Had a nice trip with ãã£. It was not the adventurous one but more of a staycation mode. ð
It may look like our current relationship is "Friends with Benefits" but I don't wanna think about it more. If she doesn't want yet to be in a relationship or commitment, then it's fine. At least we don't have constraints in doing anything that makes us happy. ☺️ If she wanna meet friends or possible suitors, it's okay. She doesn't need to get anyone's permission, and so do I. ð We're both technically single (again).
On a positive note, I am not required or compulsory to see her - sunduin or samahan sya - whenever I don't feel like to. ð Kasi when she was still my partner, as my queen, I was obliged to serve her. ☺️ That's out of love of course. But now, I just love her but I am not required to sacrifice anymore when I don't feel like to. ð Moreover, she's not queen anymore.
I just have to fulfill my promise to her - support her in her dreams and goals in life. I'm serious about it. What is it in me? I will feel a sense of fulfillment when I see her becomes the CPA Lawyer she dreams of. ð And I'm deadly serious when I said, I will support her financially (except for tuition, that's her mom's) when she resigned. ã㣠is already part of the family.
As for me, I will push through with my Masters. I will not push or pressure myself in buying my own place for now. I need to sacrifice. The money for that possible own place will be directed to my family. I will assist my parents when they needed to. I am sponsoring ã㣠in her living expenses. I buy baon sometimes for my nieces and nephews. And other needed stuff at home, gotta help.
Family first. ☺️
Give more, expect less. ☺️
But of course, never forget self-love. ð
Just be positive. Soon, I will reap what I sow.
Just keep on sowing love and kindness. ð
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