7/21
Was browsing for engagement rings and woah! They ARE A LOT! And quite expensive! Haha!
Was browsing for engagement rings and woah! They ARE A LOT! And quite expensive! Haha!
Even though there's a 60 day return policy and 60 day free resizing, I still need to be sure first. The ring I chose will cost me much. And I can say, very much.
For now, I better save that money to buy a land and a house. Between a ring and a house & lot as gift, I'll go to house & lot. Haha! I'll go with my goal first. Then when everything is settled, I'll start saving up for that ring. And hopefully, when that day comes, I'm already prepared and ready and so with チャ.
Love is all about patience. So I need to wait and this will also test our love.
God, let your will thy be done. I pray for both of us, to be loyal and faithful till the perfect time has come.
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Update 7/23
Lord God, I am only human and very frail. I really wanted to trust チャ 100%. But sometimes, it bothers me that she cheated a lot of times in the past. And not just simple cheating but a very grave cheating that you won’t get back to someone ever again after doing it you.
You know my thoughts well. That if I were myself, I would never get back to チャ ever again. Actually, I have already moved on last year. But because she pursued me and I can really see her sincerity and effort, I given her another chance.
I thought it’s as simple as like that. But no, I was wrong. She re-connected to the guy just last Dec 2019. No malice she said but it’s obvious that she had not moved on from him that time. Then I had to let go again. I really didn’t wanna get back again, atleast save myself from more heartaches and headaches.
Then recently, June-July, she was flirting via social media with her guy “friends” who’s one of them kept on sending “I love you” emails. That she didn’t bother to tell to stop. Reason? “He’s a bestfriend.” I should have asked her, “me or your ‘bestfriend’?” If she said him, then final goodbye as my romantic partner.
Now, I notice that she’s trying - even thru chat. I can see the effort. But I can not be 100% confident as it’s only virtual. We won’t know if she’s like that also with her “bestfriends”.
God,
I will be patient. I’ve done so many mistakes. I can even no longer give my whole trust to her as “trust once broken, it will never be the same again”. God can only make us whole again, bring back the original figure of trust.
Please guide me God. Help me think and know if チャ is really the person I should propose to. I want to see her mature and has really changed - 180 degree turn.
I’ll lift up to you my mind and heart to decide, oh God. Love is patient. Love is kind.
Thank you God as always, for everything. For healing my wounds and helping me stand up again. I love you God.
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Update 7/23
Lord God, I am only human and very frail. I really wanted to trust チャ 100%. But sometimes, it bothers me that she cheated a lot of times in the past. And not just simple cheating but a very grave cheating that you won’t get back to someone ever again after doing it you.
You know my thoughts well. That if I were myself, I would never get back to チャ ever again. Actually, I have already moved on last year. But because she pursued me and I can really see her sincerity and effort, I given her another chance.
I thought it’s as simple as like that. But no, I was wrong. She re-connected to the guy just last Dec 2019. No malice she said but it’s obvious that she had not moved on from him that time. Then I had to let go again. I really didn’t wanna get back again, atleast save myself from more heartaches and headaches.
Then recently, June-July, she was flirting via social media with her guy “friends” who’s one of them kept on sending “I love you” emails. That she didn’t bother to tell to stop. Reason? “He’s a bestfriend.” I should have asked her, “me or your ‘bestfriend’?” If she said him, then final goodbye as my romantic partner.
Now, I notice that she’s trying - even thru chat. I can see the effort. But I can not be 100% confident as it’s only virtual. We won’t know if she’s like that also with her “bestfriends”.
God,
I will be patient. I’ve done so many mistakes. I can even no longer give my whole trust to her as “trust once broken, it will never be the same again”. God can only make us whole again, bring back the original figure of trust.
Please guide me God. Help me think and know if チャ is really the person I should propose to. I want to see her mature and has really changed - 180 degree turn.
I’ll lift up to you my mind and heart to decide, oh God. Love is patient. Love is kind.
Thank you God as always, for everything. For healing my wounds and helping me stand up again. I love you God.
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