w-w-what? i don't know!

Yo! 

Had training in SQL for two consecutive days - though it's just a refresher to me. 

Now, another training in PL/SQL. It's a very important refresher 'cause I've already forgotten a lot from my training last Aug 2011. 

Went to gym  last night - 2nd day.

Goin' to APC later for OCPJP Certification review session. 

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Extra: Don't know exactly what I am feeling..  You know what I mean. If not, well, I don't care. Haha. XD

.........don't know wat to do.....

waha! why is both blogs out here in blogger looks so quiet.... nobody posted their entries neither at the blogs (gardez and ME)...

I think they're just so busy doing their own stuff...and the Graduation day is fast approaching...

but anyway, I should keep on writing out here...just spending my useless time! - hehehe...

waaaaaaaaaah! I don't know what to do now!!!

how about you? can you help me to find and try something new?

allergies!!!

waaaaah! allergies!!!

after such terrible cough i had this past two months, i have now allergies! - wat da?!

first, it covered my whole feet, then legs, then thighs!
second, it covered my whole arms!
third, my back, neck, then my face!

i can't help myself but to scratch...waaaah!

i don't know really its cause...it may be from the food i've eaten or from the dust...i know i have my allergies into these things...

if it's from food, i can't figure out what food i ate...i guess it's not
if it's from the dust, i guess it is!

room is so filthy!
dusts are everywhere...esp. in my pc
unfiled papers are spreading in the racks...
my things are cluttered...
bedsheets, comforter, pillows, and huggable dolls were already more than two months old...i mean needed to be wash...

yuck! i guess i better clean up my room...um,,,maybe tomorrow...hehehe...

see yah! =D

errrr...baka! =D

asar! badtrip! stupid! jerk! errrr...

dami gagawin ngayong araw na toh! tapos dinagdagan pa ng mga usaping hinde maganda! asar! tapos sunud-sunod pa malas ko! ang malas ko talaga ngayong araw na toh! rarrrrr....

kung nawala lang talaga ako sa sarili ko, I've already killed all the people involved in Education!

kung wala lang ako self-control kanina eh, pinatay ko na si siopao! - lol!

kung wala lang talaga ako patience kanina, medyo maputi pa sana ako ngayon! - haha! lol!

errrrr....asar! ayaw ko na talaga mabuhay!!! - lol!

care...wierd...

Waha! I don't know what it is, but I gotta to believe this thing... When I was preparing this morning to go to school, I texted my mom asking about where she is. And I added "pls. txt bck!". After a minute, my phone rings, she was calling. I never thought my mom would call me up when I was just asking her to txt bck. She just asked me why. Then I told her about where she is. (after school) Then I got home, see something to eat. Woah! Lots of food - snacks! It looks like a grocery for a small sari-sari store! Yeah! I told her to buy some pancit canton and that's it - for our snacks. Then instead 5-7 pieces, it's a whole plastic. She also bought some sky flakes, Tomi, Boy Bawang and other biscuits. A lot of snacks! But unfortunately, she didn't buy my WAM! She forgot, she said. Waha!

Now, three of us have our own physical sickness. My lil' sis has rushes on her butt! - lol! My bro has bruise in his thigh and some peeled skin under his feet! - Ek! And I, got some severe cough and a light flu that I even sneeze twice right after I cough hard, then tears started falling from my eyes. Then my mom is getting somewhat wierd for me...Aha! I hope she's always like that! Inspite of her so many problems she's going through right now, she's still showing some affection towards us.

It's ok now for me even though she won't attend in our school's foundation day. Atleast I know that she does care for us. Yeah!

;D Thank you Father!

useless...

Why are they hiding some secrets from me? Or it is just I am who shows do-not-care attitude? Or it is just I'm not asking? Either of them all, I still have the rights to know about these stuffs.

I remembered the talks Karla and I had in Y.M. She had say about printing accounting that I do not know at all. I asked her what it is. Then our question and answer portion lead to her sermons. She said that why I didn't try to ask anybody when we're in school or I just don't care at all - about sorts of stuff. Then she had also say that I should talk even a little because my mouth is becoming useless. And why I can stand not talking for long hours - I might be deaf that's why. Then some people who are deafs are wishing to talk then I, who has given a voice to hear, do not talk at all. Hahahaha! Lol! Our conversation, I mean her sermons, is so fun! I just laugh, but I'm really can't help myself from laughing.

Yeah! I'm not fun of talking when I do not want to or I haven't anything to say. I talk a lot in the right place at the right time. And I also choose topics where I could say senseful things. I feel embarassed afterwards when I talk senseless things. I better love to listen than to talk. But it doesn't meant that I could not talk at all.

Getting away from the main topic... Ahhhhhh! They should have told me! But I think whether they have told me or not, I couldn't do anything at all. I'm just useless. I may be useless this time but someday I can be more than useful -waha! For now I need to be strong and not show any signs of cowardness or weaknesses, even though I'm just watching them.

;D

sweat...excitements?

I'm sweating...(do I said it correctly?) This is the time I saw myself again sweating like this after having watching cool movies - or I should say Anime - and getting excited. I'm sweating, aside from doing heavy works, when I'm feeling an extraordinary excitement!

