God,
With no regrets. Nasabi ko na lahat ng gusto ko sabihin sa taong mahal ko. I know di pa enough yun. Dahil physical presence mas importante. Haaay. Kung hindi lang ako banned sa condo nila, kanina pa ko tumutuktok sa pinto nila at kanina ko pa sya niyakap.
Ang hirap talaga magmahal no? Pero kung yung pagmamahal na yun ang magbibigay sayo ng happiness, why not chase it?
Gusto ko sana umabot kami sa sinasabi nilang "7 years then be unbreakable". I already have plans - when to propose, when to get married, where to get married, where to settle down, etc.
Masama po ba mangarap? Hindi ko po ba deserve magkaroon ng happiness? I don't think about money much pag kasama ko sya. Yolo. And it's a good thing for my mental health.
Siguro hindi kami compatible? I have this mental illness and CPA target nya. Magiging pabigat lang ako sa kanya. Baka maging care giver or supporter ang labas nya sakin, ayaw ko. I dont want to be a burden.
Now, I have accepted the help of my few friends para maging better ako. I might need na talaga ng medical help (e.g. check-up, meds). Kasi kung gugustuhin ko makasama yung taong mahal ko habang buhay, I need to improve.
Thank you God. And Im sorry. Please give me hope to live and to love.
-Rove
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