Thoughts

Living in a country where mental illness is taboo is very expensive. You are working your ass off to earn money. Then you get crazy and pay for it. Mental wellness is not part of the HMO coverage. That is why having to see a psychiatrist for the second time will make our tail back off. I did see a doctor once but never came back for follow-up as it is very expensive. 30min conversation with the psych costs me Php1500-3k. If the doctor told you to come back next week and 2 weeks after, you will atleast spend 10k a month for the check-ups, medicines, and transpo. And it is not part of the HMO. The money you save for 2-3months killing yourself at work will be gone in just a month.

So what can you do? Alternatives? Cure your own illness! Now I realize that people who have depressions, especially living in the same country as I am, are tough. They last so long. Endure the pain and just tell themselves each day that gthis will all pass by and be gone. Just endure a little more and all be good in time.h They are tough but I pity them so much, especially people who believe in one God. They have this belief that when they kill themselves, theyfll go straight to hell. Well, as for me, that is the only reason why I am lasting this long.

Went to a Christian school since pre-school. Di ko nalang alam kung hindi mo pa madigest fully lahat ng teachings ng Bible. It is a blessing and a suffering at the same time.

On the side: These kittens are lurking around me while I am sitting in a bed and writing this. If only I have my own house, I dont have you guys be adopted.