I finished already the 40 episodes of The Law of Ueki - 11 more to go! And 9 episodes of Shuffle! - I don't know how many episodes it has. The Law of Ueki bursts my desire and love in having adventures! I love its 'protecting' stuffs! Adventures and protecting...that's me! Shuffle, on the other hand, makes me,,,,um,,,,eh,,,,,aha! I don't know! It's like the Anime, Ichigo 100%!

Accounting attempted me to feel dissolate (uh? wat's dis word?). I mean it tried me to feel uneasy. But luckily I am, I'm not yet recovered from the amusement of these Animes, especially Shuffle (the last Anime I watched).

Karla is so fun! She talks a lot! Even here in Y.M. Lol! Hope that she'll come down especially tomorrow. Hehehehe...

Waha! I hope that I could recover even a little so I could concentrate in reviewing this Geom.

See yah! ;D

lost in my mind...

I don't know but I guess I have something to tell. I have so many things to be post last days, but I didn't have enough energy to open up this pc.

(wat on earth this song is playing! - My Humps by B.E.P.)

Ok, wat's up? My mind is blocked. I want to think and I think I've got something to tell. But something saying me that I don't need and shouldn't to post it here.

Waaaaaaaaaah! I want to! But I can't! (another scene in my mind) What will I do? wawawa!

(Oh yeah! Cry Me A River Remix!) Cry a river for me! - wahahaha!

Right now, I'm just downloading some widgets...I don't have something to do. I want to watch the Animes they lend me, but my cd-rom was already dead!

hanging? wlang ending?

wat da?! lost en messed up...

wat da?! My day today is no good. We had two quizzes and it's all about math! I only answered 3 numbers out of eigth in Adv. Algeb. - waha! lol! And in Adv. Geom, I didn't get the answers with those two numbers - waaah! Both quizzes' answers are all not sure! I can't concentrate that much during Adv. Algeb, it's because of these things! - waha!

• My stomach hurts, even though I didn't feel of going to the c.r. neither I'm hungry nor it's my day. It won't be because of having the feeling of going to the c.r., I did it before going to school! - lol! I may be hungry, but I ate even a little before going to school and I know whether I'm hungry or what. It never be because it's my day, I'm already finished week ago.
• I feel my saliva drooling out - yuck! I mean I feel something blocking my throat - it's saliva! yuck! lol! - and I can't help myself but to cough even though I don't want.
  

wat da?! All I can say is I lost and messed up myself today.

wat da?! But I think I know the reason. I didn't pray after I woke up nor before going to school. It's just I lost myself to God. I guess, next time I need to wake up early so that I'll have enough time to pray and communicate with my Father.

play life or not?

3 of us included Rosy's brother played counter strike until 6:30 p.m. My mom was already calling me and I'm just ignoring it, afraid to be shouted.

We should have gone together in Marikina to meet my grandma (father's side). But I insisted that I'll just follow after an hour. But instead of an hour, it turned into 2 hrs and 30 mins. When we were just in the middle of the game, my mom was keeping on calling on my cell & texted me. I texted back after so many unanswered calls. Finally, we finished our game and answered my mom's call. Of course, what you'd expect? I can't stand her voice and shouting that I even keep a distance between my ear and my cell. But in the end, my mom called me for the last time with calm voice.

Honestly, I don't care whether I'll meet my grandma or not. And especially I don't want to go there at Marikina - so bored! This is the second time I met my grandma again - they said - but for me I think it's the first time. For my bro, it's also the second time - if he remembers; but for my sis, it's the first time. Then after so many talks and singing made by my lil' sis, we finally decided to go home - I was bored! But before we rode bicycles, my bro, my sis and my mom were talking so loud in front of a sari-sari store. I was just walking back and forth in the same direction. They made me little pissed off.

Before we rode a jeep going home, my dad called my mom in her cell. Of course they talked, then my mom handed me her cell so that I could talk to my dad. Whatever! - lol

Then, now, I'm home! (Wat da?!) I was just finished playing Harvest Moon in GBA.

Bang! Beng! Boom! - waha!

Waha! We ended up our game at exactly 6:00 p.m. It's so fun! Counter Strike! Even though it's already faded in ages, it's still so fun to play, especially with your friends. Waha!

First, 3 of us played Command and Conqueror: Generals Zero Hour last Sunday at Netopia - day of preparation for Science Fair. Then Half Life last Monday - Science Fair days.

Now, we're 5 who played Counter Strike near One Shop. Waha! ;D

work, work, work!

We've work on to our car project at one classmate's house. I went there at around 1:35 p.m. We ended up our work at around 10:20. Our project is not yet finished. Waaaaaaaaaah! We left our classmate's house at around 10:25 p.m. Three of us walked to find the shortcut to the VEEH gate. We have found the way out at exactly 10:52 p.m. Instead of finding the shortcut, we made long ways - waha! we were lost! Then, I arrived at our home at exactly 11:11 p.m.

It's already 2:42 a.m. I had a hard time doing the accounting homework, for I forgot that the deadline is before 12:00 a.m. and I didn't start anything yet. I used the jpeg format because my excel is not working. I've already made up 30 3D glasses.

