---Icky Question---

Is it possible for someone to be in love to their own relatives?

What's on my mind:

Umm, yeh possible but don't you find it WEIRD and ICKY???

for example, in onegai twins, the girl is in love to her own brother.
in sister princess, the girl is in love to her own brother.
in canvass, the girl is in love to her own cousin.
in... uhh.... there are other animes but, I can't remember..

But, it simply states to GUARD your HEART! Well, something like that...
It's what pastor preached when we were in highschool...

somethings really wrong here...

anywayz, GOD BLESS to all!
Im kinda feelin sleepy now...

^.^

bye-bye to my fellow 4th yearz!

aww...
The end is near!!!

But it doesn't give you an assurance that you can't visit the house of your classmate and clean their ref. or meet them at the train station, you'll only acquire freedom from the faces of your classmates.

err.. right??

But on the other side, it's still sad because you need to befriend someone again who will allow you to copy from his/her assignment. That's hard! and I'm figuring a way on how to approach them.

Sigh
Sigh
Sigh

But there's one thing to say
to try to make yourself feel better
on the day of graduation...

"There is a time for departure even when there's no certain place to go."

haha! connetion? but if you'll try to look through it maybe you'll find that "connection". Corny...

Sigh
Sigh
Sigh

umm... that's all folks! and sayonara to all the graduates!
Maybe, I'll just skip grad huh?

if only I could...

You don't get it? well, me neither.

^.^"

hate...want...nothin' to say...

busy busy busy! just trying to be busy...wahahaha!

i hate to speak!
i hate to work!
i hate to do all these crazy stuff! esp. out of my wants...
i hate to live no more!

waha! i hate all! i'm a hater! - waha! so evil...

i want to sleep!
i want to eat!
i want to play all day long!
i want to watch until cinema shuts down!
i want to listen to music!
i want to sing until i'm out of voice!
i want to dance until my bones break down!
i want to do fun things!
i want to travel and have adventures!
i want to die!
i want to go to heaven now!
i want to get all i want!

waha! i want all! i'm a spoiled brat! - waha! so evil...

P.S. I just haven't anything to say...lol! hehehe...

care...wierd...

Waha! I don't know what it is, but I gotta to believe this thing... When I was preparing this morning to go to school, I texted my mom asking about where she is. And I added "pls. txt bck!". After a minute, my phone rings, she was calling. I never thought my mom would call me up when I was just asking her to txt bck. She just asked me why. Then I told her about where she is. (after school) Then I got home, see something to eat. Woah! Lots of food - snacks! It looks like a grocery for a small sari-sari store! Yeah! I told her to buy some pancit canton and that's it - for our snacks. Then instead 5-7 pieces, it's a whole plastic. She also bought some sky flakes, Tomi, Boy Bawang and other biscuits. A lot of snacks! But unfortunately, she didn't buy my WAM! She forgot, she said. Waha!

Now, three of us have our own physical sickness. My lil' sis has rushes on her butt! - lol! My bro has bruise in his thigh and some peeled skin under his feet! - Ek! And I, got some severe cough and a light flu that I even sneeze twice right after I cough hard, then tears started falling from my eyes. Then my mom is getting somewhat wierd for me...Aha! I hope she's always like that! Inspite of her so many problems she's going through right now, she's still showing some affection towards us.

It's ok now for me even though she won't attend in our school's foundation day. Atleast I know that she does care for us. Yeah!

;D Thank you Father!

Valetines Day??

BE-LATED! TO EVERYONE! especially to Grandia and Nostalgic_charm.

Well, what happend during Velentines Day was truly memorable. Of course I celebrated it with my family. I gave my parents chocolate bars and to my brothers and sisters are four pieces of kisses chocolate (classic chocolater ung flavor) wrapped in a small box with a big ribbon in it (looks stupid but cute). To my mom's secretary, I gave 10 pieces of kisses chocolate wrapped in a box with a green ribbon in it (naubusan ng red).

My plan seemed to work, but I can't keep this up forever. I was the eldest and I guess the only one that can afford chocolates so I have been giving my parents presents during valentines day, father's and mother's day and also their birthdays.

My brother won't even help me prepare nor lend me even a cent. I guess the least I could for him this year is just, let him go away with it.

Unexpectedly, he ruined that day for the whole family. He's the only son and the only one who will bring our surname. You know how men show their love. Well, I guess there are just types or different ways that they show love.

My brother teases, yep, that's his way but there are times that he just can't control it and doesn't know how to stop. After I gave my presents (well, they didn't give me any but their smiles will do! ^.^) my mom continued watching TV and so did my dad. ( Oh, yeah. My mom was complainning to my dad that time, why he didn't gave any present.) My brother was teasing my youngest sister while mom was watching. Of course who will not get mad when someone shouts while your watching a good show. My mom got pissed off and so my brother was sent to our room.

