Disappear

Im so sad. Another time of the year.

I want some hugs. But where to get it?

Im trying not to shed a tear. But I couldnt. It felt like it's something I need to let out.

Initiated lots of conversations already online. But nobody seems like wanted to talk to me. Haha. Poor Rove.

Beer. The only thing that stays with me. Since I dont take other stuff, i'll just drown myself to it. 

I want to disappear. Everyday I always tell myself that everything is okay. It's okay. You dont have to think much of it. Wear a smile, even a poker one. Don't let people see your weaknesses. Nobody deserve to see you crying. Only the purest person can see it. One who will not judge you. One who will stay by your side until your last breathe. Haha. Well, only God and Jesus deserve to be that person.

When you will get me from here? The more days I spend here on earth, the more vulnerable I am to evil things.

Im lonely. I really wanted to disappear.