To Carol

Hi,

I'm shocked that we made this far, 3 years.
I don't know what happened but we both know our relationship is going down hill. My one mistake, you never have forgiven it as if we're married couple. You don't see me as a partner anymore since then but an enemy.

Now, I've realized, I'm done doing everything I could. I remember myself saying, "I don't wanna be the old Rove anymore, chasing the people who don't even like me around in the first place. I'm better off alone." No more pleasing anyone. Done compromising, done lowering myself down. I tried putting down my walls for you and letting you see my vulnerabilities. It turned out, you didn't like my bad side or vulnerable side at all. I should have not put my guards down. If I will, 25% or just for you to see me speak will be enough.

Thank you for everything. Thank you for making me realize that I cannot love a person anymore just like what I did in the past. They'll just hurt me.

Relationship, if ever finds me again, will be just my playground and past time. No more getting serious or anything. Back to enjoying myself.

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God, I know this is not like you. But please help me put my guards up again. And whatever happens, cannot be break by anyone. Thank you and I love you. And most of all, I'm sorry.