don't trust ur feelings, use ur head

Leave me alone! -_-" Don't ever think that I am goin' to hit up any of you.  0_o Don't wanna ever get involve to anyone of you. Friends are okay. But just friends-no more, no less.

Whenever I'm talkin'/jokin' with you guys, don't ever think that I have other intentions. In your wildest face! -_-"

I am friendly, yes. But don't mistaken it for somethin' else. You can call me flirt or anythin' you want. But I know that I am just bein' friendly 'cause it's natural for me. (Snub at first impression mostly. XD)

And if I'm goin' to hit up anybody, it'll never be one of you. Prick! Tsktsk. XD

Hahaha.. Just coolin' (means takin' off hotness..XD)

Leikeze Van Helsing

Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Enough for your crap!

Ok, that's it! If I didn't check your fb, I won't know it at all.

You didn't block me anymore, but you deleted me.

Nice! Thank you!

Ok, enough! I had enough! Too much for this. 

You've changed, then I was changed too.

Fuck off! (Sorry for the word God)

Hope you are not bitter or something.

Ok, bye! 

I don't want to enter into relationship anymore. And if I will, I will make sure you'll know our wedding day. Me and my next significant other in a church. Then you'll regret all the things you've done to me. 

I will change. I will strive hard to earn a lot. 

I will work hard to make you see that you won't able to reach me again. 

'Cause I was once down and you just kept stepping on me.

You'll see, in time, you'll look on me.

You've made great space. Then I'll cut the bridge and have greater and more space. 

Get rid of you completely! Don't know if I will still do what I'm planning after grad. 

But I guess, it's enough. It's too much for me.

God, help me. Let me know if it's already enough.

Tired of everything.

I'm a new person now.

I'll prove to all the people who stepped down on me that they need to work hard for them to be able reach me.

Tired of this fucking sick of yours. (Sorry again Lord)

I tried to befriended you. I even love you and avoid the possibilities that you'll find it out.

But you broke it.

Now, all of you crap people.

Let's see who you are after ten to twenty years.

Yeah. Looks can deceive. Then you'll be deceived with my looks.

Yeah, I look like an innocent small kid. But you'll see, in time.

P.S. Never be friendly with you fellas:  4th year HS classmates except my DFA dudes.

 

Grandia en Yrekcah Leikeze Van Helsing

Grand M0nde

Earth, Solar System

Of headaches and failing grades

It is now 9:34 in the evening... and I am not yet studying for the AP and El Filibusterismo exams. Well, let us just say that studying is really tiring and boring(?!) hehehehehehehehehe.

Anyways... I ruined my thursday morning by waking up 5:00... and knowing that 2 hours to go and I will have my English exams. Do you know why? because I haven't studied yet.

Bummer.

And to add to my sufferings... my mind was blank while answering the exam. Plus, my head was aching and our teacher is telling us to pass our papers (too much pressure to my aching brain.)

That is not the end of it.

After the English exam, I stilll have Physics quiz to worry about.

But thanks to God, I did well in the quiz.

Nevertheless, because of the happiness I felt in the quiz results, my headache came back. It worsen while I study the story 'How my brother Leon brought home a wife' (is the title right?) Furthermore, while doing the quiz, my head really ached. In the end, my score is 0/10 (great right?)

But I still had fun. Even though I gone through all of those - trials (hehehehehehe...) I had fun in playing scrabble. I had fun being with my friends.

I went home happy, momentarily forgotten all the bad things that happened.

Right now, I am now worrying on what to do. Well, I guess, I wasted all my time complaining, that I happen to forgot to thank God to all the grace periods He had given me all these time. Men (I mean women) can be really blind, right?

I know all of the things that is happening around me has a purpose. I know, whether it is a good thing or a bad thing, that there is a reason that I opened my account here and typing my entry in the blog. In short, All things have a purpose according to the will of God.

I hope that something good may happen later on. I wish that may God hear my hopeful prayers. Because I am going to need it.

Lord, what is Your plan for me?

"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11

----------------> Guess I don't need a reason to question all of God's doings. He knows what He is doing, right?

play life or not?

3 of us included Rosy's brother played counter strike until 6:30 p.m. My mom was already calling me and I'm just ignoring it, afraid to be shouted.

We should have gone together in Marikina to meet my grandma (father's side). But I insisted that I'll just follow after an hour. But instead of an hour, it turned into 2 hrs and 30 mins. When we were just in the middle of the game, my mom was keeping on calling on my cell & texted me. I texted back after so many unanswered calls. Finally, we finished our game and answered my mom's call. Of course, what you'd expect? I can't stand her voice and shouting that I even keep a distance between my ear and my cell. But in the end, my mom called me for the last time with calm voice.

Honestly, I don't care whether I'll meet my grandma or not. And especially I don't want to go there at Marikina - so bored! This is the second time I met my grandma again - they said - but for me I think it's the first time. For my bro, it's also the second time - if he remembers; but for my sis, it's the first time. Then after so many talks and singing made by my lil' sis, we finally decided to go home - I was bored! But before we rode bicycles, my bro, my sis and my mom were talking so loud in front of a sari-sari store. I was just walking back and forth in the same direction. They made me little pissed off.

Before we rode a jeep going home, my dad called my mom in her cell. Of course they talked, then my mom handed me her cell so that I could talk to my dad. Whatever! - lol

Then, now, I'm home! (Wat da?!) I was just finished playing Harvest Moon in GBA.

let da paper be burnt...

Oh yeah! I've already burnt the battle in my heart. Thanks to the activity in bonfire. It's about writing all the things you want to leave in a paper and let it burn in the fire. Waha! The thing I burnt is about accepting failures without any battle to take because whether you win or not, nothing will change.

But I didn't get the look I received yesterday while we're having the activity in the auditorium. I don't understand. Is that person expecting me to give a 'paper heart'? (looks like the title of a song, Paper Heart by All-American Rejects - lol). Hope it's not that the reason. When that person looked at me, I just turned my head to the left trying to avoid the looks. Pls. don't expect me, I might fail to give it. Pls. just forgive me if you didn't receive any from me, 'coz I tried but failed. Ok, ok, enough is enough. It was all done! ;D

I thought..

Wat da?! I thought I could finish up my projects even I'm still playing and chatting everyday. I do not know that we have homework in PC then in El Fili, I do not know that we need to revise their works. I thought I just need to check their spellings and sentences especially in grammar. I do not have my book, I left it at our locker!

Wat da?! I thought,,,I thought,,,I thought,,,waaaaaaaaaah! I do not know what to do next!

I think enough games and chats for now. I need to finish all these crazy stuffs!

See u then! I'm just dropping by.

;D

wat da?!

I think this will be last time I'll post an entry to this blog. The next time I'll drop by will be 5 years from now, I guess. My mom is planning of cutting this DSL connection. Ok, ok, I got it! Enough internet for now!

So long... ;D