Sometimes, I thought of asking チャ to be my girlfriend again. But for an instant, my mind changes and it disagrees.
For four years I served her well as my queen, but she cheated on me for two years (found out after 4 months we broke up). I've given everything - my time, my respect, my understanding, my support in all aspects even financially - not leaving something for myself. Thought that she'll be the woman I was gonna marry. Treated her well more than I treated my mom and sisters. Fought for her many times thought that it'll gonna be my last chance - now or never. Forgiven her after she had sex with someone else while we're still in a relationship. Believed in her goodness and thought she committed mistakes unintentionally.
But one day, I just woke up from the truth. That I was so stupid for so long - believing that she's a well-respected and honest person. I got it all wrong. I think God snapped a finger and told me, "You were believing wrong. You were deceived. Wake up Rove! She's not the woman you deserve."
Now, I always put my family first - esp my mom and sisters - more than any human beings here. I don't wanna spend more money anymore except for myself and for my family. If ever I'll get married someday, there got to be a pre-nup. This way, I can protect myself and my family. Self-respect is now one of my priorities.
I should not be stupid anymore when it comes to love. "It's better to wait than to marry wrong." I will just wait for the woman God is preparing for me.
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God, I know that everything happens for a reason. Those reasons maybe too difficult for a human being to comprehend. Nevertheless, I just have to put my trust to you 100%. That whatever happens, I know you are putting me to a good place. For I know the plans you have for me. Plans to prosper me and not to harm me. Plans to give me future.
Let Your will thy be done.
I pray all these things in mighty name of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen!
For four years I served her well as my queen, but she cheated on me for two years (found out after 4 months we broke up). I've given everything - my time, my respect, my understanding, my support in all aspects even financially - not leaving something for myself. Thought that she'll be the woman I was gonna marry. Treated her well more than I treated my mom and sisters. Fought for her many times thought that it'll gonna be my last chance - now or never. Forgiven her after she had sex with someone else while we're still in a relationship. Believed in her goodness and thought she committed mistakes unintentionally.
But one day, I just woke up from the truth. That I was so stupid for so long - believing that she's a well-respected and honest person. I got it all wrong. I think God snapped a finger and told me, "You were believing wrong. You were deceived. Wake up Rove! She's not the woman you deserve."
Now, I always put my family first - esp my mom and sisters - more than any human beings here. I don't wanna spend more money anymore except for myself and for my family. If ever I'll get married someday, there got to be a pre-nup. This way, I can protect myself and my family. Self-respect is now one of my priorities.
I should not be stupid anymore when it comes to love. "It's better to wait than to marry wrong." I will just wait for the woman God is preparing for me.
——
God, I know that everything happens for a reason. Those reasons maybe too difficult for a human being to comprehend. Nevertheless, I just have to put my trust to you 100%. That whatever happens, I know you are putting me to a good place. For I know the plans you have for me. Plans to prosper me and not to harm me. Plans to give me future.
Let Your will thy be done.
I pray all these things in mighty name of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen!
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