My ハニー

I and チャ had a wonderful time together in Masbate. At first, I got confused and told her that there are things we do that are against my belief. For an instance, kisses, hugs, and making love are intended for couples who are officially in a relationship or commitment.

She doesn't want to be in a "relationship" nor "commitment" but she likes to continue the closeness we currently have. She knows how much I love her and be willing to wait for her until she becomes ready.

I proposed in the end that we can treat each other the way we used to - closeness plus calling ハニー to each other - but no official tagging as "in a relationship" if this is what burdens her. We can still do the couples do - kisses, hugs, ILYs, pet names - minus the celebration of Monthsaries and Anniversaries because we're not "officially in a relationship". She said, she'll think about it because it's also difficult for her to intentionally avoid calling me ハニー when we're together.

I've also asked her if she loves me too. She tried her best to avoid the question. Then I told her at the last day that I think, she loves me too. She just didn't want to admit it.

At the last day, she finally called me ハニー. ☺️ Then last night, before she rode her GrabCar, she finally whispered "I love you" in my ear. ☺️ For many days I've been telling her ILYs without a response from her, finally, she confirmed her love for me.

Thank you God for everything. I'm not thanking just because I've finally known what チャ really thinks and feels for me. But I am thanking that despite all the things happened to us, you're still keeping us strong mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

God, please heal チャ's allergies because of the jellyfish. It's my fault I failed to protect her. Everything is my responsibility. The trip, the location, the accident - all is on me. Bringing her to the doctor and providing her meds are the least I can do. 😞