Jan 5. I unintentionally said “yes” to γγ£ after she asked me to be her bf again. π If I delayed my mouth for 5 secs, I should have said, “no, not yet”.
Sana hindi ko to pagsisihan. The memories of betrayal and pain are still there, lingering. Why? The last time I discovered it was July 2019. From there, I need 2 years to prove that she has changed for the better. But unfortunately, I found some revelations last month after Christmas - exactly after 4-5 months (exactly based on her historical data of cheating). It was not only once they had sex but multiple times! Then I have to learn to forgive again multiple times! Moreover, when I thought everything seems going well already. Well, it’s not. I found that she was having a chat with the same ugly guy under a code name in her phonebook as “okaasan”.
So from July 2019, she had to start all over again to win my trust. When I was already at the good track of forgetting everything, she made it fresh again. She reminded me again how painful it was and how unfaithful and disloyal she was.
γγ£ may have already secured me in a relationship again, but I will still not give my 100% to her just like what I did in the past. Lesson learned.
(How many times does she need to reconnect with Jake before to finally decide to stop what has to be stopped?)
For me, I don’t care anymore if Jake will be her bf. “When you have started valuing yourself, you don’t give a fuck to disloyal, unfaithful, and cheaters.“ Moreover, it’s not my loss. It will never be. π If ever γγ£ decided to be with him, hope it will be sooner and faster as I don’t want to waste my time and money anymore to these kind of people.
“Birds of the same feather flock together.”
And I will never be the same as them. I’m not a bird, I’m a lion. π If γγ£ really wanted to change, she has to double the effort and be consistent. So far, her track is still 4-5months. Probably on Apr or May, she’ll talk to him again, saying excuses like, “I want to end things with him properly.” How many times do you need to end things with someone?! If part of you really wanted to go back, go! Do it fast! Let’s not waste each other’s time. My time is diamond, not just gold. I hate to waste my time to lowlife people like liars and cheaters.
Sana hindi ko to pagsisihan. The memories of betrayal and pain are still there, lingering. Why? The last time I discovered it was July 2019. From there, I need 2 years to prove that she has changed for the better. But unfortunately, I found some revelations last month after Christmas - exactly after 4-5 months (exactly based on her historical data of cheating). It was not only once they had sex but multiple times! Then I have to learn to forgive again multiple times! Moreover, when I thought everything seems going well already. Well, it’s not. I found that she was having a chat with the same ugly guy under a code name in her phonebook as “okaasan”.
So from July 2019, she had to start all over again to win my trust. When I was already at the good track of forgetting everything, she made it fresh again. She reminded me again how painful it was and how unfaithful and disloyal she was.
γγ£ may have already secured me in a relationship again, but I will still not give my 100% to her just like what I did in the past. Lesson learned.
(How many times does she need to reconnect with Jake before to finally decide to stop what has to be stopped?)
For me, I don’t care anymore if Jake will be her bf. “When you have started valuing yourself, you don’t give a fuck to disloyal, unfaithful, and cheaters.“ Moreover, it’s not my loss. It will never be. π If ever γγ£ decided to be with him, hope it will be sooner and faster as I don’t want to waste my time and money anymore to these kind of people.
“Birds of the same feather flock together.”
And I will never be the same as them. I’m not a bird, I’m a lion. π If γγ£ really wanted to change, she has to double the effort and be consistent. So far, her track is still 4-5months. Probably on Apr or May, she’ll talk to him again, saying excuses like, “I want to end things with him properly.” How many times do you need to end things with someone?! If part of you really wanted to go back, go! Do it fast! Let’s not waste each other’s time. My time is diamond, not just gold. I hate to waste my time to lowlife people like liars and cheaters.
The other night, I cannot find his FB. Maybe he blocked γγ£. Now, I can easily find it in her FB. I blocked him. Let’s see if one of these days, she’ll unblock him. From there, I will know that she does want to get back with her affair. Then it will be one of my proofs and reasons to break up with her. I won’t be afraid anymore, if the reason is her cheating.
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I so love myself para paghinayangan ang mga taong ganito. π Lalo na I have started fucking loving myself again? Haha!
Relationship priority: God > Me > My family and furbabies > Friends > (insert jowa). π
God, please keep me away from the people who’s only desire is to hurt me. I commit myself to you. Despite the tragedies and bad experiences, you are still there teaching me. May Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit guide me throughout this life. Thank you. Amen!
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