Now I understand little by little about what happened to me in the past 10 years.
I was a balance kid - thinking brain and feeling brain. Then I first fell in love then got hurt, my feeling brain got hurt that when I started working, my thinking brain started to drive the wheels. But when feeling brain wants to do something out of impulses, thinking brain just let it because it knows the suffering feeling brain had. Until the day feeling brain started to be a passenger only while thinking brain maneuver my life. Five years or more have passed, I fell in love again. It’s true that “love is blind”. My feeling brain took over the wheel and had the thinking brain back to the passenger seat. Thinking brain only comment few but mostly, feeling brain made all the impulses. It went for few years until I had my another heartbreak which was the worst of all. Thinking brain is now kicking feeling brain out of the driver’s seat and blaming it for all the hurts and pains it is now experiencing.
Reading this, I need to go back to the time where my thinking brain and feeling brain were best buddy. And that was when I was a kid (elementary/high school).
I need to practice again on having them both discuss first every little thing before I will do something.
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About チャ. Yes I love her. I can still wait while moving on. I need to refrain myself from bothering her. Give her time and space. This is what my thinking brain is saying. If after months or years, we’re still single and she’s ready to be in a commitment again, then ask to court her. Don’t be sad, feeling brain. It would be nice if both of you grow up individually right? If the mature チャ still attracts you after years, then that would be nice. If not, at least you’ve become friends.
Lovelife can wait. If ever you will feel sad or just want hugs, you have Riri, Tiger, and Api. 😊 They are more than willing for your love and care.
For now, let’s take heed of the advice of thinking brain: let her be for now.
I was a balance kid - thinking brain and feeling brain. Then I first fell in love then got hurt, my feeling brain got hurt that when I started working, my thinking brain started to drive the wheels. But when feeling brain wants to do something out of impulses, thinking brain just let it because it knows the suffering feeling brain had. Until the day feeling brain started to be a passenger only while thinking brain maneuver my life. Five years or more have passed, I fell in love again. It’s true that “love is blind”. My feeling brain took over the wheel and had the thinking brain back to the passenger seat. Thinking brain only comment few but mostly, feeling brain made all the impulses. It went for few years until I had my another heartbreak which was the worst of all. Thinking brain is now kicking feeling brain out of the driver’s seat and blaming it for all the hurts and pains it is now experiencing.
Reading this, I need to go back to the time where my thinking brain and feeling brain were best buddy. And that was when I was a kid (elementary/high school).
I need to practice again on having them both discuss first every little thing before I will do something.
——
About チャ. Yes I love her. I can still wait while moving on. I need to refrain myself from bothering her. Give her time and space. This is what my thinking brain is saying. If after months or years, we’re still single and she’s ready to be in a commitment again, then ask to court her. Don’t be sad, feeling brain. It would be nice if both of you grow up individually right? If the mature チャ still attracts you after years, then that would be nice. If not, at least you’ve become friends.
Lovelife can wait. If ever you will feel sad or just want hugs, you have Riri, Tiger, and Api. 😊 They are more than willing for your love and care.
For now, let’s take heed of the advice of thinking brain: let her be for now.
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