I've talked to close friends who are older than me and more experienced than me in terms of romantic love.
They all told me to stop messaging チャ and just let her be. Give her space and time. If she comes back, then she really loves me and really wanted to spend the rest of her life with me. I'll accept her with open arms in a condition that we'll both work together to make the relationship lasts. If she'll not, then I have to move forward and let this be a valuable lesson to me.
It's God telling me to either, "Wait, not yet." or "Nope, I'll give you much better than you think."
My utmost desire is her wellness and happiness that's why I agreed to let her go. That's how much I cherish and love her. I really thank チャ for the love and 5 years experience, I really learned a lot. I won't forget all these experiences and lesson because I don't want to lose my next love in the future. I've decided to settle down with my next relationship. :)
**currently listening to GG's playlist**
Malay mo, GG member pala makatuluyan ko. HAHAHA! Pag nangyari to, talo ko pa nanalo sa lotto. LOL! Pero bago mangyari yan, I need to be a deserving person - wealthy, healthy, and strong! Good looking, faithful, kind, hardworking, and God-fearing na ko. Konting spice nalang kulang, I'm perfect! Haha! Perfect for my destined woman. ^_^
One day, I'll look back at mapapangiti nalang ako sa experiences ko (while reading my old blog posts) and sasabihin na "I was mature back then but very impulsive."
Live simply.
Dream big.
Give thanks.
Love freely.
Laugh lots.
Nothing is impossible with Him. =D
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Wednesday, July 29, 2020
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
bye-bye to my fellow 4th yearz!
aww...
The end is near!!!
But it doesn't give you an assurance that you can't visit the house of your classmate and clean their ref. or meet them at the train station, you'll only acquire freedom from the faces of your classmates.
err.. right??
But on the other side, it's still sad because you need to befriend someone again who will allow you to copy from his/her assignment. That's hard! and I'm figuring a way on how to approach them.
Sigh
Sigh
Sigh
But there's one thing to say
to try to make yourself feel better
on the day of graduation...
"There is a time for departure even when there's no certain place to go."
haha! connetion? but if you'll try to look through it maybe you'll find that "connection". Corny...
Sigh
Sigh
Sigh
umm... that's all folks! and sayonara to all the graduates!
Maybe, I'll just skip grad huh?
if only I could...
You don't get it? well, me neither.
^.^"
The end is near!!!
But it doesn't give you an assurance that you can't visit the house of your classmate and clean their ref. or meet them at the train station, you'll only acquire freedom from the faces of your classmates.
err.. right??
But on the other side, it's still sad because you need to befriend someone again who will allow you to copy from his/her assignment. That's hard! and I'm figuring a way on how to approach them.
Sigh
Sigh
Sigh
But there's one thing to say
to try to make yourself feel better
on the day of graduation...
"There is a time for departure even when there's no certain place to go."
haha! connetion? but if you'll try to look through it maybe you'll find that "connection". Corny...
Sigh
Sigh
Sigh
umm... that's all folks! and sayonara to all the graduates!
Maybe, I'll just skip grad huh?
if only I could...
You don't get it? well, me neither.
^.^"
Sunday, February 18, 2007
DoPple - GaNger (mistery)
MISTERY...
How would you react when someone suddenly appears then tells you who you are? Someone that knows your deepest and darkest secrets? Someone that frees your past when you have juz locked them up a few years ago.
Yeah, mistery written everywhere.
I dunno who that person was. I just met him in Imesh. Thought he was a friend but now he turns out to be my reflection. I havn't seen his true form for I considered him as an alien. We had laughs when we first chatted for we had the same ideas to talk about. I thought he was my soul mate, but when he said that he knew me, I started to shiver.
I took it as a joke, I challenged him, so asked him if he knows my name, and he answered me:
"Be it a smile or an invitation,
she'll know how to respond."
and below he typed my name...
Scary it may seem but it kinda interests me. I know when I was in grade two or three, I had a male friend for I have a boyish attitude when I was a kid. He have problems on how to talk to the one he admires and he seeks for my advice. I don't know what to say but I did gave him an answer, and yes, the phrase above was my answer.
