wat da life rove

Do you think my mom buys me everything that I want? 

No it's not.

All my wants came from my own blood and sweat. 

My mom never bought me anything that I told her I would love to have.

From my sneakers, PS3, posters, albums, clothes..

I started buying on my own since I'm about to finish College.. until now...

I'm still a kid. Yeah.

I would like to experience all the things that I know can make me happy, smile, and laugh.

I wouldn't know. One day, I might never wake up again. 

That's why every chance is important to me.

I still do slow down at times. I know my limit.

But wat da on earth? 

Argh!!!~

I work for my own. I live on my own.

I pay even my stay here (inc. food, transpo, etc.)

One day, I was thinkin'.. What if I just bore a child and have someone.

Maybe my parents will provide all the things I need - even for my child?

Hahaha! Silly thoughts..

Anyway, I just gotta tell my mom that I won't be able to give her half of my salary for the following months.

I gotta pay my debt to my credit line. (Sick PS3!) Tsktsk.

Bbye!~

God knows my heart. Jesus knows me.

They know all about me. Though I don't understand myself, they do. 

STRESS!! +_+ XD

I wanna die.

I wanna kill myself.

I wanna.. Argh!!!

Stress!!!!!

It's killing me.

Wat to do. Wat to do.

Otoke.. Doushiyou..

My life's now a mess.

Couldn't explain it.

I hate what I'm feeling now.

My lil' sister is much affected. And so do I.

I just don't make it obvious. 

I think I gotta start preparing for myself in da future.

It's a disease. And it is spreading rapidly.

I hate it.

Age gap is very big.

It's not suitable in the eyes.

I hate it.

Why does it have to be like this.?

Why does He permitted something like this to happen.?

Wae? Wae? Doushite? Doushite?

I wanna go home now.!!! 

Or go somewhere else where I wanna be myself alone.

STRESS!!!! +_+