate.

So help me God.

Why look for soulmates? They'll help me grow in spirit, mental, and emotional. They'll help me develop my character. They'll help me achieve my purpose and goals here on Earth.

Tha would be nice

Sa SG pa talaga ko nakapag-munimuni ah. Sa SG pa ko nagkaroon ng time for myself. To think the things over.

I was not able to come up with an answer but I formulated one. Not sure though. Just prayed it to Him and let's see.

While waiting, I must continue living. To continue this life, I must never stop moving.

Short term goal: Continue work in IT. To gain experience while I fund my other future scheduled travels. Also to save in case.

Things that I would love to happen: get masters degree in Europe. Get high position in business with high paying. Salaries will be used as capitals to my dream businesses. Build beach resort in Palawan and atleast two restaurants in Europe. They are extreme dreams, aren't they? Well. Wala masama mangarap. :D

God, you there? Please help me to decide about this life.
If You would let me, I would rather die now and be with You there. But I can't avoid thinking about my youngest sibling.

I might need an inspiration.. God, is it okay to meet now one of the soulmates you have for me? Can you guide this person so that we now can meet? :D

An interesting mini encounter

An interesting mini illusion of mine.

We went to Universal Studios. First ride, we decided to get to Transformers. It's the best ride so far.

Outside queue, took pictures, chat.. There are people kept lookin at us. Also saw that some of them looked at me. Maybe because I was wearin a Korean fashion clothing? White and full of black stars - shirt and cap.

Still chatting and laughing while taking pictures.. Saw this one fella looking at me. At first, I didnt mind. Next, saw again and recognized that this fella was also wearin a white shirt with black stars - but small stars. I was wearin the large ones obviously. Dont mind again. I thought, this fella was just one of the few people who kept looking at me.

Went inside, more loops to go. Took pictures, chatted, and laughed. Saw this fella again stole a glance at me. Then I taught, "nice. This fella was really wearin the style as I have. Kept looking at me because of familiarity with clothes. I wear? And a Korean or Chinese? Not sure." In the loops, I saw glances and thought, "maybe a Korean?"

Then... I was lookin at the floor. My hands at both side rails. My palms and only the tips of my fingers wide resting. Then I felt a sudden very quick touch. This fella was about to put the right hand on the rail from the opposite side when suddenly recognized my hand there. There was only a quick touch. Yeah this fella quickly left to follow the line. I didn't look. Still starin at the floor. But I thought, "it's this fella." And was still thinking "is this Chinese or Korean? Hopefully a Korean."

Finally went inside. "Oh at the ride before us." Then ride the fun. Before it started I thought, "If im going to see u again, i'll stare at you for 10secs. From there i'll know if you're a Korean or Chinese."

After the ride, went outside. Never saw this fella again. These are my thoughts at the rest of the stay inside the Universal Studios:
"If you only waited for me outside the Transformers, i might get your number. Haha."
"Hopefully you're a Korean. Or else, nevermind. XD"
"It's not the I dont like Chinese. I know them. But I cant imagine myself with a Chinese. It'll be a mess."
"If and only if i see you again, will look at you for 5secs..maybe 10secs."
"I dont know your face. I just remembered the shirt you wear."
"Have you changed clothes? Or have you already left Universal?

Haha. Guess it's the second time I had an encounter with a foreigner inside a park. Bye!
-Rove

Sent from my iPhone

Weird heartbeat

My heartbeat looks weird. This whole day. It's really weird. I can feel its beating even without putting my hand on my chest. My whole body can feel the heartbeat. And the timings and rhythm vary.

Beat is 12--12--12--12--12. Then all of a sudden a 123--12--12--12--12--123.

The weird behavior never stopped until now..

What happened?

Oh well papel

Oh well. Hindi ko na-forsee na mag-over ako sa expenses ko. Expense na wala sa budget. +_+

Always in a tight situation...

Hopefully, I'll enjoy the SG trip without spending too much. Though how much I badly want to buy stuffs for the kids at pasalubong sa older ones, got no budget anymore. T_T

On the other side, God please free me from my misery. I wanted to quit and rest but how can I fund my scheduled future travels? But then change in policy looks like pushing me away already. Oh God let me hear your voice. I don't know what road or decision I'll need to make. Please give me the knowledge and wisdom to understand the situation and to know your answer. In Jesus name, Amen!

