チャ . When things didn't go according to her plans or she doesn't like the result, she'll just decide to go, leave, and doesn't care what she will leave behind. Like her mom, when she decided to go or feel like going, she'll just leave without thinking what would the people she'll leave behind feel. It's somewhat running away with unfinished business. It's somewhat selfish and not. Selfish, because, she just go without informing the people first. Not, she thinks it's for her own good. It's not selfish to think about oneself.
Then I remembered Sam. He unconsciously replicating the life or the choices his father made. Though チャ is saying she's not her mother, but unconsciously, she's doing the same what her mom does. She may doesn't like the personality of her mom about running away, but she's also doing the same thing. One needs to exert an effort consciously to not replicate the choices we don't like about our parents' life.
Saturday, June 01, 2019
Last day of May
Tigs is not coming home (room) not until morning for 3 consecutive nights already.
Been having headaches early in the morning every other day or two. 🤒 Can't have proper sleep since Sunday - always waking up at 4 in the morning and wide awake 'till 7.
Earlier, mom finally blurted out to me the question I did't want to hear "Saan si Ate チャ?" Since I don't want my mom to notice that something's going on, I acted normal and told her that she's with her family in their new house. Then shooed her away. Whew~ 😓
I finished reading One Season of Hope. In the end, Bradley Hope died. Watched Ultimate Gift. At the end, Emily died. Now, reading Restored. Is there someone to die? Author seems fond of death and among young ones. 😐
Been having headaches early in the morning every other day or two. 🤒 Can't have proper sleep since Sunday - always waking up at 4 in the morning and wide awake 'till 7.
Earlier, mom finally blurted out to me the question I did't want to hear "Saan si Ate チャ?" Since I don't want my mom to notice that something's going on, I acted normal and told her that she's with her family in their new house. Then shooed her away. Whew~ 😓
I finished reading One Season of Hope. In the end, Bradley Hope died. Watched Ultimate Gift. At the end, Emily died. Now, reading Restored. Is there someone to die? Author seems fond of death and among young ones. 😐
We wish all the best
Sooner or later, she'll forget everything.
Soon enough, she'll forget about me.
Soon enough, she'll forget about Api and Tiger.
But that's okay.
What we only want is for her to be happy, find happiness in every little thing she'll be doing.
That she'll stay safe and healthy, away from the evil eyes.
That she'll be able to reach her goals and dreams in life.
Sooner or later, we'll be forgotten.
But that's okay,
If this is what it takes for her to live a life full of hope and happiness.
Soon enough, she'll forget about me.
Soon enough, she'll forget about Api and Tiger.
But that's okay.
What we only want is for her to be happy, find happiness in every little thing she'll be doing.
That she'll stay safe and healthy, away from the evil eyes.
That she'll be able to reach her goals and dreams in life.
Sooner or later, we'll be forgotten.
But that's okay,
If this is what it takes for her to live a life full of hope and happiness.
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