Morning thoughts

I was thinking for 2-3 days already...
I will get my own place.
I will use the last remaining resources I have.
I might or might not bring Tiger with me. I might because he's alone now. Her mom, チャ, doesn't look for him anymore. I might not because here, he has Riri and Rhea who can be with him when I'm no longer around.

God, kayo na po bahala samin. I loved チャ and I still do. But if チャ doesn't love nor like me anymore and doesn't care for Tiger anymore, please let me know God. From there, I will decide whether I'll be gone for good or not. You're a God of Love. And you will not leave your children go astray or confused while walking on this Earth.

I'm not even sure if チャ will come in our Masbate trip. All of these scheduled trips, they are all possible because of her. She wanted to go to all these places. And me, as her ever-loving-and-supporting-partner, I would love to as long as she'll be happy. I even told her to save 5k each for Masbate and Davao which the truth is, the money are not really intended for these trips in the first place. The money she'll save is her allowances for CPAR reviews and job interviews. I never intended her to come up with a money for our trips. Since the day I booked the flights, it's already programmed in my mind that as a dependable and responsible partner, I should be the one to spend for our trips. Moreover, I am the one who has the biggest salary between us two, so it's understandable that I should handle all of our expenses. I intend to tell her the truth at the day of our trip, that she doesn't need to withdraw her 5k anymore. But once again, I'm even not sure if she'll come to our Masbate trip. 😞 If not, this will the 3rd time I will go on adventure alone - and technically, the 1st time to go on a 4-5 day trip alone. 😞 Walang atrasan, kelangan panindigan! I’m a man of God. My dream job in Heaven is to be one of His kingdom’s strong and big guards, right? With the armor, sword, and stuff. 😁 I was told that in Heaven, I can be whoever I want to be. 😉

Let Your will thy be done, oh God.