I was in our room, watching TV too when I suddenly heard my mom scolding my brother for my youngest sister was already crying. Of course I had to do something or the evening will be ruined. What I did was, I went into the living room, said sorry in behalf of him and then dragged him into our room. There I continued scolding him. (Lol)

The TV was still on while I deliver my long speech to irritate his ears and well, to also scold him. When I was about to end becoz my throat is protesting to stop, my brother took the remote and turned the volume to 50%.

I stopped talking and just stared at him giving him a puzzled look. Then a girl was talking on the TV and said,

"Why couldn't you be so understanding? Do you have someone to care for? I did everything to make everyone happy and you ruined it!".

We paused for a while, then started laughing together.

That girl just summarized my speech! After laughing, my brother said, "I'M SORRY SIS".

^.^

DoPple - GaNger (mistery)

MISTERY...

How would you react when someone suddenly appears then tells you who you are? Someone that knows your deepest and darkest secrets? Someone that frees your past when you have juz locked them up a few years ago.

Yeah, mistery written everywhere.

I dunno who that person was. I just met him in Imesh. Thought he was a friend but now he turns out to be my reflection. I havn't seen his true form for I considered him as an alien. We had laughs when we first chatted for we had the same ideas to talk about. I thought he was my soul mate, but when he said that he knew me, I started to shiver.

I took it as a joke, I challenged him, so asked him if he knows my name, and he answered me:

"Be it a smile or an invitation,
she'll know how to respond."

and below he typed my name...

Scary it may seem but it kinda interests me. I know when I was in grade two or three, I had a male friend for I have a boyish attitude when I was a kid. He have problems on how to talk to the one he admires and he seeks for my advice. I don't know what to say but I did gave him an answer, and yes, the phrase above was my answer.

Must it be him? No, It can't be. He also knows my present not only my past. He knows the name of my friends and what we always do. He knows the times when we skipped classes and the times when we went to the mall.

Who could he be? Is he a friend or a foe?

Is he me?

A friend of mine told me that he might be my dopple-ganger. I asked for the meaning of it and she said that It was someone alike to you and more like you. A person who has your memories, skills and attitudes, in short, a living me (oh....k.. that's confusing.) or another me (yeh, that could work).

Who could he be?

When I ask his name, he answers:

"you know me" and sometimes adds "silly" in the last word.

Hmm... I guess there's an investigating to do.

* He can't be a relative, I never tell anyone my deepest secrets not even my friends.
* He can't be a member of my family, they don't know that I skipped class.
* He can't be my piano teacher, she doesn't know that I go to malls, and she's a SHE.
* He can't be my brother, he also doesn't know that I skipped class and that phrase.
* He can't be my mother's secretary, she has no right to interfere in my life nor know my
secrets. Well, she's a SHE too. I guess that should not count, he could pretend to be a HE.
* He can't be my old friend, he doesn't know Rachel and Roveann.
* hmm.. running out of ideas.
* yep, can't think of another

any ideas? comments? clues? ANSWERS?

^.^"

lost in my mind...

I don't know but I guess I have something to tell. I have so many things to be post last days, but I didn't have enough energy to open up this pc.

(wat on earth this song is playing! - My Humps by B.E.P.)

Ok, wat's up? My mind is blocked. I want to think and I think I've got something to tell. But something saying me that I don't need and shouldn't to post it here.

Waaaaaaaaaah! I want to! But I can't! (another scene in my mind) What will I do? wawawa!

(Oh yeah! Cry Me A River Remix!) Cry a river for me! - wahahaha!

Right now, I'm just downloading some widgets...I don't have something to do. I want to watch the Animes they lend me, but my cd-rom was already dead!

hanging? wlang ending?

Nothing Beats First Love ^.^

Who is your first love???

When a person asks this to you, it's really hard to answer that person straight. Well, it depends if you trust that person the most. It's really hard to forget the person who first caught your heart especially the moments you both shared. Even if you tell your heart that its over, it just keeps telling you that you once loved that person.

Who is your first love??

Everything's I'm about to say are based on my experience and NoT my story (juz clearing that). When we see our first love pass us by, we just can't take our eyes off that person. When we hear rumors about that person, we just can't control ourselves and pretend that we didn't hear anything. Sometimes even if we tell our friends that we don't like the person, it still hurts if they say that he/she had another person with him/her. Why?

