It hurts

I miss her bad. But now, I have to let her go. I love her so much. Maybe if I truly love her, I have to let her go. Don't bother her anymore.

My God, my everthing

I commit everything to you my God.

Family problems, my financial problems, my mental issues, my lovelife, etc. All of them, I lift them up to you oh God. I'm raising my white flag already. Can't do it without You and Jesus Christ.

I commit to you my heart, my mind, and my life. Please help me have self control and choose myself this time. Let go of the people and things that are hurting and weighing me down. I only need you God and Christ, no one else. Your love is perfect. Please hold me closely and hug me tightly my God. Please direct me to the right path. I love you so much!

In Jesus name, amen!

Time to move on

I'll have my hair cut tomorrow. Back to the short hair I used to have.

Nagmahal lang naman ako ng totoo. Ngayon lang ulit ako nagmahal ng sobra, ginanito pa ko. Haaay. Pero no regrets. I know I've done my best.

I told her almost everyday how much I loved her. I became so vulnerable to her and became honest. I couldn't even lie to her 'cause I was submissive to her. I even followed almost all of her wants even it sometimes hurt me. I say 'sorry' first even it's her fault sometimes.

Probably, people will reject you if you are too good to be true. 🥲 Probably, I was loving the wrong person. We all know that if we became the right person to the one we love, s/he also become the right person for you too.

I think I've already told her everything what my heart and mind feel. All I gotta do is improve myself for the better, whether she'll come back or not.

God please be with me. Please heal my broken heart and mind. Your love is enough to fill me as I am like an empty cup right now.

She ended it

It's official. Wala na kami. May 29, nakipagbreak na sya. 9mos lang tinagal namin.

Time to move on. Time to self love. Time to improve myself for the better.

So help me God.
I love you God.

Time to let go

She has her way on turning tides. I need to let her go. I should learn that I'll never be too much to the right person. And I should not chase anymore.

I am going through something in life, and she's not there when I needed her the most. Need to let go.

I believe God and the Universe will introduce to me my person in the very unexpected way. Just have to give her space in my life. I'll wait for you my future wife. For now, I will improve myself. I will heal. So that in the future, I will be able to take care of you. And hopefully, when I fall short, you'll be there to support me.

In Jesus name, amen!

Boundary has stepped over

Tigilan na natin tong kalokohan nating to.

You think I'm a liar? You don't trust me? Why stay?

I trust you. But the fact that you always make excuses for every mistakes/misses you commit, makes me wonder if you are still true to me. Paulit ulit nalang. You don't even know how to say 'sorry'. Then you always gaslight me pag may misses ka at ibabalik mo sakin until ako na magsosorry.

Tigilan na natin to. Ayaw ko na. You always make feel worthless.

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Big Lesson in Rel

Let her be

May mga relationships na hindi dapat pinipilit.
Pag pinipilit, hindi magiging maganda ang ending. Hindi kayo magiging masaya.
Sa relationships, need both effort. Pero kung isa lang nag eeffort, hindi balance. Eventually, mapapagod ang isa.

Ma-aadvise ko lang sayo Rove. Take time. Hangga't di pa kayo married or living together, get to know your partner kung kaya mo ba pakisamahan hanggang pagtanda. Get to know yourself kung ganyan klaseng treatment or kind of relationship ang gusto mo. Sa ngayon, wala ka dapat ipilit. Let it flow. Kung mag effort, g. Kung wala pakialam, g. Hayaan mo nalang.

Kung san sya masaya, suportanta sya. God will never leave you nor forsake you. He'll give you the best woman and partner you deserve to be with until the end of time.

Should start choosing myself

I don't know.
Ba't pa ko nagtatagal.
Lagi ko naman sya pinipili. Pero ramdam ko na option nya lang ako.
Magsesettle ba ko sa ganito? Kontento naba ko sa ganitong treatment sakin?
I would like to be treated as priority too.
Kung di nya kaya gawin yun, alam kong meron pang iba dyan na mamahalin ako sa way na gusto ko mahalin ako.
I should not settle for less.