Heck! Lets be a monk!

I'm fucking serious. I need time for myself alone. Since I got nowhere to go to and never have a go-to person, I want to spend the rest of my life for myself.

These fucking responsibilities are just fake! Kept on demanding. Always shoving money into their face. Quenching me until the last drop of my blood. But then, didn't get anything in return. They're just fucking using me. This world is full of fucking users

Can I just be a monk instead? So that I can no longer see their fucking faces.

Monk.. Let's look.

WaaAh!!! You're killing me 100 times

Wata tax. -_- We're paying full tax and you people just put it in your pockets!

Nyway, I'm on a tight budget this month and I think until next year March.. So many trips.. And mom kept on asking some bucks. Wae?

Gusto ko na talaga mag-resign. Resign not because of my job/role alone but with all the stresses people gave to me in work and outside work. Even at home, my mom is stressing me out big time! Maybe a sign of menopause? I dont know and I dont care! Sick!

I want to take a rest now..peacefully. Away from all these pressurize bosses. They're choking me.

Now I think about it, I've already given much to my family members and friends. Then they just take me for granted. How could they?! I dont deserve this!

Kill me now God. Take me now with you Jesus. I've had enough. I need love, pure and Godly love.

So help me God. Amen.

Perfect love only in dreams

God.. Can I have a wish to you? When I'm having a very good and nice dream, is it okay not to wake up forever? Please let me experience the beautiful things about Love even just in dreams. I would love to live with it. Love in dreams is perfect. This without flaws. Honesty. Happiness. When I wake up, reality looks like just a bad dream. I choose to live in dreams than in reality.

So please..if I'm having a very good dream, please don't let me wake up anymore.

Thank you and I love you. :)

Waaah!! Burn out!

I want and need to go somewhere this weekend~!! Need to relax, breathe fresh air, and rest. But the place is not a problem, neither the price. The problem is, there should be someone who can come with me. Wae? Doushite? Why does it have to be a minimum of two? Why can't it just one? Solo travel? +_+

Argh. Discrimination.

Waaah! Bat puro good for 2 or more lang lahat ng nakikita kong accommodation, overnight stay, whatever?? Hindi ba pwede mag-relax pag mag-isa lang??? -_-"

Current movie list

Movies that I wanna watch:
- Rurouni Kenshin
- Planes
- Tekken 2
- The Expendables 3
- Guardians of the Galaxy
- Hercules

Stress reliever. Watch movies.

Work work work. Working like a s____.

Na-sstress na ko sa work. It started in the second half of July. Ngayon ko lang ulit naramdaman na nag-wowork talaga ko. In my stay sa former team, I only felt working twice. At hindi pa yun kagaya ngayon. But now, I really felt the pressure at the same time, stress. It's like I was only working to catch someone else, meet their wants, and satisfy them. What I really got into? T_T Also, I don't like this kind of pressure. It's like people are saying, "You should already know them." Hello? I'm just new. Though it's not a right to blame because of being "new", I'm still new. There're still lots of things I need to learn - lots of technical terms. I said "yes" to this responsibility because I wanted to learn and experience new things. But assuming that I should have already known, it's a different thing. It's not just weekdays I work, I also work during weekends. It's a family business. Life is really pressuring me right now..with all the responsibilities. I need to take a week off~! Think only about myself. Think about what I really like. Think about my dreams. I need a week off away from all of these things!!! -- Nothing is impossible with Him. =D

Wat a memory..

I dreamt of you again. But this time, I kissed you in the forehead, held your hands, and hugged you for more than 3mins. And I said, "Mahal mo parin pala ko? Nagkabalikan na tayo? Can't we go back to the 'ligawan' process to have formality?" Then you said, "This is not right. I will leave you again anyway because I'll be going somewhere soon. I'll hurt you again for sure."

Oh God.. Why is it becoming worse? Please free me from 1017's memory. It's already beyond 4 years. I wanna completely move on by forgetting everything about 1017. This memory sometimes lingers and haunts me down. Oh please God...