A friend of mine loved a certain boy. Two years passed and she saw the boy dating another girl. It really hurt her a lot. She locked herself up on her room, and there she curled up and cried for almost a week. Yah, for those who don't understand what she was feeling, would think that that was a stupid idea. Others might say that "why didn't she told the guy her feelings?". Well, she already did that five times but the boy only thought of it as a joke.

Before the NCAE, while having our review, she confronted the girl whom the boy she likes dated. She told her that she once loved that boy and she still do. The girl just smiled and listened to what was the teacher teaching. Why? It still hurts for her. She was trying to ignore her feelings but it just won't hold back.

Who is your first love??

C'mon, everyone had their first love, even my little sister. There was once a white american boy who lives near our house. On the contract, he is not my little sister's first love but the second. Anyway, he's name is Talyn (ta-lin) and my little sister's name is roselyn (rose-lin). They are a good match and a perfect couple, and they're friends! Their last meeting was near november (i think), Talyn's birthday. They celebrated his birthday and then on the next day, they left. Well, my sister did not cry, I guess she was so confident that they might see each other again. I can't forget the smile of Talyn's parents. I think they agree's for their pairing. "Too bad, if only I came home earlier, we might have know each other well" was Talyn's mother last long sentence.

Who is your first love??

You can't ask me for you already know mine and I already know yours. Yah, He is our first love and We are his. Nothing can break that love even satan. Satan are just doing tricks so that we will be blinded and break the chain between us and Him. That love will not fade away but if we continually push Him away, it juz might be. Others just wasted time for loving another person. We should learn to love God before we give our heart to another. Only God will approve if that person is the right person for us and he always gives the best for us.

How about you, Who is your first love?? your second?? third??

You know there was a pastor who told us that his first, second, third, fourth and fifth love was God and his sixth was his wife. Isn't he amazing??

^.^

work, work, work!

We've work on to our car project at one classmate's house. I went there at around 1:35 p.m. We ended up our work at around 10:20. Our project is not yet finished. Waaaaaaaaaah! We left our classmate's house at around 10:25 p.m. Three of us walked to find the shortcut to the VEEH gate. We have found the way out at exactly 10:52 p.m. Instead of finding the shortcut, we made long ways - waha! we were lost! Then, I arrived at our home at exactly 11:11 p.m.

It's already 2:42 a.m. I had a hard time doing the accounting homework, for I forgot that the deadline is before 12:00 a.m. and I didn't start anything yet. I used the jpeg format because my excel is not working. I've already made up 30 3D glasses.

Ok, it's already late. I gotta go! ;D

Limit? Limit?

I understand, I understand.

*nod* *nod*

I'm sorry. I know it's hard for you.
Yeah, I know the feeling.
I know how they can be
and I know how I can be

"Growee" was the code given. I guess we underestimated our classmates. We forgot how high their IQ can get. Yes, there are others. That Mr. Oh! so full of cuteness, I havn't forgotten what you told me. I know we both can't see that so called cuteness in him but I forgot why we picked him for teasing. Of course they are others. Other's like that childhood friend of yours and that guy with a weird surname (clue: when we add it to yer RMA, it ends with T! umm, I guess u don't understand huh?)

Yeah, sorry. Very sorry. ~.~"

Like what happened yesterday, When I started being quiet, I guess it juz means that I want to stop that joke. I also hate it when you guyz tease me with that 2 lettered guy. Yeah, its ok if it roams around juz inside the group, but I also hate it when you shouts his name and your eyes are looking straight at me. sigh...

At least yours had a code name...

Sometimes I wonder how regine does it. I mean, when we tease her, I dosn't affect her. Well, she also throws an insult back but...

You know...

When we tease onin, he suddenly walks away and ignores whatever you say to him. But there are times that he just rides with it.

mental note: do be like regine, control your mood swings..

sigh... I don't get it! Do u?

^.^

number ten

Today is my unlucky day when it comes to 10 pesos.

1. We missed Mam Timog for my 10 pesos.
2. The VVEH tricycle driver cheated us. He has gotten my 10 pesos. I thought I need to pay but Rosy already paid up for 4 of us. We didn't recognize the number. We tried to chase him, but he's too fast for us. - of course! lol
3. My 10 pesos load has been eaten by the Smart network. It was happened right after we encountered the tricycle driver. I tried to txt my mom to report this driver, but the message has failed sending.

Waaaaah! I'm so unlucky with number 10!

Gud thing: I've gotten back my 10 pesos from Mam Timog. Waha!

Hey! Money is so hard to get these days! Lol

let da paper be burnt...

Oh yeah! I've already burnt the battle in my heart. Thanks to the activity in bonfire. It's about writing all the things you want to leave in a paper and let it burn in the fire. Waha! The thing I burnt is about accepting failures without any battle to take because whether you win or not, nothing will change.

