It hurts

I miss her bad. But now, I have to let her go. I love her so much. Maybe if I truly love her, I have to let her go. Don't bother her anymore.

My God, my everthing

I commit everything to you my God.

Family problems, my financial problems, my mental issues, my lovelife, etc. All of them, I lift them up to you oh God. I'm raising my white flag already. Can't do it without You and Jesus Christ.

I commit to you my heart, my mind, and my life. Please help me have self control and choose myself this time. Let go of the people and things that are hurting and weighing me down. I only need you God and Christ, no one else. Your love is perfect. Please hold me closely and hug me tightly my God. Please direct me to the right path. I love you so much!

In Jesus name, amen!

Time to move on

I'll have my hair cut tomorrow. Back to the short hair I used to have.

Nagmahal lang naman ako ng totoo. Ngayon lang ulit ako nagmahal ng sobra, ginanito pa ko. Haaay. Pero no regrets. I know I've done my best.

I told her almost everyday how much I loved her. I became so vulnerable to her and became honest. I couldn't even lie to her 'cause I was submissive to her. I even followed almost all of her wants even it sometimes hurt me. I say 'sorry' first even it's her fault sometimes.

Probably, people will reject you if you are too good to be true. 🥲 Probably, I was loving the wrong person. We all know that if we became the right person to the one we love, s/he also become the right person for you too.

I think I've already told her everything what my heart and mind feel. All I gotta do is improve myself for the better, whether she'll come back or not.

God please be with me. Please heal my broken heart and mind. Your love is enough to fill me as I am like an empty cup right now.

She ended it

It's official. Wala na kami. May 29, nakipagbreak na sya. 9mos lang tinagal namin.

Time to move on. Time to self love. Time to improve myself for the better.

So help me God.
I love you God.

Time to let go

She has her way on turning tides. I need to let her go. I should learn that I'll never be too much to the right person. And I should not chase anymore.

I am going through something in life, and she's not there when I needed her the most. Need to let go.

I believe God and the Universe will introduce to me my person in the very unexpected way. Just have to give her space in my life. I'll wait for you my future wife. For now, I will improve myself. I will heal. So that in the future, I will be able to take care of you. And hopefully, when I fall short, you'll be there to support me.

In Jesus name, amen!

Boundary has stepped over

Tigilan na natin tong kalokohan nating to.

You think I'm a liar? You don't trust me? Why stay?

I trust you. But the fact that you always make excuses for every mistakes/misses you commit, makes me wonder if you are still true to me. Paulit ulit nalang. You don't even know how to say 'sorry'. Then you always gaslight me pag may misses ka at ibabalik mo sakin until ako na magsosorry.

Tigilan na natin to. Ayaw ko na. You always make feel worthless.

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