Nice dream :)

I dreamt of you and it's a very nice one.

It's the longest dream I have ever had with you.

I took very good care of you.

I introduced you to my grandparents.

I saw your beautiful smiles.

We laugh and enjoyed ourselves.

Indeed, it was a very nice dream.

Only in dreams that I can hold your hands again.

Crushes

Girl Crushes

Hollywood: Emma Watson
Local: Rhian Ramos
Japanese: Yui Aragaki (because of My Boss My Hero)
Korean: Kwon Yuri

Guy crushes

Hollywood: Channing Tatum, JMac
Korean: Kim Soo Hyun
Japanese: Kokei Teppei

Dose of humor

This made me laugh. Hahaha!

How nice

For some reason, I happened to think of you. Thinking that "what if we're still together until now?" Thought that we might have gotten our condo just to be near to our workplaces. Spend movie marathon at home. A walk in the park, chatting and laughing. It looks nice isn't?

Oh well. That's only an afternoon dream. It's already been 4 years.

New and pretty cool movies

Watched Step Up: All In and Black Butler with my sister awhile ago. They are awesomely cool. ~_~ It would be nice to have your own maid and butler like that. Haha.

What it feels like

You guys are lucky. I think I've only seen my grandmother (mother side) thrice. And once for my other grandmother (father side). I've never seen my grandfathers even once.

How much more my younger siblings?

What it feels like to have bonding times with grandparents? I guess they're enjoyable to be with. Much knowledgable than parents. I should've learnt a lot from them about life.

Now Im broke -_-"

I spent around 4k today. Nice. -_-

Pets' stuff, beauty amenities, tech accessory, dinner

Oh well I was with my family. Bonding time. ;) thanks God!

Best movies

Rio 2 yeah~! Love animation movies with musical scenes. Cool. Awesome~

Next: How to Train Your Dragon

Hazardous persons. Watch out!

Ok. I think I need to talk to my hommies. Warn them not to let those crazy bastards, in case, in.

I can forgive those freakin people but they should make sure that I won't ever see their ugly faces!

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My apology in Heaven for the harsh words I said. It's just that those kind of people gets in my nerve.

Hell you!

I really want a quiet life!! Life away from you~!!! Won't you leave us alone? Can't you just leave me and my family and friends live happily? Can't you just stay out of our sight??? Please?

To all f***ing people who're trying to give their problems to us. #pissoff

Always

Mind's Gonna Explode

My mind's gonna explode.

Auntie's husband was taken to the hospital the other day.
The husband of their daughter, which is the operator of the PC Shop, went with them.
My nephew backed him up.
My nephew got sick.
I backed him up.
I have a tight deadline in my office work.
I'm still learning the new work I have in the office.
Nobody knows how to operate the PC Shop except my cousin's husband, my nephew, me, and my younger sister.
My nephew, per my mom, is now well.
The yaya of my youngest sister was taken to the hospital because she's about to give birth.
My nephew went with them because it's his son.
My auntie in Palawan borrowed money from my officemate. The money is my officemate's sister's.
The payment is delayed. Using my money, I paid 11% of her debt.
My younger sister is currently in Palawan with our friend for a vacation.

We're running out of resources. We need people.

I'm just about to sleep. I'll be going to the office in the next 8hours. I now have headache.

My mind's gonna explode.

likes, dislikes, love, and hate

I'm not fan of sweet things.

But I like black forest and white forest cakes.

I love dark chocolates.

I don't like fatty food a.k.a. taba.

Examples are chicharon, pig's skin, and cooking oil.

I love salty things. 

I put salt almost to everything - mostly fruits.

But I'm not fan of fish.

The only fish I can eat is daing.

I don't drink coffee nor beer.

I drink wine very seldom.

I only drink yougart, chocolate milk, and water.

The only softdrink I like is Sprite.

I'm not fan of veggies.

I don't like eating juicy and greeny leafy veggies.

Example is cabbage.

I love color green though.

The only veggies I can eat are malunggay, potato, mongo, sayote, and squash.

I love fruits - the real fruit or the shake version.

I love eggs. I prefer boiled eggs.