But I didn't get the look I received yesterday while we're having the activity in the auditorium. I don't understand. Is that person expecting me to give a 'paper heart'? (looks like the title of a song, Paper Heart by All-American Rejects - lol). Hope it's not that the reason. When that person looked at me, I just turned my head to the left trying to avoid the looks. Pls. don't expect me, I might fail to give it. Pls. just forgive me if you didn't receive any from me, 'coz I tried but failed. Ok, ok, enough is enough. It was all done! ;D

wierd...

I don't know! But what happened to me this day is so weird - as always... I don't know if school is just trying to get me back for I've already changed especially that I'm developing my relationship with my family as year '07 entered. I don't know if all happened this day are just nothing - an ordinary day - but isn't! I don't know if studies are just hooking me up for I'd already renounced my studies - if it's not just for my family. I better will choose staying at home to spend my time with my family than going to school.

But I should stay to myself. I'll do my best not to be buried deeply in school. These weird smiles and looks I've seen are just normal - especially their calls. I don't think that they've just done something wrong to me. Or they've just discovered something about me that may turn into a big controversy. Haha! Whatever it is, I don't care!

Honestly, I do like it. But it will just take me away again from my family - I guess.

Ok, bye! I need to study and review again my lessons for tomorrow tests.
Remember what I've said. "Don't be hooked up." ;D

I do like it but shouldn't...

I had a nightmare this morning (I slept at just around 2:30 a.m.). It's kind of a nightmare because I don't like it! Wat on earth! First day of the year, and my first dream of the year!

Actually I dream of my classmates with so many activities in school - but that's not the thing! The nightmare is, it included a person that I shouldn't meet of. It's kinda ok to meet that person in my dream, because it's normal. But the weird thing is that person is included in all the activities in my dream - I mean that @#$% person is a cast in every scene. Whatever! Anyway, that person does not know anything about this. - aha - lol.

Note:
@#$% - I just putted it into signs 'coz I don't know what to type. - lol - I don't know if I'll use my common expressions which are 'stupid' and 'sick'. Try to think of it if I putted either of these words in that signs, uh? - hahahaha - lol

Just like what I said, I putted out here whatever my heart and my mind lead me to. lol

Great! 2007!

Woah! It's already 2007! Oh yes! I'm still alive! I never thought I ended up alive when this year comes. - lol

I slept 3 a.m. - I guess. I experienced great miracles this early morning (around bet. 1:30-2:45). - hehehe. When both hands of the clock stroke 12, I prayed. I saw stars in the sky right after I said straight up to the sky, "I love you God! or Thank you God!". Because that time, black smokes filled the sky and I can't even see any stars. But I hoped and believed that stars will show up. And when I'm about to go inside I said this last phrase while looking in the sky. Then clouds went away and I saw a star. Then stars started showing up again. Great, isn't?

Ok, see ya! May this year be a blessing to you and me!

;D

eh? uh?

Oh yeah! Suddam's dead! But anyway, I don't care. I only know him by his name. May his soul rest in peace. Amen!

I'm so happy! I don't know exactly why but I'm so happy especially today that I've seen many smiles from my mom's face. I tickled - or I may say lambing - my mom for another time around. I guess it's been so long since I last laugh with my mom. I kissed her so many times in her face today - even though it was a request from her. I granted all of her requests today - even though I used not to follow her sometimes. I don't know why but my body and my mind can't stop from calling her, answering her calls, and having some chit-chat and laughs. It's so wierd...But I love it! We chatted about the gifts, the hanging thing in front of our door, about my dad's call, little bull-fight-with-love about the green mangoes I'm about to vanished completely - she said that it's for tomorrow New Year's Eve, but I didn't know that's why I ate half of it today! Haha -, and talked even about Suddam!

That's it! I hope my dad's here with us celebrating New Year's Eve. But he won't because he chose to go home instead at my graduation day. (wat da?! - realizing something) My dad chose to go at my graduation day! (so, what?) How about my grades? I'm sure that he expects me to do my best! (then?) Then, I should maintain high grades. (why? you have average grades and that's enough) Uh? No! He chose to go home at my special day - means end of Highschool - instead of going home last Christmas and celebrating this coming New Year's Eve! (so, what you will do?) I should finish first my projects! (eh? Alam mo naman pla eh!) Hahahaha - lol!

Note:
*bull-fight-with-love = kind of lambing to my mom, with a head use, advancing and bumping her stomach
*she said that it was only 4 green mangoes and I ate 2 of it. I thought that the mangoes eaten by my bro and his friends last day were coming from that plastic, but it isn't. hahaha - lol
*lambing = just ask some Filipino people about its meaning, I don't know either the english equivalent of it.