Bel! 😛

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I couldn't sleep again. I suddenly thought of putting Cha's loyalty and faithfulness to a test. Familiar with the secret camera project? There. I wanna hire that team to test her through wooing her by an attractive guy. And see how she will react. Another thing, collaborate with that team to have Jake show up suddenly and ask her to check-in in a motel to have a private talk. I wanna know if she'll accept Jake's offer.

Well, she did it in the past. I wanna know if she has really moved on from Jake. And if she has a strong will to change - to be better. Or if she will give in again to the desires of her earthly body.

Whatever it is, I wanna put her to test. And again, we're both technically single and I am not ready to trust her again with my love. As you all know, I hate cheater, unfaithful, disloyal, and user. I'd rather stay single than fall in love with that kind of person. I don't wanna waste my time and resources unto them.

Currently, checking at my heart and mind, I still don't like/love Cha romantically. I only love her as a family and best friend that's why I'm concerned. I did hesitate to answer her ILYs but I answered anyway because the truth is, I love her - but not romantically nor as a romantic partner. I need at least 2 years to observe her and prove she's a better person. Why years? It took her months before she reconnected with the guys she cheated on me with. But since I am single, I am not closing my door to anyone even to Cha (she's still a good person). I am open for any possibilities that will start from friendship. If Cha has really the desire to change and bring me back, I should see it through her actions. I no longer chase nor run over to her. Done with those crazy years. If she really wants me back, she should be willing to start from scratch and strive hard to win my heart and my trust. But for now, I am just open for any romantic opportunities - I wouldn't know if the right person is already around the corner if I am closing my door. 😜

Now, just loving myself and my family. 😊
So help me God.