I love chickens. Tinola, curry, and fried. The very least is adobo or not at all.

I'm not fan of pork.

But if I already had numbers of chicken, I eat it - without the taba.

I'm not fan of burgers.

They have lots of veggies and tomato!

I love fries. Cause it's potato!

I love sunflower seeds - the white thing.

I love peanuts - the boiled one and with shell.

I love pizzas! Without veggies.

I love carbonara!

The only thing that I hate is ampalaya.

I don't like bitter taste.

Future scheduled plans

My upcoming adventures..

Aug 22-26: Singapore + Malaysia Legoland
Oct 18-20: Siquijor + Dumaguete at night
Nov 8-12: Siem Reap + Saigon
Mar 25-29, 2015: Tokyo + Kyoto + Osaka

So excited at the same conscious a bit. Need to save for these. And hopefully these are the last as I wanted to start again my masters enrollment. +_+

Need time + money..and inspiration.

Powerful women

Im very lucky working in HP.

My leaders..they're the people you can look up to.

My first team lead when I entered HP. Very independent, young, knowledgeable, inspirational, full of passion to her people, always joking. My first manager when I entered HP. Very independent, young, inspirational, passionate to her people, always smiling.

My next team lead in other team. Always smiling, young, seems like fun of joking, looks like very independent. My next manager in other team. Very smart, independent, knowledgeable.

Independent women. They're the kind of people I can look up to. ;)

Never expect

As much as I wanted to trust people again, I couldn't. There's now a doubt. I used not to have this. But why do I feel uneasy trusting people again. I don't understand myself. What's wrong?

Who cares if one of the persons I used to look up to disappointed and betrayed me. Who cares if this is not the first time a close family member disappointed me not once but many times?

I think I just have to lower my expectations toward people. I can trust them but never expect highly about them. Never think that they're worthy not unless proven.

Alright. I just have to forgive myself and to forgive them. Then lower my expectations not to get hurt again.

Never expect.

#Realization

Great escape

I need an escape.

I wanna go to a high place. Place where I can breath fresh air and think. And think while havin my own time. Time to repress my chaotic mind.

I need an escape.

As much as I want to..

As much as I want to
- date and have my own lovelife
- get my own flat to practice independency
- go to all places I wanna pay a visit

I can't.. I just can't.. With the responsibilities I have. I need to set an example. I should be a role model. It would be lighter if I don't have pasaway na mga kapatid. But I have. I feel pressured with these responsibilities. Maybe this is why I can't leave the house for other country just not yet. What will happen when my parents are away and busy? I will be freakin worried. If only matitino mga kapatid ko, I won't have to worry for our parents, for Venice, for the household, for the family business, and for them. *sigh*

So help me God.. Please help us out.

Siquijor wat? Yeah!

Guess what?

Because of my not-thinking-so-hard attitude, I booked two round trip tickets to Siquijor on Oct 18-20. This is a trip with my mom. Just remembered that she wanna visit this place too. Me? I wanna see the beautiful and natural sceneries. ;D

Let's see what will happen to me this year. (Esp I have 2 out-of-country trips too)

God, just like what I said in the old times, I wanna see this beautiful creation of yours..and of course, might discover as well the place I wanna settle-in in the future. Thanks a lot for the blessings.

Wont you?

Hi. Please be now in a romantic relationship..



So that i won't worry anymore when i happen to think of you.

I L Y

Last April 19. Swimming at Eastridge.

Memorable drama

So far, these are the memorable drama I've wanted to watch over again.

Proposal Daisakusen. I feel the pain at the same time, relief. Though I don't feel the chemistry between the main actors, the story itself impacted me. Maybe because I watched it during my sad days?

Love Rain. Very nice chemistry between the main actors. Felt the pain; and at the same time cute and funny moments. Watching this, I don't need to be in a relationship. Watching this is enough to give me joy.

You Who Came From The Star. So hilarious. So touching. There were sad moments but not that painful. Lots of "kilig" moments that you don't need to fall in love with someone in real life. I already fell in love with just watching these two main actors. I think I'm better off to be their spectator. I felt contentment but at the same time, so in love for both of them. It felt like I wanted it to be real and would love to watch them until they become old. How bout Season 2?

