Current Rove’s Thoughts Status

Why I want to only offer you family and friendship?

I know we've hurt each other in the past. And I'm so sorry. But I hope you just left me without telling anything. It really hurt me that it felt like I just became your option. You told me in the past that you will not reconnect with J anymore. But you kept on reconnecting with him despite knowing that he loves you. When you lied and cheated on me, I forgave you. But you did it again and again and again. I forgave you many times. But now, I'm done. I don't care when you'll become mature in relationship or be loyal or faithful, but I was hoping you will be in the future when you finally meet the person who will make you think "This is the person I want to marry. I will be loyal and faithful to this person."

I've become cautious now. Don't blame me if it's difficult for me to let myself like/love you romantically again. I'm trying to avoid the thoughts of: "maybe she just came back to me because J and her had a fight and she thinks I'm always available for her" or "maybe she just came back to me because she can see I am investing to get myself successful and be financially rich". I'm also trying to avoid people's thoughts: "she doesn't want to commit to you or be in a relationship with you but she can get the benefits of being a girlfriend - friends with benefits?" or "she might think that you are always there when she's having problems with the guy".

I've learned my lesson. You need more time for yourself - to rethink about your relationships, what you really want in life. Unfaithfulness and disloyalty are always an issue for me. I cannot let you hurt me again. This is why I can only offer now are best friends and family.

I'm afraid to let Rove like/love you romantically again. Afraid that you will cheat on me again by reconnecting or flirting, after few months, with the people who you know who like/love you and you supposedly not talk to - virtually or not - nor see in person. I hate cheaters, liars, unfaithful, and disloyal people. I'm not afraid to fall in love again, have girlfriend, and get married but I'm afraid to do it again with you. 😔 I need more time, months, to prove that you are ready for a mature relationship and ready to commit to only one person without cheating.

Once again, I'm not closing my doors for possible love story with you again. But again, I want a mature, loyal, and faithful partner and not a dishonest, flirty, player, and user partner.

P.S. I consider cheating when you chat or flirt chat or meet in person with the people who you know like/love you, instead of not entertaining them in the first place because you know your partner will get jealous or the person who like/love you might make you fall in love or flirt with you. Or talk or meet them telling me that you need something from them. Remember, if there's a will, there's a way. They are not the only people you know who can help you - your partner, family, and best friends can.