You don't have to know what's up with me, what I go through, or what difficulties I went through the day. It's not like I'm going to spend the rest of my life with you for you to know the details of my every day. It's not like I'm planning my future with you. Well, I used to. Not until I've learned that you were just fooling me for half of the time we're in a relationship. And I've learned how stupid I was for not noticing - for not noticing the signs and not taking heed some of my friends' advice.
Now, every mistake you make is very vulnerable to making me think, "you are still the same". Each day you impress me with your maturity is one step farther to what you had become. But with just one mistake, what you've build so far crumble back to square one. Why? It's even not yet a year since I told you, "I need 2 years to prove you have changed".
I cannot still remove the possibility of you getting back together with your ex-affair. Why? You had overcome all the possibilities in the past, so it's not impossible for you to go back to the way you had. 😏 "People are complicated." They might be loyal to you now, but the next day, they are spending their night with someone else. And I'm even not close to not remembering of the instances you cheated. They are like small memories or small realizations that pop out of my mind out of nowhere unexpectedly. And this is why I need 2 years, but it's just not 2 years. I want to have a consistent clean track for 2 years - that maturity continually shows. But I know it's difficult for you especially if it's unnatural to you. But don't worry, it's also difficult for me - to trust again 100%.
Hope you've learned that "words should be consistent with actions". Maturity doesn't not come overnight, you have to work on it and be consistent about it.
God bless us all.
Now, every mistake you make is very vulnerable to making me think, "you are still the same". Each day you impress me with your maturity is one step farther to what you had become. But with just one mistake, what you've build so far crumble back to square one. Why? It's even not yet a year since I told you, "I need 2 years to prove you have changed".
I cannot still remove the possibility of you getting back together with your ex-affair. Why? You had overcome all the possibilities in the past, so it's not impossible for you to go back to the way you had. 😏 "People are complicated." They might be loyal to you now, but the next day, they are spending their night with someone else. And I'm even not close to not remembering of the instances you cheated. They are like small memories or small realizations that pop out of my mind out of nowhere unexpectedly. And this is why I need 2 years, but it's just not 2 years. I want to have a consistent clean track for 2 years - that maturity continually shows. But I know it's difficult for you especially if it's unnatural to you. But don't worry, it's also difficult for me - to trust again 100%.
Hope you've learned that "words should be consistent with actions". Maturity doesn't not come overnight, you have to work on it and be consistent about it.
God bless us all.
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