Must it be him? No, It can't be. He also knows my present not only my past. He knows the name of my friends and what we always do. He knows the times when we skipped classes and the times when we went to the mall.
Who could he be? Is he a friend or a foe?
Is he me?
A friend of mine told me that he might be my dopple-ganger. I asked for the meaning of it and she said that It was someone alike to you and more like you. A person who has your memories, skills and attitudes, in short, a living me (oh....k.. that's confusing.) or another me (yeh, that could work).
Who could he be?
When I ask his name, he answers:
"you know me" and sometimes adds "silly" in the last word.
Hmm... I guess there's an investigating to do.
* He can't be a relative, I never tell anyone my deepest secrets not even my friends.
* He can't be a member of my family, they don't know that I skipped class.
* He can't be my piano teacher, she doesn't know that I go to malls, and she's a SHE.
* He can't be my brother, he also doesn't know that I skipped class and that phrase.
* He can't be my mother's secretary, she has no right to interfere in my life nor know my
secrets. Well, she's a SHE too. I guess that should not count, he could pretend to be a HE.
* He can't be my old friend, he doesn't know Rachel and Roveann.
* hmm.. running out of ideas.
* yep, can't think of another
any ideas? comments? clues? ANSWERS?
^.^"
How would you react when someone suddenly appears then tells you who you are? Someone that knows your deepest and darkest secrets? Someone that frees your past when you have juz locked them up a few years ago.
Yeah, mistery written everywhere.
I dunno who that person was. I just met him in Imesh. Thought he was a friend but now he turns out to be my reflection. I havn't seen his true form for I considered him as an alien. We had laughs when we first chatted for we had the same ideas to talk about. I thought he was my soul mate, but when he said that he knew me, I started to shiver.
I took it as a joke, I challenged him, so asked him if he knows my name, and he answered me:
"Be it a smile or an invitation,
she'll know how to respond."
and below he typed my name...
Scary it may seem but it kinda interests me. I know when I was in grade two or three, I had a male friend for I have a boyish attitude when I was a kid. He have problems on how to talk to the one he admires and he seeks for my advice. I don't know what to say but I did gave him an answer, and yes, the phrase above was my answer.
Must it be him? No, It can't be. He also knows my present not only my past. He knows the name of my friends and what we always do. He knows the times when we skipped classes and the times when we went to the mall.
Who could he be? Is he a friend or a foe?
Is he me?
A friend of mine told me that he might be my dopple-ganger. I asked for the meaning of it and she said that It was someone alike to you and more like you. A person who has your memories, skills and attitudes, in short, a living me (oh....k.. that's confusing.) or another me (yeh, that could work).
Who could he be?
When I ask his name, he answers:
"you know me" and sometimes adds "silly" in the last word.
Hmm... I guess there's an investigating to do.
* He can't be a relative, I never tell anyone my deepest secrets not even my friends.
* He can't be a member of my family, they don't know that I skipped class.
* He can't be my piano teacher, she doesn't know that I go to malls, and she's a SHE.
* He can't be my brother, he also doesn't know that I skipped class and that phrase.
* He can't be my mother's secretary, she has no right to interfere in my life nor know my
secrets. Well, she's a SHE too. I guess that should not count, he could pretend to be a HE.
* He can't be my old friend, he doesn't know Rachel and Roveann.
* hmm.. running out of ideas.
* yep, can't think of another
any ideas? comments? clues? ANSWERS?
^.^"
Friday, February 16, 2007
lost in my mind...
I don't know but I guess I have something to tell. I have so many things to be post last days, but I didn't have enough energy to open up this pc.
(wat on earth this song is playing! - My Humps by B.E.P.)
Ok, wat's up? My mind is blocked. I want to think and I think I've got something to tell. But something saying me that I don't need and shouldn't to post it here.
Waaaaaaaaaah! I want to! But I can't! (another scene in my mind) What will I do? wawawa!
