Words and actions

I had a conversation with my queen. And I could say, it's almost heart-to-heart - she's not too open about her feelings.

I knew it! It was my fault. All the negativity has piled up in her without me encouraging her to talk about it. I really love her opening her heart to me. It makes me feel that she trust me and can lean on me.

I had the gift (my ハニー) but I didn't take more effort in taking care of it. 😞

If only she can give me another chance - chance to prove to her that I am worthy of her love. If only she can give me another chance to show to her that she can lean on me and trust me again.

Some of my perspectives have change in the last weeks of March. I wanna strive and work hard for our future. But I had overlooked her. I didn't help her grow too. Maybe she felt she was too enclosed in our world that she couldn't grow by herself. Then it's too late for me, to save our relationship. She broke up with me. 😞

She told me that she's not ready to be in a commitment or relationship again. She said that there are a lot of things she wanted to do without a headache (relationship is a headache according to her and it was all because of me). 😞

I want to show her that she can be in a relationship/commitment while growing and pursuing her dreams/goals. And I want to prove to her that I can be that man/partner and I am not the same again. As much as I want to say these all to her, they don't make any difference now. She already know the contents of my heart and my mind thru words. Now, I will just show it to her thru actions.

"Actions speak louder than words." And I am a man of action.

I will wait for her. Till the day she can see that I am worthy again. For now, I will watch us both grow. And I can still be a reliable bestfriend to her.