Bakit ang hirap mag move-on? Even to the nth time na iniwan ako... Dahil sa bago palang? O dahil I already envisioned myself being with her for the rest of my life? Ako lang ba ang nahihirapan o pati sya?
Ano ba ginawa ko dati nung ilang beses nya ko iniwan? Paano ba ko nakamove-on nun...
Eh hindi naman kasi pandemic nun and I can freely go wherever I want to. At kung wala man ako budget nun, I went to gym more frequently. I met new people and hang out with colleagues who always made me laugh.
At kung hindi pandemic, the moment na nagalit sya, pinuntahan ko na sya agad the next day. That's how much I love her. Di ko kaya patagalin yun galit nya kasi sya rin yung nag-susuffer and I never like to see her suffer, especially because of me.
About the furbabies and other stuff, ayaw ko muna pagusapan namin (di rin naman nya ko kinakausap LOL). Gusto ko muna magconcentrate sya sa self-healing nya mentally and emotionally. Her wellness is above all. I still believe in the goodness of her heart kahit ilan beses nya ko pagtabuyan o hindi kausapin. Basta target ko is to complete our furbabies' vaccines by October. Lahat sila including Roshi. Na kay チャ na kung kukunin nya sakin yung mga bata or what. Sya yung nanay eh. She has the final say.
Embrace ko nalang tong sadness every time maalala ko yung feeling na iniwan or niloko. In a month, siguro bigla nalang to mawawala ng di ko inaasahan.
Each day feels like forever. Sobrang bagal ang takbo ng panahon at oras. At kailangan maging strong at patient sa mga nangyayari sa Earth.
Haist! May ibang bagay pa ko na dapat isipin kaysa to. Lalo na may issue kami sa isa kong medium project. *sigh* Lesson Learned.
Sana hindi bumaba ang CSAT na binibigay ng client sa project. :( At buti nalang mabait yung mga business counterparts ko sa 2 medium projects ko.
At dapat matapos ko yung Quality documents ng isang role ko by Monday para hindi kami mag-red score. Deadz ako kapag nangyari yun. -_-
Sa isang small project ko, external forces may cause delay. XD At masyado more time na nasspend ko sa medium projects ko.
At syempre, I have the 5'o clock ME TIME every day sa rooftop - pag di umulan. ^_^
An hour or an hour and half every day to look at a distant mountains and trees and reflect. I miss dong this when I was a kid, ang pagrereflect.
Nothing is impossible with Him. =D
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