(Oh yeah! Cry Me A River Remix!) Cry a river for me! - wahahaha!
Right now, I'm just downloading some widgets...I don't have something to do. I want to watch the Animes they lend me, but my cd-rom was already dead!
hanging? wlang ending?
(wat on earth this song is playing! - My Humps by B.E.P.)
Ok, wat's up? My mind is blocked. I want to think and I think I've got something to tell. But something saying me that I don't need and shouldn't to post it here.
Waaaaaaaaaah! I want to! But I can't! (another scene in my mind) What will I do? wawawa!
(Oh yeah! Cry Me A River Remix!) Cry a river for me! - wahahaha!
Right now, I'm just downloading some widgets...I don't have something to do. I want to watch the Animes they lend me, but my cd-rom was already dead!
hanging? wlang ending?
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Of headaches and failing grades
It is now 9:34 in the evening... and I am not yet studying for the AP and El Filibusterismo exams. Well, let us just say that studying is really tiring and boring(?!) hehehehehehehehehe.
Anyways... I ruined my thursday morning by waking up 5:00... and knowing that 2 hours to go and I will have my English exams. Do you know why? because I haven't studied yet.
Bummer.
And to add to my sufferings... my mind was blank while answering the exam. Plus, my head was aching and our teacher is telling us to pass our papers (too much pressure to my aching brain.)
That is not the end of it.
After the English exam, I stilll have Physics quiz to worry about.
But thanks to God, I did well in the quiz.
Nevertheless, because of the happiness I felt in the quiz results, my headache came back. It worsen while I study the story 'How my brother Leon brought home a wife' (is the title right?) Furthermore, while doing the quiz, my head really ached. In the end, my score is 0/10 (great right?)
But I still had fun. Even though I gone through all of those - trials (hehehehehehe...) I had fun in playing scrabble. I had fun being with my friends.
I went home happy, momentarily forgotten all the bad things that happened.
Right now, I am now worrying on what to do. Well, I guess, I wasted all my time complaining, that I happen to forgot to thank God to all the grace periods He had given me all these time. Men (I mean women) can be really blind, right?
I know all of the things that is happening around me has a purpose. I know, whether it is a good thing or a bad thing, that there is a reason that I opened my account here and typing my entry in the blog. In short, All things have a purpose according to the will of God.
I hope that something good may happen later on. I wish that may God hear my hopeful prayers. Because I am going to need it.
Lord, what is Your plan for me?
"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
----------------> Guess I don't need a reason to question all of God's doings. He knows what He is doing, right?
Anyways... I ruined my thursday morning by waking up 5:00... and knowing that 2 hours to go and I will have my English exams. Do you know why? because I haven't studied yet.
Bummer.
And to add to my sufferings... my mind was blank while answering the exam. Plus, my head was aching and our teacher is telling us to pass our papers (too much pressure to my aching brain.)
That is not the end of it.
After the English exam, I stilll have Physics quiz to worry about.
But thanks to God, I did well in the quiz.
Nevertheless, because of the happiness I felt in the quiz results, my headache came back. It worsen while I study the story 'How my brother Leon brought home a wife' (is the title right?) Furthermore, while doing the quiz, my head really ached. In the end, my score is 0/10 (great right?)
But I still had fun. Even though I gone through all of those - trials (hehehehehehe...) I had fun in playing scrabble. I had fun being with my friends.
I went home happy, momentarily forgotten all the bad things that happened.
Right now, I am now worrying on what to do. Well, I guess, I wasted all my time complaining, that I happen to forgot to thank God to all the grace periods He had given me all these time. Men (I mean women) can be really blind, right?
I know all of the things that is happening around me has a purpose. I know, whether it is a good thing or a bad thing, that there is a reason that I opened my account here and typing my entry in the blog. In short, All things have a purpose according to the will of God.
I hope that something good may happen later on. I wish that may God hear my hopeful prayers. Because I am going to need it.
Lord, what is Your plan for me?
"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
----------------> Guess I don't need a reason to question all of God's doings. He knows what He is doing, right?
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