On a tight spot

I started to get anxious about "what might happen" that I already thought of ending everything.

I don't want to let go of Laiya since it's my choice in the first place. I also don't want to let go of Filinvest since I didn't object when it was first offered to me even knowing the risks.

I want to increase my source of income so that I can get higher chance of approval rate for the 2 properties next year. Gusto ko sila panindigan kahit na with the current status of my income, it's difficult to support my monthly expenses when the time comes.

God, please help me. I don't want this stress and anxiety wear me down. Please guide me and direct my life. Show me what I should do since you're the only one who knows everything about me and my future. I'll follow you without questions. I trusted my life and my family's lives to you. Everything on this world is nothing. If you say so, I'll gladly let go of them.

Thank you God for everything. You kept on helping me especially mentally and financially. You give me hope every time I'm on a very tight spot.

I pray everything unto you. Let your will thy be done.
In Jesus name, amen!