Nagbigay na ko ng deadline sa sarili ko. Sabi ko, 6 months I will do everything. Pero pag wala parin, hahayaan ko na lahat mag drain down. Yung effort at energy ko ay ipapantay ko na sa kung ano ang ibibigay nya sakin.
I should start choosing myself.
I should start loving myself completely.
At hindi nagbebeg si Rove ng attention kahit kanino.
Let her go.
The person who will choose you will soon find you. And you will know eventually kung sino deserve ng time and effort mo.

God will not leave you. God will give you the woman of your life, the one you'll marry and be with till death. Don't worry. Trust Him in all your ways and acknowledge him.

Don’t push anything

Why people cheat?
Maybe because their partners don't have time for them?
I will not cheat, I'll just go out with a friend who can spend time with me instead.

I told myself many times, I should not chase. I should not waste my time chasing unavailable people. I should not care at all.

I'm not married yet. I still have time to change my mind. I still have time to let go my current relationship that doesn't give me any benefit.

Anyway, let it go. Shrug it off.

God, please heal my heart

Okay. Nakipaghiwalay na sya. I guess it's God's will narin. I just have to accept it and move on.
It was short but it was nice.
Hoping na makilala ko na talaga yung tamang babae para sakin.

Let Your will Thy be done.

God, please heal my heart.

Let Your will thy be done

Baka break na nga talaga kami? Di nya sinasagot call ko at di nya siniseen messages ko since yesterday morning. Haaay. Well. Baka nga hindi sya para sakin.

The reality is, she's a walking red flag. The reality is, she doesn't want to be in commitment with you. The reality is, she's emotionally unavailable. It's not okay but what can I do?

Let go. Let His will thy be done.
What's meant to be will always be yours.

Thank you God. I love you.

Remember Rove, always remember!

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I deserve better

Nasabi ko na lahat ng gusto ko sabihin.
Wala na ko dapat patunayan pa.
I'm tired already.
I rest my case.

Ayaw ko na makipagusap sa taong bato.
I deserve someone who's better.
Magpapakayaman nalang muna ko. 😏

5th month breakup

Nakipag break narin sya sakin.

I ask her kung pede ba namin pagusapan at ayusin. Pero di sya sumagot.

Ano gagawin ko? Ayaw na nya sakin? Ayaw ko na maulit yung nangyari sa past na pinagpilitan ko sarili ko sa taong ayaw na talaga sakin.

Tama na Rove. Let go. Let it go~ Let it go~

If it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be

Di ko alam kung tama pa tong ginagawa ko.
Na mag stay sa taong ayaw sakin.

Universe, God, is it a sign na dapat tumigil na ko? Wag ko na ipaglaban pa?

I'll sleep tonight. Sana sa dreams ko, tell me clearly if I'll just let her go na.

Pabayaan ko na siguro sya? Wag ko na sya kulitin or istorbohin? God, please tell me directly.

If it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

Room for the right person

Universe, nilet go ko na sya para magkaroom sa buhay ko para sa tamang tao. 🥹
Masakit pero kelangan ilet go. Para dumating ang tamang tao. Hindi na ko mageeffort sa kanya. Titigilan ko na lahat ng pag eeffort ko. Sa Feb, pag wala nagbago, makikipag break na ko. Pagod narin kasi ko. 🥲

Nawa'y ibigay nyo na sakin yung tama tao. Yung pipiliin ako at magiging priority din ako.

Enough is enough

I think I'd rather be single than to be with someone who never makes an effort to see me.

Stay single
Until you meet someone who values clarity over confusion…
Who chooses honesty even when it's hard…
And sees love as partnership…
Not a power struggle.

I guess it's time to listen to the Universe. The Universe has been telling to stop. Enough of loving emotionally unavailable people.

Universe, have you telling me that it's not A the one for me? Have you telling me that the right person for me is wanting to enter my life but because I am currently committed to someone else, this person is unable to introduce herself to me?

Alright, guess I should now stop.
I will then stop making an effort. While doing this, I am already moving on. Then A will be the one to break up with me. Guess that's fair. I will then let our relationship go to drain. Enough is enough.

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