Work work work. Working like a s____.

Na-sstress na ko sa work. It started in the second half of July. Ngayon ko lang ulit naramdaman na nag-wowork talaga ko. In my stay sa former team, I only felt working twice. At hindi pa yun kagaya ngayon. But now, I really felt the pressure at the same time, stress. It's like I was only working to catch someone else, meet their wants, and satisfy them. What I really got into? T_T Also, I don't like this kind of pressure. It's like people are saying, "You should already know them." Hello? I'm just new. Though it's not a right to blame because of being "new", I'm still new. There're still lots of things I need to learn - lots of technical terms. I said "yes" to this responsibility because I wanted to learn and experience new things. But assuming that I should have already known, it's a different thing. It's not just weekdays I work, I also work during weekends. It's a family business. Life is really pressuring me right now..with all the responsibilities. I need to take a week off~! Think only about myself. Think about what I really like. Think about my dreams. I need a week off away from all of these things!!! -- Nothing is impossible with Him. =D

STRESS!! +_+ XD

I wanna die.

I wanna kill myself.

I wanna.. Argh!!!

Stress!!!!!

It's killing me.

Wat to do. Wat to do.

Otoke.. Doushiyou..

My life's now a mess.

Couldn't explain it.

I hate what I'm feeling now.

My lil' sister is much affected. And so do I.

I just don't make it obvious. 

I think I gotta start preparing for myself in da future.

It's a disease. And it is spreading rapidly.

I hate it.

Age gap is very big.

It's not suitable in the eyes.

I hate it.

Why does it have to be like this.?

Why does He permitted something like this to happen.?

Wae? Wae? Doushite? Doushite?

I wanna go home now.!!! 

Or go somewhere else where I wanna be myself alone.

STRESS!!!! +_+

STRESS!!! +_+

STRESS!!! 

Luckily, my right thigh is the only one left hurt.  Unlike since Sunday, both thighs were badly hurt. To the point that I couldn't bend, go upstairs, and worst go downstairs. It was like I gotta walk with my legs straight. They were hurting badly until to my knees. 

Nobody notices it 'cause I acted too good. I just bore the pain while walking and stepping thru stairs' steps. I don't want anyone to notice it 'cause I don't want them to pity me or do something to make me special. 

10:21PM. More minutes to go before I can now go home. I'll make sure that I'll go straight to my bed when I got home.  Hahaha! 

STRESS!!! 

This work shift is fine; but not the uber cold environment. It really makes my head aches and body sleeps. 

Jeff treated me en Diann to Pancake House.  We ate a lot that I feel sleepy now.  XD

STRESS!!! 

The refund issue is in the air. I don't pay much attention to it, especially to their conversations. But their hot aura shivers me.  Though I wanted to relax. The issue pushes me not to chill. Instead, do something as soon as possible for the refund.  Why this World is so .. 

STRESS!!! 

Favors everywhere. It's fine to me. But they are affected by external entities like stated above. That's why I couldn't be able to respond to them properly.

STRESS!!! 

I wanna to take a break. I mean, break from my current life.  I wanna just , , , , and 

Is there anybody out there who wanted to exchange a life with me for a week or two??? 

THIS WORLD IS UBER DEMANDING..!!  

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