Other dreams...

Sa lahat ng nakapangalan sakin, isa lang talaga ang pag mamay-ari ko.

Waaah! I really wanted to have my own beach resort and restaurant~

Na-ah i better not

It's okay to fall in love..but to be in a relationship again? Na-ah! Thanks but no thanks. :)

Wat blast uh?

My holiday yesterday was a blast. I am a night shifter (8pm to 5am) this week.

Woke up at 4:45am of April 8 for our tower's offsite. Offsite is at Batangas. Co-managed the coffee talk right after arriving there. 10am to 12pm is the coffee talk. Finished team's presentation. 90s won! We won!

Then didn't join the games in the afternoon and just slept inside the room for 1-2hrs. Waken up by a critical ticket. Didn't enjoy the dinner 'cause of the issue.

Slept late and not properly 'cause my roommate went to other room to watch European football live. And I couldn't sleep cause I was just alone in a very big foreign room. Then decided to went there at around 2:30am. Watched and fell asleep. After the game, we went back to our room quarter to 5am.

Woke up by a knock of our teammates at 8am of April 9. Left Chateau Royal at 11am. We are the last party arriving in the bus. Arrive at the office at around 1:30pm. Went straight to Katipunan together with my co-Groove to do the last practice. It was an intensive practice. I am assigned to the whole routine without cut of the first song. So tired. It was 3 to 6pm. Then went home for critical tickets. I was doing my work from 7pm to 12:30am. Slept for an hour. Then worked at 1:30am to 3am. Then woke up at 6am. Did the last ticket and sent the HO at 7am. Slept and was waken up at 12:30pm. Body ache all over.

Then casually ate my breakfast and went outside for the business stuff. My shift is tonight, unfortunately.

Wata blast uh?

DV now I know

Nyaha! I just realized it now why I had a crush on DV. DV has facial features that are so similar with one of my fave Hollywood artists. XD I saw it in a wide screen here in pldt center. Haha! Eyes, nose, and mouth..wid different face shape of course. DV is currently in the US working. Haha!

Pretty interesting uh?

Gud thing I don't have it

Good thing I don't have my own car. If I have, I'll spend much money for it. ~5k each for 4 rims. ~15k for front bumper, rear bumper, and rear bumper. ~10k for dual mufflers. ~35k for headlights and rearlights.

Really good thing I don't have that money to buy a car. Hahaha!

Ask someone out looks weird

Gusto ko sya yayain kumain sa labas. Does it look good? Argh! Panget! Haha. How will I ask someone out by not directly asking them out? Uh? Weird.. Haha

Dont wanna try it via online. Dont know in person. A paper letter? How it will be delivered? Nyaha! Really dont know!

Long weekend on Aug 2014

I'm on leave from Aug 21 to 26. It's gonna be a trip wid my teammates. Where will I go? Northern Philippines or outside Philippines? It'll depend on the weather and if we can get cheap airfares. Haha!

What the future holds (p150)

Loving means being open to miracles, to victories and defeats, to everything that happens each day that was given us to walk upon the face of the Earth.

Our soul is governed by four invisible forces: love, death, power, and time.

We must love because we are loved by God.

Love does not need to be understood. It needs only to be shown.

Therefore, what the future holds for you depends entirely on your capacity for love.

And for that you must have absolute and total confidence in what you are doing. Don't let others say: "That road is better" or "That route is easier."

The greatest gift God gave us is the power to make decisions.

When you are mounted on your horse, feel the wind on your face and enjoy the sense of freedom.

But don't forget that you have a long journey ahead.

Listen to the wind, but don't forget about your horse.

Only someone capable of honoring each step he takes can comprehend his own worth.

#PauloCoelho #ManuscriptFoundinAccra

Wata life

My life is a mess. Ang gulo ng buhay ko ngayon.

At pati pamilya ko ay nahahawa na sa pagiging magulo ng life ko. *sigh*

Obstacles..challenges..difficulties.. I know we'll be able to overcome it. No need to rush. No need to worry. In God's time and power, everything will be okay.

(So don't wonder if I prefer not to talk. I just wanna think and laugh at all times.)

