Dating is crazy 🤯

Yo!

I'm a little bit confused. 😣 Or I should not think about it?

I think ハニー likes me or should I say love me too. But I'm not 100% sure. Maybe she is just very comfortable with me. That's why even I hug her every night and kiss her in the cheeks, she doesn't mind.

This set-up looks complicated. No commitment but she likes me around. I went back to being a suitor and I'm okay with that. Maybe she just doesn't want to have commitment or to be tagged as my girlfriend or partner but she loves me. Why not make it official then if I love her and she loves me too? Simple as that.

When you are a suitor, is it allowed to hug the person you like every night? I'm the old school type of person. And hugging the person you love every night and kissing her in cheeks/shoulders are actions of a committed person.

And this is my problem. I'm old school. I think very simple. And this set-up looks complicated to my mind.

Are we dating exclusively? Are we in an open relationship (unknowingly)? I'm a monogamous type of person. If the person I like/love is also seeing others romantically, I should stop what I am doing. I respect every person. And whoever ハニー likes, I should respect it. Hopefully, she can tell me clearly what we are and what should be the rules. And also, tell me if she has other suitors. I'm not too competitive when in comes to dating. I tend to give up easily if I have found out that the person I like is also dating/seeing others and that other has a great chance of winning her heart.

I call her 'ney'. She sometimes call me 'ney'. She wraps her arms around my arms as if we're a lovely couple. Is she flirting me? Does she likes/loves me? Bakit hindi nalang nya ko sagutin and we make this relationship official again? Why people prefer complicated things... I wonder. This looks like her's and Jake's relationship back then. She didn't like to be in an official relationship with him but they treated each other as couple. 😞 I don't want to be the another Jake.

If she's flirting me and likes/loves me too but doesn't want to say "yes" to me yet, is she waiting for someone to come to her life? As if I'm just a temporary love scenes? Oh em! I hate assumptions. Hopefully, she can tell me honestly how she feels, about us. Women are really complicated.

Looks like I'm cheating her over her. I should stay pure and honest until ハニー say "yes" to me. And I should not do flirty things with anyone until I am committed with one person. Ironic, I'm cheating ハニー over ハニー. 😆 I should refrain myself from doing things that only couple should be doing. I should wait until the day ハニー gives her sweet "yes" again to me.

These temptations of hugging her, kissing her, holding her hands, and calling her 'honey', I resist! I should be only doing these to my partner - to my girlfriend/fiance. Until no commitment, I should be only doing what a regular suitor does. That's it!

I don't want to be asked by my future partner, "Were you exclusively dating with no commitment in the past? Were you in an open relationship with no tagging?" Nakakahiya. 😞

I need to prepare myself, be pure enough for my future partner. Call me boring or old school but I'm just a classic faithful gentleman. 😎