Complicated life

When you are fucking hate your life.

Career
Trying to figure out the role best for me, or I should say, He has chosen for me. I am now doubting if being a PM is really for me. I thought that when I entered the PMO, being a PM will now be within my reach. But no! I've finally realized that it depends on your manager. I think I have already experienced the best manager and the worst manager. Been doing PMO-P&L for 3 years, no progress even in my salary. My salary is for a professional with 3-4 years work experience.

Now, I would like to take CAPM, ITIL SOA, Green Belt LSS, and even MBA in UPD. I will do anything to increase my credential even without the help of my company nor my family. I will do everything on my own. In the end, it will just me and God alone.

Family
Everyone already know that I have a younger brother who is a "black sheep". Why? Your call. He was sent to different schools just to finish highschool and college, but he wasn't able to finish one even the 2-year course. Why? He used his tuition fee playing billiards and buying cigarettes and alcohol for him and his friends. He now have 4 kids from three different women. All of them are supported by my mother. My brother, his live-in partner, and their 2 kids are residing in the house. He caused so much trouble that he even flipped my mom's car. It's already a year and 2 months, it is not being used again yet. Now, he broke down my dad's car. My mom didn't say anything to him but spent money for the repair. She just asked me if she can borrow money for the repair. I will not hand over to her any of my emergency money nor Venice's money. Nadala na ko. She keeps bugging me and my older sister to borrow money for all of her expenses where she and my brother have caused it. And while she doesn't have budget, she still keeps on sending money to the kids of my younger brother. And my mother is even building another room in the house to have my brother and his "family" have bigger room. How's that?

This is the reason why I really wanted to live separately from them. Mom bugs us like we are earning millions but then give a well-off life to my brother.

I really hate my life.

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