errrr...baka! =D

asar! badtrip! stupid! jerk! errrr...

dami gagawin ngayong araw na toh! tapos dinagdagan pa ng mga usaping hinde maganda! asar! tapos sunud-sunod pa malas ko! ang malas ko talaga ngayong araw na toh! rarrrrr....

kung nawala lang talaga ako sa sarili ko, I've already killed all the people involved in Education!

kung wala lang ako self-control kanina eh, pinatay ko na si siopao! - lol!

kung wala lang talaga ako patience kanina, medyo maputi pa sana ako ngayon! - haha! lol!

errrrr....asar! ayaw ko na talaga mabuhay!!! - lol!

wat da?! lost en messed up...

wat da?! My day today is no good. We had two quizzes and it's all about math! I only answered 3 numbers out of eigth in Adv. Algeb. - waha! lol! And in Adv. Geom, I didn't get the answers with those two numbers - waaah! Both quizzes' answers are all not sure! I can't concentrate that much during Adv. Algeb, it's because of these things! - waha!

• My stomach hurts, even though I didn't feel of going to the c.r. neither I'm hungry nor it's my day. It won't be because of having the feeling of going to the c.r., I did it before going to school! - lol! I may be hungry, but I ate even a little before going to school and I know whether I'm hungry or what. It never be because it's my day, I'm already finished week ago.
• I feel my saliva drooling out - yuck! I mean I feel something blocking my throat - it's saliva! yuck! lol! - and I can't help myself but to cough even though I don't want.
  

wat da?! All I can say is I lost and messed up myself today.

wat da?! But I think I know the reason. I didn't pray after I woke up nor before going to school. It's just I lost myself to God. I guess, next time I need to wake up early so that I'll have enough time to pray and communicate with my Father.

play life or not?

3 of us included Rosy's brother played counter strike until 6:30 p.m. My mom was already calling me and I'm just ignoring it, afraid to be shouted.

We should have gone together in Marikina to meet my grandma (father's side). But I insisted that I'll just follow after an hour. But instead of an hour, it turned into 2 hrs and 30 mins. When we were just in the middle of the game, my mom was keeping on calling on my cell & texted me. I texted back after so many unanswered calls. Finally, we finished our game and answered my mom's call. Of course, what you'd expect? I can't stand her voice and shouting that I even keep a distance between my ear and my cell. But in the end, my mom called me for the last time with calm voice.

Honestly, I don't care whether I'll meet my grandma or not. And especially I don't want to go there at Marikina - so bored! This is the second time I met my grandma again - they said - but for me I think it's the first time. For my bro, it's also the second time - if he remembers; but for my sis, it's the first time. Then after so many talks and singing made by my lil' sis, we finally decided to go home - I was bored! But before we rode bicycles, my bro, my sis and my mom were talking so loud in front of a sari-sari store. I was just walking back and forth in the same direction. They made me little pissed off.

Before we rode a jeep going home, my dad called my mom in her cell. Of course they talked, then my mom handed me her cell so that I could talk to my dad. Whatever! - lol

Then, now, I'm home! (Wat da?!) I was just finished playing Harvest Moon in GBA.

number ten

Today is my unlucky day when it comes to 10 pesos.

1. We missed Mam Timog for my 10 pesos.
2. The VVEH tricycle driver cheated us. He has gotten my 10 pesos. I thought I need to pay but Rosy already paid up for 4 of us. We didn't recognize the number. We tried to chase him, but he's too fast for us. - of course! lol
3. My 10 pesos load has been eaten by the Smart network. It was happened right after we encountered the tricycle driver. I tried to txt my mom to report this driver, but the message has failed sending.

Waaaaah! I'm so unlucky with number 10!

Gud thing: I've gotten back my 10 pesos from Mam Timog. Waha!

Hey! Money is so hard to get these days! Lol

wrecked door

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

I'm cd-rom is keep on opening and closing! - like a wrecked door! I don't know what to do. I've already tried restarting my pc and shutting it off for so long, but nothing changes after I opened it again.

I hope somebody out there can help me out...Please! I'm begging you! Help me!!!

let da paper be burnt...

Oh yeah! I've already burnt the battle in my heart. Thanks to the activity in bonfire. It's about writing all the things you want to leave in a paper and let it burn in the fire. Waha! The thing I burnt is about accepting failures without any battle to take because whether you win or not, nothing will change.

But I didn't get the look I received yesterday while we're having the activity in the auditorium. I don't understand. Is that person expecting me to give a 'paper heart'? (looks like the title of a song, Paper Heart by All-American Rejects - lol). Hope it's not that the reason. When that person looked at me, I just turned my head to the left trying to avoid the looks. Pls. don't expect me, I might fail to give it. Pls. just forgive me if you didn't receive any from me, 'coz I tried but failed. Ok, ok, enough is enough. It was all done! ;D

uh-oh!

I think there are things I wanted to say. I guess there so many that most of it were forgotten to post.

Ok, let's just start today. Or I may say what I feel today.

• I want to sleep. But my mind doesn't want to.
• Just before going home - sick! - I heard something. I don't want to remember it no more!
• And plus! After I had finish taking the test in Filipino and I'm about to review for Adv. Algeb, I hate what I heard!
• It's connected yesterday, when I was reviewing with Zyra at Rosy's chair. Waaaaah! I really hate to hear those things!

I hate all things that I heard today! Hey! Pls. just don't think about it!

Aw! I know that truth always sets us free. But what if truths will cage our happiness?

What do you prefer?
a.) you see everyone's happy but you're lonely. you sacrifice your happiness for the sake of others' happiness
b.) you're happy but there are people who is not. people will just forget their happiness for you.

Do you watch 'Abt ur luv' in Star Magic Presents in ABS-CBN every Saturday? It's somewhat related to one's 'happiness'. ;D

It's just give and take. Or I may say a battle that only one is a true winner. One must lose for the win of the other.

;D

too insensitive...

Am I becoming too insensitive? If I am, please tell it to me. I won't be angry to you instead thank you.

Why am I just ignoring the things that are already said many times to me? (Am I becoming confusing?)

I didn't know that there is a conflict between my mom and my big sister. I guess I know it but didn't recognize. Or am I just swallowed completely by my being 'pretender'? - swallowed until it's now a normal thing to me and end up 'too insensitive'.

Waaaaaaaaaaaah! I'm still in the process...

I hate every single thing I've done wrong!!! I don't want to study no more!!! I don't want to work no more!!! I don't want to live no more!!! I want to go now in heaven!!! (exaggerating...lol)

But anyway, I need to wait...

Bye! Gotta need to review for tomorrow $%#@ test. - wahahahaha! Lol

P.S. Rosy, nahulaan mo na ung password mo? Gus2 mo tulungan kita? sabihin mo sakin ung mga possible passwords mo? - hehehehe