Prayer for healing

If something bad happens Raffy (knock on wood), I'll get myself a girlfriend.

So please oh God, I'm begging you. Please heal Raffy. I don't want to lose another pet. He'll recover completely. I declare it in the name of Jesus. Amen!

My prayer

I'm really going to get a boyfriend this year once my prayer is fulfilled.

My prayer: complete recovery of Raffy. He'll get well I know. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, amen!

Can't be

I have a crush on you.

I like you.



But you're a close friend of my 'ex'. That's why it can't be.

Been many times but it wont stop me

I didn't make to the shortlist of LBS. Anyway, it won't stop me. I'll look for other schools that can accept me on their MBA Programme. I already experienced this kind of scenario, many times. In personal lovelife-been rejected many times. In applying for a job when I was fresh grad-been rejected many times.

I know for sure that God has already chosen and prepared the school for me. All I have to do is to just look for it and one day, I'll hit the jackpot! ;D I just need patience.

Seem like an RPG I used to play a lot. Keep on moving..

God, please continue giving me patience and love. Thank you for everything. I love you. In Jesus name, Amen!

In a different world

We live in different worlds..very different..

She lives in a world full of literature, philosophy, movies, music, and medicine.

And I live in a world full of fun, movies, games, sports, cars, and music.

We may share the same interests in movies and music but we still have very different taste. She likes classics, love stories, mature, serious, and solemn types. And I like actions, comedies, and fun ones.

I like her. In fact, I have a crush on her. However, she doesn't like me. I once tried to get her attention.. But I ended up being ignored.

She looks very independent. This is what made me like her. I see things different from me. She looks very mature and strong in love. But I look immature and inexperienced with it. Maybe this is why she never considered me?

Yeah.. To be honest, I'm very weak when it comes to approaching people and expressing my true feelings.

Well then, I just hope that you'll meet your ideal guy soon.

[a story of a guy who lives from a different world]

What it feels like..again?

It seems like it's already a year since I had a 6-month crush. Haha.

What does it feel again to have a crush? To have someone you look up to? I don't know. As far as I can remember, it'll put a smile on your face everytime you see him/her.

I don't care and I don't mind! This year is for me! For my dreams and goals! ;D

Random thought-part2

Funny.

I dreamt of my HS crush and ex last night of 23. Then I dreamt of my ex last night of 24.

Because I've already lost track with the dates, I didn't know that it's 25 today. I just realized it after I got home and prepared to sleep.

Funny.

Random thoughts

You know what, if you didn't left me, we're already 4 years now.

And ikaw sana ang kasama ko ngayong araw na to.

Just some random thoughts...

Shop-for-essential-clothes Day!

"I may not have the height you want, but I have the looks that you'll go crazy for."

Chos! Lol!

Unexpected question and answer

"2011 parin calendar sa likod ng pinto?"

"Memorable sakin yan. Yan yung pagpalit ng taon na iniwan ako ng *tooot* ko. Badtrip."

Eh?

:)

Pleasing people is not my way

I'm not the kind of person who love to please people. If you're okay, I will do my best to please you. But if you are not pleased for the first try/time, I'll just leave you alone. I think it's rare that I'll do second try just to please a person.

I don't live to please people. If you don't like, well then, let's not bother each other ever again. :)

Aish! Wait for your karma dude!

Bahala ka sa buhay mo!! You didn't take consideration na kami na ang new L3 support ng app nyo. Eh kung hindi dahil samin, hindi nyo ma-iidentify yung root cause ng issue nyo eh. Pinasapasa nyo samin, may issue na. Eh aba malay ba namin kung ano pinanggagawa nyo nun bago pa kami. Tas kung anu-ano pa pinapagawa samin ng L2 kahit hindi na namin dapat scope. Eh sana kami nalang din L2 kung pati yung task nya ay pinapasa nya samin. Sayo na yung SOBR mo!! Kung hindi talaga dahil samin, wala yang root cause at possible fix na yan. Pasalamat ka hindi ko kayo inaway lahat. Tsktsk. Bahala na kayo. Panira kayo sa reputation namin.

We'll be leaving your app anyway soon. Bbye freakazoid!