Ok, it's already late. I gotta go! ;D

number ten

Today is my unlucky day when it comes to 10 pesos.

1. We missed Mam Timog for my 10 pesos.
2. The VVEH tricycle driver cheated us. He has gotten my 10 pesos. I thought I need to pay but Rosy already paid up for 4 of us. We didn't recognize the number. We tried to chase him, but he's too fast for us. - of course! lol
3. My 10 pesos load has been eaten by the Smart network. It was happened right after we encountered the tricycle driver. I tried to txt my mom to report this driver, but the message has failed sending.

Waaaaah! I'm so unlucky with number 10!

Gud thing: I've gotten back my 10 pesos from Mam Timog. Waha!

Hey! Money is so hard to get these days! Lol

wrecked door

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

I'm cd-rom is keep on opening and closing! - like a wrecked door! I don't know what to do. I've already tried restarting my pc and shutting it off for so long, but nothing changes after I opened it again.

I hope somebody out there can help me out...Please! I'm begging you! Help me!!!

woah!

woah! Instead of finishing up playing at 10:00, I ended it up at 11:11 p.m. How dare I am?!

It's ok. Tomorrow will be a serious day - day for studies even though I'm at home! We need to review for our PT in BRS on Monday. We also have homework and GR in English also on Monday. Wat da?! I thought I could now enjoy my life, now that we're about to graduate.

an ordinary day to be...

I got pics and videos of Chubby. He's so cute because he's chubby! I thought I was late because I woke up late and Chubby was blocking my way going outside. And he's following me that's why I called my mom.

Not much lessons. Woah! We have our new teacher in English this 4th Quarter. Actually she's not new to us for she's been our teacher in English when we're in 2nd yr. But most students know her as a very strict teacher. I mean you will be challenge everyday!

That's it! ;D

uh-oh!

I think there are things I wanted to say. I guess there so many that most of it were forgotten to post.

Ok, let's just start today. Or I may say what I feel today.

• I want to sleep. But my mind doesn't want to.
• Just before going home - sick! - I heard something. I don't want to remember it no more!
• And plus! After I had finish taking the test in Filipino and I'm about to review for Adv. Algeb, I hate what I heard!
• It's connected yesterday, when I was reviewing with Zyra at Rosy's chair. Waaaaah! I really hate to hear those things!

I hate all things that I heard today! Hey! Pls. just don't think about it!

Aw! I know that truth always sets us free. But what if truths will cage our happiness?

What do you prefer?
a.) you see everyone's happy but you're lonely. you sacrifice your happiness for the sake of others' happiness
b.) you're happy but there are people who is not. people will just forget their happiness for you.

Do you watch 'Abt ur luv' in Star Magic Presents in ABS-CBN every Saturday? It's somewhat related to one's 'happiness'. ;D

It's just give and take. Or I may say a battle that only one is a true winner. One must lose for the win of the other.

;D

All About Sheckler...

This is Sheckler.

He is Ryan Sheckler.

How's dat?

The coolest skateboarder, for me, next to Tony Hawk.

He's really a CHAMP! ===>

<=== See! He does also like color white with a combination of red.

Look! I bet that he also like color green. ===>

<=== He look like a ten-year-old boy here. But actually he's a year older than me.

I think he look like someone I know...um...

too insensitive...

Am I becoming too insensitive? If I am, please tell it to me. I won't be angry to you instead thank you.

Why am I just ignoring the things that are already said many times to me? (Am I becoming confusing?)

I didn't know that there is a conflict between my mom and my big sister. I guess I know it but didn't recognize. Or am I just swallowed completely by my being 'pretender'? - swallowed until it's now a normal thing to me and end up 'too insensitive'.

Waaaaaaaaaaaah! I'm still in the process...

I hate every single thing I've done wrong!!! I don't want to study no more!!! I don't want to work no more!!! I don't want to live no more!!! I want to go now in heaven!!! (exaggerating...lol)

But anyway, I need to wait...

Bye! Gotta need to review for tomorrow $%#@ test. - wahahahaha! Lol

P.S. Rosy, nahulaan mo na ung password mo? Gus2 mo tulungan kita? sabihin mo sakin ung mga possible passwords mo? - hehehehe

wierd...

I don't know! But what happened to me this day is so weird - as always... I don't know if school is just trying to get me back for I've already changed especially that I'm developing my relationship with my family as year '07 entered. I don't know if all happened this day are just nothing - an ordinary day - but isn't! I don't know if studies are just hooking me up for I'd already renounced my studies - if it's not just for my family. I better will choose staying at home to spend my time with my family than going to school.

But I should stay to myself. I'll do my best not to be buried deeply in school. These weird smiles and looks I've seen are just normal - especially their calls. I don't think that they've just done something wrong to me. Or they've just discovered something about me that may turn into a big controversy. Haha! Whatever it is, I don't care!

Honestly, I do like it. But it will just take me away again from my family - I guess.

Ok, bye! I need to study and review again my lessons for tomorrow tests.
Remember what I've said. "Don't be hooked up." ;D