Fast talk: Love life

Fast talk

1. Do you love チャ? A: Yes

2. Have you let her go? A: Yes

3. Why? A: Because she told me so and she wanted to.

4. Why? A: Because when you love someone, you should be willing to let her go even it hurts.

5. What if she comes back, are you still going to accept her? A: It depends.

6. Why? A: For me, commitment is very crucial. Relationship is a partner effort, not just the one person. I need commitment that both will work together and not leave the other basta basta without talking/discussing about the issue. The enemy is the issue, not the partner.

7. Do you miss her? A: Yes.

8. How frequent? A: Every day

9. What do you do about it? A: Nothing.

10. Why? A: I have self-respect. You left me. I said sorry many times. I sent messages. If you still don't bother to reply, then it's not my loss anymore. I know I've done my best. And I cannot let myself be a crazy person again chasing the person who doesn't want to be with me.

11. Did you have a plan before you two split up? A: Yes.

12: What is it? Is it okay to share? A: Haha! I can't as it should be a surprise. 

13: What happened on that day? A: Maybe I was got scared a little while planning? Got paranoid and stuff. Adding the mental illness lurking around me like a demon whispering. My questions and requests were overly delivered and misunderstood.

14. Do you think both of you will split up if you two were together during that time? A: No. If that happens, I will hug her right away. Hug her and calm her down while saying sorry. This is what I do if I say things without thinking first. 

15. Why? A: I tend to speak what my thoughts are right away. I'm very impulsive, not thinking the other person first. Well, actually, I after I sent those messages n Facebook, I thought I should have not sent it. I wanted to delete it but you know, FB app doesn't have the feature of Viber or Teams where you can delete your messages when sent.

16. Who do you think has fault? A: I am. I already said sorry.

17: What else? A: If it's not due to pandemic, I have already driven to her to see her and hug her. And say sorry in person.

18. Since everything has already happened, what's your plan?

A: Let her be. If she needed time and space, I'll give it to her. If she comes back, I might accept her with open arms. If not, then it's okay. It's her choice. My utmost desire now is her wellness and happiness (even it doesn't include me).

19. How about you?

A: Grow? Be the 3.0 version of me. Haha! My goals and plans are still there. My plan will still push through, with her or without her. Transferable naman yung plan ko. Hahaha!

20. The L then H? Then the R? LOL! 

A: Yes. LOL!

Thank you for catering this interview. :) May God help both of you grow. Grab this time to reflect individually.