Mixed feelings

It's been more than a week now since my queen left us. I wonder how she's doing now...

It's been 3 days since I started taking my meds again. If only I can hit the gym everyday, just to give me some pump-up energy.

I deleted all my social media apps - FB and IG. I felt like I wanted to remove my self off the radar and go back to old school of sending hand-written letters and postcards.

I spent my weekend reading, arranging stuff, and watching. I started watching Manifest last night and it gave me mixed feelings, till now.

I tried eating breakfast but I don't have any appetite. Api is more energized to eat right now than me. 😆 I feel like vomiting but nothing comes out. My heart beat is also racing. This is what I feel when I'll be in an exclusive interview or major exam or recitation or going to a first date. I'm really nervous. I normally feel it if I'm going to meet ハニー. If it's something grandeur, I felt very nervous and about to puke. I'm scared, at the same time, excited. I'm nervous. Please help me God. 🙏